Be My Baby - Vol.2 Chapter 6 Part 6
“…Damn bastard…”
As Eungyo parked the car in the apartment parking lot, he couldn’t help but curse at Seonwoo sleeping soundly right next to him, oblivious to the world. While he had been frantically searching everywhere in the middle of the night, falling into all sorts of delusions and worrying, the guy himself was just sleeping soundly, which made him completely furious.
You, I’m really not letting you off today. Earlier, it was someone else’s house, and he looked so peacefully asleep that it was pitiful, so I just carried him, but today I’m not letting this slide. I’m going to thoroughly fix that rotten habit of hiding and running away first when things get hard to handle, he resolved as he looked at Seonwoo’s sleeping face for a moment.
Then he turned off the engine, got out of the car, opened the passenger door, and carried the sleeping guy towards the entrance. Fortunately, since this guy had left the door open when he left, there was no need to unlock it. As he entered carrying the guy, the entrance lit up brightly. Entering, he first put the guy down on the living room sofa, then properly closed the front door and activated the security system. Only then did he remember he hadn’t contacted the security company, so he first called them to say there was no problem, and just as he was taking off his jacket, a ringtone sounded from somewhere. At that really uncool ringtone he had heard several times before, he looked in the direction of the sound and saw it was coming from the entrance.
Wondering why the ringtone was coming from there, he strained his ears and followed the sound, leading him to the shoe cabinet. It was definitely coming from inside the shoe cabinet. With a sinking feeling, he opened the shoe cabinet door and looked inside to find a phone ringing madly on the right shelf. No wonder he wasn’t answering calls, I was calling a shoe cabinet like a madman, he thought, and his head started throbbing. After knowing him for 10 years, Eungyo still couldn’t fathom this guy’s behavior. He let out a long sigh as he took the phone out of the shoe cabinet.
Then he closed the shoe cabinet door and looked down at the screen to see the name ‘Kang Eunsoo’ displayed. At that moment, he started to understand the situation somewhat. It seemed that when Eunsoo came rushing over, ringing the bell and calling, he got scared and sealed the phone in the shoe cabinet, but since he couldn’t do anything about the intercom, he just ran away. Suddenly feeling overwhelmed by fatigue, he pressed his brow as he entered the living room, but even then the phone kept ringing incessantly. At that clamorous ringtone that seemed to be shouting to answer quickly, he finally pressed the call button, and immediately a shout even louder than the ringtone burst from the phone.
“You, why aren’t you answering the phone?”
“…”
“Do you want to die? Open the door quickly! Do you think I’ll leave if you hold out and don’t open? I saw the lights turn on in the house! Open up quickly!”
If there was one word to describe Eunsoo’s voice at this exact moment, Eungyo thought ‘witch’ would be most appropriate. Hearing his brother’s venomous voice and tone for the first time, Eungyo felt annoyed rather than surprised.
“Since when did you start surveilling my private residence, Kang Eunsoo?”
At that quiet but thunderous tone, Eunsoo suddenly fell silent. Then, after a moment, he asked in a small voice that seemed to be shrinking away.
“…Brother?”
“Yes.”
Suddenly, a gasping sound was heard. At that sound that truly seemed like he had stopped breathing, he attacked without giving his time to recover.
“Since when have you been calling like this?”
“…”
“I’m sure I told you clearly yesterday? Stop interfering in other people’s business and mind your own.”
“…”
“Is your company work too easy, leaving you with too much free time? Should I have them assign you more demanding tasks?”
At those terrifying words, Eunsoo finally responded in a flustered manner, stammering.
“…Well, that’s… I mean… No, that guy was in the house but wouldn’t open the door… I just wanted to ask what was going on. I’m not trying to interfere, I was just worried…”
“People who find life too comfortable and like talking about others often package it that way. Calling interference, meddling, and nosiness as concern, worry, and advice.”
At those words firmly stating that what he was doing right now was interference, meddling, and nosiness, Eunsoo quickly lowered his tail.
“…I’m sorry…”
“If you knew how much running around I did looking for this guy after being woken up thanks to you, you’d be a thousand times sorrier. So, prepare yourself from now on.”
