Apex Predator - Chap 123
When facing an eternal separation from an important person, everyone will be forced to think about the meaning of life and death, trying to use higher-dimensional interpretations to alleviate the pain of parting.
Shen Dai remembers that when his grandfather passed away, he sat in the stairwell of the hospital and cried bitterly. At that time, he was not only crying for the departure of his loved ones, but also crying for all the sufferings brought about by the family changes, and crying that he was about to face a high-pressure life. future.
Almost ten years have passed, and some questions will not be better answered because of the growth of age and experience, but they will no longer need to be answered, and time can indeed make people stronger.
When Shen Qin couldn’t stand crying, Shen Dai’s first reaction was numbness. He seemed to have previewed it a thousand times, calmly accepted the fact that his grandma passed away, and thanked the doctors and nurses, but he didn’t say goodbye to his grandma. , because before that, every time grandma woke up, they were saying goodbye.
Qu Moyu was wearing a hospital gown, silently staying by Shen Dai’s side.
After Shen Dai finished issuing the death certificate, he didn’t know if he was sleepy, hungry or tired, but he didn’t feel very comfortable, so he sat on a chair to rest. Suddenly, a cup of hot tea was handed to him, and he froze for a moment, as if he just started from himself at this time. He poked his head out of the world and found Qu Moyu.
“Adai, are you okay?” Qu Moyu asked worriedly. He knew that the relationship between Shen Dai and his grandma was very deep, it was the most reliable, profound and selfless nurturing grace in the world, but at this time Shen Dai was acting too calm, abnormally calm.
Shen Dai took the tea and took a sip. The warm and fragrant liquid flowed down the throat into his stomach, and his whole body immediately warmed up. He said: “Fortunately, grandma has been ill for five or six years. I made preparations a long time ago.”
“You have tried your best, tried your best to take care of her, and tried your best to treat her illness, but what a pity she suffered from an incurable disease, which has nothing to do with whether you are rich or dedicated.” Shen Dai said:
” I understand.”
Qu Moyu frowned and looked at Shen Dai: “You don’t need to suppress yourself if you have any emotions.”
Shen Dai looked down at the death certificate in his hand, was silent for a while, and said: “There are still a lot of things to do, look at Shen Qin, he was spoiled and spoiled since he was a child, he can only do some basic things, other than that, he doesn’t have many life skills , only cries when things happen… But, the year I left, he took good care of grandma.”
“Leave it to me, okay.” Qu Moyu patted Shen Dai’s head lightly. , “You are too tense during this period, you should go home and have a rest.”
Shen Dai shook his head: “I will handle it myself, I have all the information of grandma, and I have to go to the Public Security Bureau in the afternoon, and I have to contact the funeral parlor. It’s something, but it’s the last thing I can do for her.”
“Adai.” Qu Moyu’s hand fell on his cheek, gently turned his head towards him, and looked at him tenderly, “Adai.” Dai, you can rely on me, you are not alone, and you don’t need to face everything alone, you have to know this, okay.”
Shen Dai nodded.
Qu Moyu leaned over and kissed Shen Dai’s hair.
Shen Dai smelled the medicine on his body, saw the blue and white striped hospital gown, and suddenly remembered Qu Moyu’s injury from a trance: “Can you get out of bed?” “I will be discharged tomorrow.” Qu Moyu
touched He rubbed the back of his neck, “The wound has healed.” When he said this, his expression was not as relaxed as he was recovering from illness, but rather lonely.
“The function of the gland…”
“It will take time, and it will be possible to gradually recover after treatment and rehabilitation.” Qu Moyu shrugged, “Don’t worry, I will definitely recover.”
Shen Dai stared at Qu Mo Yu: “Well, I believe you can.”
“Why?”
“Because you… can always do what you want to do.”
“Most of the time, yes.” Qu Moyu looked at Shen Dai with a smile, “But Part of it depends on you.”
Shen Dai lowered his head.
“I’ll let the driver follow you. It will be more convenient for you to do whatever you want.” Qu Moyu didn’t wait for Shen Dai to speak, and said, “Qiuqiu is still waiting for you at home, and you also want to save some time. Right.”
“…Okay, thank you.”
In the few days after his grandma passed away, Shen Dai was in an indescribable state. He dealt with the funeral calmly and rationally. He also dealt with his grandfather’s funeral back then, so he already had experience, and everything went in an orderly manner, but no matter what he said or did, he was always accompanied by a strong sense of detachment, as if… …as if his body was moving and his spirit was watching, or he was enveloped in a transparent membrane to touch the outside world, appearing to be here, but not really here.
During this period, he didn’t have the energy to pay too much attention to the outside world, but he also knew that Qu Moyu went to the company on the day he was discharged from the hospital to dispel many rumors with a healthy and stable image. Fortunately, the pheromone stickers are becoming more and more functional. As long as they are not close, no one will find that he does not have pheromones now. And Qu Moyu’s return means that Qu Chengchen’s matter will be resolved.
