After Pretending To Have Amnesia, My Rival Said I Was His Boyfriend - Chap 36
The summer vacation when Ji Canghai and Ling Yunfan met was just an ordinary summer vacation with friends for Ling Yunfan.
　But for Ji Canghai, it is the learning time for him to correct his misunderstanding of interpersonal relationship.
　Politeness will make people like it, and timely conversation is necessary. Discomfort needs to be tolerated to a certain extent, but you must speak up when you break your bottom line.
　How to say hello, how to chat, how to judge the emotion of the other party’s words, what kind of attitude should be taken when facing people of different ages.
　These are what Ji Canghai learned when observing Ling Yunfan chatting with others.
　The cheerful and lively Ling Yunfan is an excellent teacher.
　It was also during that time that Ji Canghai realized that his family relationship was very distorted and pathological.
　For the first time, Ji Canghai had the idea of ​​having a good talk with his mother.
　He tried to understand her as best he could.
　When Ji Canghai was looking for an opportunity to talk to his mother, an opportunity came – Ling Yunfan took him to have his hair cut.
　After Ji Canghai returned home, his mother was taken aback for a moment when she saw him looking clean and neat, showing his facial features.
　Then the mother reached out and stroked the broken hair on his forehead, with a rare gentle expression, she said softly, “You have grown up so much.”
　”Mom.” Ji Canghai was nervous, and grabbed the palm of his left hand with his right hand, “Do you think it looks good?”
　”Looks good.” Mother nodded, the corners of her mouth raised inaudibly.
　That was the first time Ji Canghai saw his mother smile, and he was stunned.
　He suddenly felt that maybe one day, he could hear the words ‘I love you’ from his mother.
　Ji Canghai was so excited that he couldn’t help talking: “The grandfather who cut my hair today said that my eyes look like yours, so I also feel…”
　Ji Canghai’s words stopped abruptly because he noticed that his mother’s face had changed.
　The mother seemed to wake up from an illusory dream and had to face the cruel truth. She was angry, powerless, and collapsed. She said: “You are not like me, you should not be like me.”
　”But you are my mother, of course I am like you.” Ji Canghai said anxiously.
　The mother kept shaking her head, and she said, “I don’t want to be your mother, I don’t want to, you shouldn’t have been born.”
　The young Ji Canghai was once again pushed into the abyss by his mother, and his voice became crying: “Why?”
　The mother reached out and grabbed the back of her neck. There was a long-lasting tooth mark on her glands, which was the proof after Alpha marked Omega. She tried hard, and the long nails dug out blood from the back of the neck. The facial features Distorted, growled: “Why do you ask me, how can you ask me, you go ask him, ask him why he wants to destroy me… Ah, look carefully, the more you grow up, the more you resemble him, disgusting, too Disgusting.”
　She couldn’t hold back the shaking of her body and rushed to the bathroom to vomit.
　Tears rolled down from Ji Canghai’s eyes, he choked up, turned around and left the house, squatted behind the garden of the community and wept loudly.
　Ji Canghai originally thought that he would sleep in the open for one night.
　But what Ji Canghai never expected was that Ling Yunfan found him, appeared suddenly like when they first met, and brought light into the darkness.
　Ling Yunfan said to him: “I think you are very good.”
　Ling Yunfan also said: “I definitely like you.”
　A miracle happened again.
　Ji Canghai grabbed Ling Yunfan’s sleeve, like a person about to fall into the abyss, clung to the vines on the cliff.
　It was also that day that Ji Canghai’s mood changed.
　He thinks that he doesn’t need the love of his mother or anyone else at all. He will stand up straight, pick up his dignity, and stop humbly asking others to give him some love.
　Because he has Ling Yunfan.
　But then, he screwed up everything.
　On the day when the results of the second trait were announced, Ji Canghai took the form for receiving the checklist and asked his mother to sign it.
　After the mother signed it, she said lightly: “I hope you are a Beta…”
　At that time, Ji Canghai prayed day and night to be an Omega so that he could be marked by Ling Yunfan.
　So he got angry at his mother for the first time in his life, and he said coldly: “I will be an Omega, but I will never be an Omega like you. What’s the point of living like this?”
　But everything is not as he wished.
　That day, Alpha was impressively written on his checklist, and then he found that Ling Yunfan was attracted by other people’s pheromones, and because he was too afraid of being abandoned, Ji Canghai lost his temper for no reason and yelled at Ling Yunfan.
　He personally destroyed their intimacy.
　On the same day, Ji Canghai returned home in a daze. When he opened the door, he found his mother lying on the living room floor with an empty bottle of sleeping pills in hand.
　His mother committed suicide.
　She finally smashed her dilapidated self completely.
　Ji Canghai didn’t know how he spent that day. He only remembered that he picked up the phone with trembling hands and pressed the wrong button three times before he managed to get through and call for an ambulance. When the doctor arrived, he shook his head at his mother’s body and called the police. .
　The noise of the surrounding neighbors mixed with the inquiries of the doctors and the police gave him a splitting headache.
　When everything calmed down, a man in a suit and leather shoes stood in front of him.
　That was his father.
　When his father saw him, the first thing he said was: “What are you holding in your hand?”
　Ji Canghai looked down blankly, and found that he had been clutching the secondary trait checklist tightly.
　Father took the checklist in his hand, glanced at it, and suddenly smiled playfully: “Alpha, interesting, let’s go.”
　”Where are you going?” Ji Canghai asked him.
　Father said, “Go where you can.”
　From that day on, Ji Canghai suffered from a disease called Nightmare.