At that tone implying he would show his hell, the sound of Eunsoo swallowing hard was vividly heard. Knowing that if he really showed his hell, his brother would show him a living hell, Eunsoo couldn’t say anything more and remained silent. Eungyo left a final warning.
“I’m telling you for the second time. Be careful from now on.”
“…Okay.”
“Stop stalking and go home. Before I report you to the police.”
That was neither a joke nor an empty threat. Knowing that Eungyo had previously sued even their father for stalking after catching evidence when he found out his father was digging into his affairs, Eunsoo meekly agreed.
“I understand.”
Without even saying he was hanging up, Eungyo pressed the end call button and then approached the problematic troublemaker. While Eunsoo was one thing, this one really needed to be taught a lesson this time to snap him to his senses. That bad habit of running away at the slightest thing needed to be fixed properly this time, or things would get tough going forward.
“Lee Seonwoo, wake up.”
He said that as he went to sit beside Seonwoo lying peacefully on the sofa, but there was no response. Seeing him sleeping so soundly as if in deep slumber, his firmly resolved heart started to waver a bit. Thinking maybe he should just let him sleep and talk in the morning, his heart softened a little, but he quickly shook off that thought and called Seonwoo’s name again.
“Lee Seonwoo.”
At the slightly louder voice this time, Seonwoo seemed to hear it as he stirred a little.
“…Mmm…”
At that whining sound as he curled up his body, Eungyo’s first thought was, ‘Ah, he’s cute.’ He’s really cute when he’s sleeping with his mouth shut like this. Thinking why he had to be uselessly cute at a time like this, he considered just letting him sleep for a moment before shaking off that thought and calling out in an even louder voice this time.
“Lee Seonwoo, wake up.”
At the raised voice that sounded angry, the guy sleeping soundly on the sofa stirred a little. Seeing a response at last, he raised his voice even more this time.
“Lee Seonwoo!”
“Yes!”
At the strong call, Seonwoo sat up abruptly and looked around, seeming not fully awake yet. Then after a moment, he blinked and scratched his head before noticing Eungyo and tilting his head slightly. Seeing him still unable to distinguish if this was a dream or reality, Eungyo spoke to Seonwoo in a sharp voice.
“You’d better come to your senses. Your position right now isn’t very good.”
At that tone that sounded quite harsh even to himself, Seonwoo frowned slightly, then looked around the house again, blinking, before suddenly gasping and swallowing hard. Seeing that he seemed to have finally come to his senses, Eungyo quietly watched him, and Seonwoo asked back with a dumb look.
“…Um… Why am I here…?”
“You didn’t walk here, so I must have brought you.”
“Ah…”
Mumbling that very softly, Seonwoo seemed to finally grasp the situation and quickly sat up straight. Seeing this, Eungyo spoke through gritted teeth, barely managing to contain his rising anger.
“Don’t you have anything to say to me?”
“Pardon?”
“I’m asking if you have nothing to say after making me run all over the place in the middle of the night.”
“…Pardon?”
Seeing Seonwoo’s face that seemed to have no idea what the problem was, either because he had just woken up or because he had no awareness of what he had done, the anxiety that had been building up as he ran around everywhere suddenly exploded. This guy who had gone wandering around without any contact, leaving the door open and even his phone behind, was just too thoughtless.
“It seems you have no thoughts at all about scaring someone like that in the middle of the night? Why did you leave your phone behind? And why did you run away leaving the door open?”
Remembering how he had been worried sick thinking he might have been kidnapped, Eungyo shouted loudly, and Seonwoo finally seemed to realize as he stammered a response.
“What? Ah… Ah, I’m sorry. I didn’t know the door was open.”
“The door isn’t the issue right now!”
“…Then what is?”
“The door was open for 6 hours with no one in the house and you weren’t answering your phone. Seonjung suddenly went to Africa, and you weren’t at the dormitory or his house. Do you know how worried I was thinking something might have happened?”
As he yelled at how someone could be so thoughtless, Seonwoo finally seemed to grasp the situation somewhat and apologized, shrinking his shoulders.