Shen Dai is no longer interested in the results of You Xinghai and Qu Chengchen, at least for now, he is completely empty, unwilling to think about anything, and only concentrates on dealing with grandma’s funeral.
On the day of the funeral, it was raining lightly.
Shen Qin is hugging the photo of grandma, while Shen Dai is hugging Qiuqiu.
It is said that children should not appear in this kind of environment, it is unlucky, unhealthy, and so on, but Shen Dai disagrees. When Qiuqiu grows up, he will not have the slightest impression of this great grandma. In the brief intersection of his two lives, sending him one last journey is the only thing he can do to the people who raised his father.
Qu Moyu had no identity to attend the funeral ceremony, but he also came. When Shen Dai came out of the funeral home, the first thing he saw was Qu Moyu, who was wearing a long black trench coat and holding a black umbrella. He seemed to have been waiting in the rain for a long time.
Cloudy, dark, silent mourning, the atmosphere is already full, but Shen Dai couldn’t cry the whole time, he couldn’t even describe his feelings.
Shen Dai walked up to Qu Moyu: “Why are you here?”
“Come to accompany you, what can I do for you?”
Shen Dai looked at Qiu Qiu who was reaching out to grab Qu Moyu’s clothes: “Please help me send Qiu Qiu back, I have a few relatives I want to receive.” As he spoke, he took Qu Moyu’s umbrella with one hand.
Qu Moyu didn’t answer, nor did he hug Qiuqiu, he just looked down at Shen Dai, searching all the emotions on this face, even the slight frown.
Shen Dai also looked at Qu Moyu, and there was an inexplicable tremor in his heart.
Silence flows between the two of them.
Qu Moyu suddenly unfolded his clothes, and wrapped Shen Dai and Qiu Qiu into his windbreaker.
Shen Dai was only wearing a white shirt, and it was indeed a bit cold when he was blowing the wind, but he didn’t notice it until he felt the heat from Qu Moyu’s warm chest.
He didn’t realize that he was already getting goosebumps from the cold, and Qu Moyu’s embrace seemed to be the safest place in the world.
Shen Dai was stunned for a long time, and suddenly realized that he was crying, and the tears kept streaming down his cheeks, the silent tears soaked his clothes, blurred his vision, and the only thing dripping from the air was light rain, how could he feel the heavy rain in his heart .
Qu Moyu kissed Shen Dai’s forehead, and his hoarse voice surrounded the family of three: “Hey, you still have Qiuqiu, you still have me.”
Qiuqiu gave a soft “hmm”, moving cautiously, Seems to be fully aware of Dad’s sadness.
Shen Dai leaned against Qu Moyu’s arms and closed his eyes. This person once illuminated him in the darkness, and pushed him into the darkness, but in the end, in the end, it was the same person who held his hand tightly and gave him a firm and warm embrace.
He didn’t know what causal sequence fate followed, why it went up and down, joy and sorrow, giving and depriving at the same time, giving people hope and despair, making people suffer repeatedly in happiness and pain, just stumbling like this Go through life. He didn’t know what he had to face in the future, but he had a strong feeling that he and Qu Moyu were destined to be entangled forever.
In any case, at the moment when he clearly realized that he lost the relative who raised him, he was glad that he still had Qiuqiu, and…him.
A few days later, Shen Qin called Shen Dai to go home, saying that they would pack up grandma’s belongings together.
Grandma left a lot of things, many of which were accompanied by Shen Dai’s childhood memories. He originally wanted to give himself a buffer for a while, and didn’t want to face those memories so soon, but he felt that Shen Qin’s purpose of meeting him was probably to confirm himself After hesitating whether he can still live in that house, he went back.
Unexpectedly, Shen Qin didn’t mention his future life, but just packed up his grandmother’s belongings, and when he came across objects with shared memories, he would chat with Shen Dai about the past.
Shen Dai resisted at first, thinking about others when seeing things, it hurts too much. But in the end, he went back to the past with Shen Qin. The meaning of memory is to continue the love and memory of the old people. Although he has a lot of resentment towards Shen Qin, Shen Qin is also the only person left in the world who can share memories.
Grandma has a lot of things, they packed up some of them, and they plan to talk about the rest at another day.
When Shen Dai left, Shen Qin said with sadness in his eyes: “I wasn’t there when your grandpa left. Anyway, I sent your grandma away to make up for it. In my life, I have done many things wrong and hurt many people. I I am very glad that you have a completely different life from mine.”
Shen Dai sighed in his heart: “Live the rest of your life well, this is the greatest compensation to grandma and grandpa.”
Shen Qin smiled: “Okay.”
The next morning, Shen Dai received a call from Qu Moyu about Shen Qin.
“…What about him?” Shen Dai couldn’t believe what he heard.
“Shen Qin attacked You Xinghai when he was going to report to the police station routinely, and stabbed his gland.”
Shen Dai’s brain went blank for a moment.