Apex Predator - Chap 109

Qu Moyu’s brain, which was born to create great value, was now like an empty valley, echoing what his mother had just said.

Mrs. Qu was annoyed for a moment, and seemed to let go of a heavy burden at the other moment. Speak up, finally speak out.

Qu Moyu trembled and said, “What… mean.”

“If you have a child, you can’t use anesthetics on the glands. This is common sense, right? You haven’t thought about why Qiuqiu can still recover after he washes off the marks.” Do you want to stay?” Mrs. Qu gently covered her mouth with her hands, and said tremblingly, “In order to keep Qiuqiu, he chose not to take anesthetics… on the day of your engagement.”

Qu Moyu’s eyes were straight Staring blankly at the ground, stiff for a long time, he put his head in his hands and grabbed his hair forcefully.

He thought about it, but he didn’t think about it carefully. He thought it was some medical method he didn’t understand that allowed Shen Dai to wash off the mark and at the same time keep the child. No matter what, he never thought about such a cruel possibility—— —When Shen Dai washed the mark, he didn’t use anesthesia, in order to keep Qiuqiu.

No narcotics.

Glands are very fragile, sensitive and important organs in the human body. When traumatized, they will feel pain more than many parts. Such places have to endure a series of procedures such as incision with a scalpel, extraction of glandular fluid, dialysis purification, and sutures. Severe pain, this unimaginable torture, happened to Shen Dai, to his omega.

How painful it should be, how painful it should be, how painful it should be!

When Shen Dai was lying in the pale operating room and experiencing inhuman pain, he got engaged to Zhou Xiaochu in the magnificent banquet hall. He couldn’t imagine what Shen Dai was thinking at that time, how many tears she shed, and what kind of screams he made.

Qu Moyu seemed to recall everything that happened between the two of them in an instant, what he said, did, and made mistakes, Shen Dai’s every tear and plea, every minute of his life. Indifference and every persecution, what has he done to the one he loves? !

For a long time, his body’s defense mechanism has been preventing himself from uncovering the veil of memories. He only occasionally glimpsed the despicableness and embarrassment of the past from the flying dust, which was enough to arouse his debt and love for Shen Dai, as if subconsciously He knew very well that once he remembered everything, once he replaced himself in Shen Dai’s experience, he would be torn to pieces by guilt, remorse and self-blame.

Has he always been this selfish and shameless? When it’s time to retreat, I still want to escape!

He loves Shen Dai so much, so he is afraid, afraid to face up to the unrecoverable harm he has caused to Shen Dai, afraid that after seeing this clearly, there will be no way to lie to himself that Shen Dai will come back, afraid that no matter what he pays, how much he makes up for , he didn’t even have the confidence and qualifications to imagine that Shen Dai would still love him.

But now he has to open his eyes, clear away the fog of memories, and see clearly one by one, bit by bit, what he has done to Shen Dai, and see clearly what Shen Dai has done to Shen Dai. Dai why can’t forgive himself.

He despised, misunderstood, humiliated, threatened, and oppressed Shen Dai. He knew that Shen Dai liked him but he didn’t take it seriously. He knew that Shen Dai didn’t calculate and he didn’t care about Shen Dai’s innocence. Killing the child, washing off the mark, even after the two reunited, he continued to threaten and hurt Shen Dai.

He even felt aggrieved and ashamed by Shen Dai’s refusal, why should he? !

For Qiuqiu, from pregnancy to childbirth to upbringing, what Shen Dai encountered, sacrificed, abandoned, and gave, everything he could imagine and what he couldn’t imagine, was all engraved on his soul and became He cannot erase and cover up the sins, and he will experience repeated torture and execution for the rest of his life, and he will never be freed.

Seeing Qu Moyu’s face distorted by the extreme pain, Mrs. Qu was also unbearably sad, with tears in her eyes, she whispered: “Your father always said that I am facing outsiders, and I don’t want to, but, you are really sorry. Him.” She originally planned not to tell this secret in her life, one was Shen Dai’s request, and the other was that she saw her son really fell in love with Shen Dai, once she told it, he might not be able to bear it, but if any He marked Shen Dai in anger, everything is really irreparable. She has personally experienced the pain of having a physical mark with Qu Shenkong but no spiritual connection, the pain of love and hate, closeness and alienation. She knows that Shen Dai will not be able to achieve consummation with Qu Moyu because of being marked, The two will only torture each other for a lifetime in an inextricable bondage.