“…I’m sorry…”
“Is this something that can be resolved with just sorry? To begin with, if Eunsoo came looking for you causing a fuss, you should have called me. Why did you run away?”
As Eungyo got angry, saying that mindset of running away first when scared was wrong to begin with, Seonwoo hung his head low and replied softly.
“…You seemed tired even talking to me on the phone…”
At that excuse which seemed trivial but impossible to refute, Eungyo was momentarily at a loss for words. He didn’t know what to say to those words implying he was scared to call because he was afraid Eungyo would be cold to him again, just like Eunsoo was scary. Because he was aware that he had been especially curt with this guy recently, even more than usual, he honestly acknowledged that part.
“…I’m sorry about that. I didn’t mean to do it on purpose.”
At Eungyo’s apology, the first ever, truly the first ever to Seonwoo, Seonwoo looked up at Eungyo in surprise. Then he cautiously looked around. With a face wondering why this person was suddenly acting like this, Seonwoo looked at Eungyo before seeming to realize those words were sincere and nodding his head.
“I’m more sorry… for making you worry…”
“Yes, you should definitely be sorry about that. Don’t ever go out without contacting me from now on. And if Eunsoo comes looking for you, call me. I’ll make sure he never comes near you again.”
Unlike just before when he had been determined to thoroughly fix that bad habit this time, Eungyo’s voice lost its strength as he saw the dejected guy, his heart softening. At Eungyo’s response which had become somewhat gentler, Seonwoo looked at Eungyo and moved his lips. He seemed to have something he wanted to say but couldn’t bring himself to say it, hesitating. Seeing this, Eungyo stared intently at Seonwoo, and after a moment, Seonwoo finally opened his mouth.
“…Eunsoo is fine now. Don’t worry about him.”
“Why?”
“I… I’m planning to stay at the dormitory again from tomorrow.”
At Seonwoo’s voice, small but filled with firm resolve, Eungyo was taken aback. Wondering if he had gotten too angry and the kid was trying to run away, Eungyo asked again in an urgent voice.
“Why?”
“I think I should. Since hyung went abroad and can’t do the ultrasound, I need a lot of machines to keep checking my condition, and I might need to separate quickly depending on the situation, so I need to gather the research team again to check.”
That was certainly true. Since Seonjung had disappeared, to handle this unusual situation, he needed the team members who had done the experiment together. But to do that, he first needed to report to the research center, and before that, there was one more thing needed.
“Then, what about the consent form?”
“…If you don’t want to sign it, that’s okay. Just tell me when you feel like it. It’s already too late anyway, and you get too tired being with me, and I’m starting to feel heavier too.”
Suddenly, Eungyo had an “aha” moment. He had forgotten for a moment, but this guy was pregnant right now. Since it was such an impossible pregnancy to begin with, it was natural that his body would start feeling burdened. That’s probably why he was eating more and sleeping so much that it seemed serious. He had forgotten about that. He hadn’t expected at all that the frequent forgetfulness and mistakes he wasn’t used to making, or finding him asleep every time he saw him, were due to the pregnancy. No matter how much he understood intellectually, since he looked completely fine on the outside and was instinctively a man, he hadn’t been able to realistically feel it, but this period is very important for a pregnant person. It’s natural to feel anxious both physically and psychologically.
“I’ll do whatever you want with the baby. Since it’s you, I’m sure you’ll love the baby too…”
“You’re giving me the child?”
“…If that’s what you want…”
At the sudden change from the guy who had insisted he would raise the child no matter what, Eungyo was genuinely taken aback this time. He had planned to use the child to get this guy to ask to live together since he couldn’t give up the baby, but unexpectedly, he so easily said he would give up the child, which couldn’t help but surprise him. As the situation unfolded in a completely different direction from what he had wanted, Eungyo sighed dejectedly. Then he asked Seonwoo again, as if to confirm.
“Is that the conclusion you’ve come to?”
When he asked that in a deflated voice out of dejection, Seonwoo whispered in a small voice.
“Yes.”
At that very small whisper lacking confidence, a sharp voice burst out again.
“After tormenting someone like that, now you say you’ll give up?”