　He would often see his rotting mother standing by the bed in the dark night, staring straight at him, with dirty blood and tears flowing from her empty eyes, repeating a sentence: “What’s the point of living like this?”
　At such moments, Ji Canghai would feel that his mind was very clear, but his body was like being pressed by a stone, and he couldn’t move no matter what.
　In fact, Ji Canghai understood one thing deep in his heart.
　It wasn’t his mother who was blaming him.
　It’s because he doesn’t want to let himself go.
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　Ling Yunfan went to bed too late that night, and as a result struggled several times the next morning but failed to get up.
　Ji Canghai had to go into the master bedroom and call him: “Yunfan, you’re going to be late for class, get up quickly.”
　Ling Yunfan sat up vigorously, was dazed and failed to open his eyes, and lay down with his head up again.
　”Yunfan.” Ji Canghai walked to the bed and patted Ling Yunfan’s shoulder, trying to wake him up.
　Ling Yunfan muttered: “Wait a minute, sleep for another five minutes, I just dreamed that the Jade Emperor was writing me the equation to solve Goldbach’s conjecture, I have to go back to dream, he will finish writing it soon, and he will give it to me I saw…”
　Ji Canghai: “…”
　Ji Canghai leaned over and stretched out his hand, and hugged Ling Yunfan horizontally.
　The momentary suspension scared Ling Yunfan’s soul back from the Jade Emperor: “Ah? Ah? Ah?”
　His limbs danced wildly, but fortunately Ji Canghai had a strong arm, so he held him firmly.
　Ji Canghai carried him to the restaurant, put him lightly on a chair, and put a steaming cup of coffee in front of him.
　Ling Yunfan leaned forward, leaned his forehead against the edge of the table, and said weakly, “Didn’t you sleep well last night? Why are you so energetic?”
　Ji Canghai took a sip of the coffee in the white porcelain mug in his hand, and said casually, “I’m used to it.”
　”Habit?” Ling Yunfan raised his head and asked suspiciously, “Do you often have nightmares?”
　Ji Canghai paused, then smiled at Ling Yunfan: “Not at all.”
　Ling Yunfan’s eyes fluttered, and he pressed the matter into his heart, but he didn’t ask, he yawned and stretched, picked up the coffee and blew several breaths, drank it down, and finally went to brush his teeth, wash his face and change his clothes.
　His schedule was as full as ever, and it was already dusk after the last class of the day.
　Ling Yunfan picked up his schoolbag and walked towards the school gate, wondering if he should go before visiting the restaurant.
　Just as the thought came to him, the phone in his pocket rang for a text message.
　Ling Yunfan took out his mobile phone and saw that it was a text message from Ji Canghai.
　[Is get out of class over? I’ll wait for you at the school gate. 】
　Ling Yunfan muttered: “So punctual? Does he have my schedule?”
　Ling Yunfan had no choice but to give up the idea of ​​going to the restaurant again, and walked quickly to the school gate.
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　After the two returned home and had dinner, Ling Yunfan turned on his laptop to do group work.
　Ji Canghai didn’t bother him, and put a cup of hot water beside him as usual.
　Later, Ji Canghai came over to remind Ling Yunfan to rest early.
　Ji Canghai said: “You didn’t sleep well last night, you should go to bed early today.”
　”Okay.” Ling Yunfan didn’t hesitate, simply saved his homework, turned off the computer, said goodnight to Ji Canghai after washing up, and went back to the master bedroom to turn off the lights and lie down.
　But Ling Yunfan didn’t sleep.
　He turned on the bedside lamp and picked up the book to read under the warm yellow light.
　When he looked at it, he saw it was past two o’clock in the morning.
　Ling Yunfan glanced at the time on the phone and felt that it was almost the same, so he got up, went to the living room and poured himself a cup of hot water, then stood by the door of the guest bedroom, leaning against the wall and guarding.
　To be honest, his approach was both thankless and a bit weird.
　After all, squatting at the door of the bedroom at night, no matter how you think about it, it makes people feel nervous.
　But Ling Yunfan has always believed in his intuition.
　He felt that what troubled Ji Canghai yesterday was not an ordinary nightmare, and he also felt that Ji Canghai was lying when he said ‘nor’.
　Ling Yunfan waited in the dark for about ten minutes, the guest bedroom was quiet and there was no sound.
　Ling Yunfan had to admit that he was waiting blindly, yawned and walked to the master bedroom, thinking about having a cup of strong coffee tomorrow morning to refresh himself.
　Just as he turned around, a muffled hum came clearly into his ears.
　Ling Yunfan’s footsteps stopped suddenly.
　The muffled moans in the guest bedroom gradually turned into moans of pain, exactly the same as last night.
　Ling Yunfan didn’t hesitate, he pushed open the door of the guest bedroom, touched the wall to turn on the light, and walked quickly to the bed.
　Ji Canghai looked more painful than yesterday, with shortness of breath, chattering teeth, sweating profusely, and waving his hands slightly, as if trying to drive away or grab something.
　Ling Yunfan called him: “Ji Canghai! Are you okay?”
　Unexpectedly, Ji Canghai never woke up.
　Ling Yunfan simply grabbed his hands, pressed his shoulders, and shook him vigorously: “Ji Canghai, wake up, hey, if you don’t wake up again, I’m going to be attacked at night. Let me tell you, I’m a man who keeps his promises, what the hell!”
　Ji Canghai suddenly opened his chaotic eyes, unconsciously stretched out his hand and yanked Ling Yunfan onto the bed, turned over and held him down, grabbed his shoulder with one hand, and pressed his neck with the other.