She also wants them to be free from pain, and she also wants to reunite the family, however, love can only be overcome by itself.

Qu Moyu’s head almost fell to his chest, and he was drowned in a sea of ​​bitterness by the great regret, and he was almost unable to breathe. He never thought that one day he would hate himself so much, and he murmured in a hoarse and disfigured voice: “What should I do.”

It seemed that everyone and every force in this world was preventing him from being with Shen Dai. The more he wanted to hold on to Shen Dai, the more he wanted to escape. He tried his best He was still powerless to solve the problem. He was so energetic that he thought he could climb any mountain, but he couldn’t hold a puddle of clear water with his hands.

Mrs. Qu sighed, she didn’t know how to comfort her son: “The most important thing now is to solve You Xinghai’s problem, no matter what, Shen Dai cannot be made to bear these.” Qu Moyu slowly clenched his fists, he could

not The resentment vented everywhere suddenly had a specific direction.

“You’re so smart, but you actually know what to do in your heart. If you don’t want the person you love to treat you, then don’t treat the person you love like that.” Mrs. Qu said softly, “No matter what education you have, no matter what S-level Alpha is much superior to ordinary people, everyone is equal in love.”

Qu Moyu closed his eyes.

Equality, such a simple word, is the word that is farthest between “knowing” and “doing” in this world.

“I’ll go in and see him first.” Madam Qu walked to the door, knocked lightly, and said softly, “Adai, it’s me.” There was no

response from the room, Madam Qu hesitated for a moment, opened the door and left go in.

Shen Dai sat in the corner of the sofa, holding Qiuqiu with a blank expression, as if the child in his arms was the only connection between him and the world, other than that, there was nothing else in his eyes.

Mrs. Qu felt anxious, she sat aside, and said bitterly: “I look at you, as if I saw myself back then.”

Shen Dai’s eyes drifted over. He didn’t know what a normal person would think at this moment after experiencing so many setbacks. His brain seemed to be temporarily frozen.

“But you are stronger than me. You can protect your own children. I can’t. I can’t protect the first one, and I can’t protect the second one well.” The pain in Mrs. Qu’s eyes is indescribable.

Shen Dai lowered his head and glanced at the sleeping toddler. He realized very early on that he had nothing but Qiuqiu. He guarded his child to death, so he was saving himself.

“Can we have a chat?” Mrs. Qu said softly.

Shen Dai said indifferently: “I am always grateful to you, but you are also from the Qu family.” He didn’t believe that Madam Qu didn’t know Qiuqiu’s rank, and as Qiuqiu’s omega father, he was the last one to know. He knew very well that the reason why Mrs. Qu helped him was ultimately for her own son. When their interests conflicted, she would definitely give priority to her son. rife with betrayals by those closest to him.

“My surname is not Qu. My surname is Liang. Before I was only remembered as Mrs. Qu, my name was Liang Rui.” She seemed to feel a little unfamiliar with her name, and repeated, “Liang Rui.” Shen

Dai There was something inexplicably touched in my heart.

“I am an omega married by the Qu family, which does not mean that I agree with all the practices of the Qu family, because I have also suffered from it.” Liang Rui’s face showed a layer of sadness, “I have always wanted to help you, you can trust me .”

Shen Dai’s face is still written with defense, against everyone.

Liang Rui said solemnly: “I am Mo Yu’s mother. I wish him well, but I also wish you well. I will not defend him for his mistakes, but I must help him clarify some misunderstandings. Mo Yu is by no means I want you because of Qiuqiu. He and I knew Qiuqiu’s pheromone level at the same time. When you were in the hospital last time, he was afraid of your misunderstanding and what his father would do if he found out, so he decided to hide it. Everyone.”

Shen Dai lowered his head without saying a word.

“I know you can’t believe it now, but there must be many traces of the truth that can be verified. It all depends on whether you want to know.” Liang Ruiwen said, “I always feel that you are stronger than me, smarter than me, more resistant than me, and better than me. With decisiveness and survivability, I have no power to fight back in the game with my alpha, so I lost my first child and the possibility of happiness, do you want to admit defeat?” Shen Dai’s body trembled slightly

. shock.