At those words of blame that came out without him realizing, Seonwoo flinched in surprise. Seeing that terrified look, he realized he had made another verbal mistake, but again, it was after the words had already come out. With other people or in other situations, he never let words come out first, but strangely, only with this guy, he always ended up saying hurtful things first. Yes, it had been like that from the beginning. Only with this guy, he always became emotional and reacted rashly. And while doing so, he didn’t know how to handle it, so he fretted, felt sorry, and then when the same situation arose again, he got angry. Not knowing how to break out of this awkward situation, he pressed his forehead hard and then called that guy’s name in as calm a voice as possible.
“Lee Seonwoo, look up.”
At that voice, much more settled than before, the guy barely raised his head. But seeing those downcast eyes, as if he was completely cowed, Eungyo took slow, deep breaths to calm himself, then spoke in the gentlest voice possible.
“First, what did I tell you?”
“Pardon?”
“What did I tell you about the child issue?”
“That you would raise the child…”
“And?”
“…That if I wanted to get your signature on the consent form, I should handle it myself…”
Looking at Seonwoo, who was answering precisely even in a trembling voice, Eungyo continued with the next question.
“Then what should you do?”
At this same question that had been repeated frustratingly for two weeks, Seonwoo hung his head low as if resigned and answered softly.
“Have the baby… and then leave…”
As Seonwoo bit his lips tightly as if trying not to cry and spoke sorrowfully, Eungyo, who had been glaring at Seonwoo, spoke in a low voice.
“Who decided that?”
“…You did.”
“When did I ever tell you to have the baby and then leave?”
As Eungyo asked that, having no such memory at all, Seonwoo rolled his eyes as if searching his memory, then shook his head. Acknowledging that there definitely was no such instance no matter how much he thought about it, Eungyo sighed long again and then presented a simpler and clearer premise.
“Think simply. There are two unmarried people, and a child is conceived. But both want to raise the child. What should they do?”
At those words to think very simply, Seonwoo thought very simply and was about to start with “La-” when Eungyo cut him off first.
“If you say lawsuit one more time, I’ll hang you upside down from the balcony, so watch out.”
At Eungyo’s words, spoken as if grinding his teeth in exasperation at the mention of lawsuits, Seonwoo quickly shut his mouth, rolled his eyes for a moment, then answered softly.
“Then, they should raise it together…”
Just as Eungyo was about to think “That’s it!” at that small voice, Seonwoo continued speaking.
“But… that’s for normal cases, and there’s no way you would live with me.”
At those words filled with firm conviction, Eungyo, who had been feeling good, frowned again.
“Why do you think that?”
“Because you’re not interested in me…”
“When did I ever say that?”
“Three years ago, after I jumped in front of your car.”
As Seonwoo, with his uselessly good memory, specified that exact time, Eungyo groaned. He certainly had said such things then because he was so angry, but that was just to scold Seonwoo to come to his senses after he nearly got seriously hurt, not because he really disliked him. No, he might have disliked him a little, at that time. When he thought Seonwoo was just playing around, he had said, shuddering at the idea of risking his life for a prank, that there would never be a chance for him to like Seonwoo. Unable to deny this undeniable fact, Eungyo made a miserable face. It was a moment when he keenly felt why silence is golden, because life is unpredictable.
“You remember that incident from three years ago… quite vividly.”
“I remember everything you’ve said. From when we first met and you said ‘What is this stubborn guy?’, to seven years ago when I first got drunk and caused trouble and you said ‘If a young punk is going to drink, he should drink properly, not make a ruckus’, to six years ago when you said ‘If you drink and send me one more message, I’ll cut off all your fingers’, to five years ago when you said ‘If you appear in front of me one more time, you’ll have to risk your life’…”
As a flood of past incidents suddenly poured out of Seonwoo’s mouth, Eungyo’s head started to ache and he waved his hand.
“Stop!”
Not wanting to hear any more of those savage words that sounded brutal even to himself, Eungyo cut him off. Seonwoo promptly closed his mouth and hung his head low. Seeing that face that seemed to have given up on everything, Eungyo painfully realized the truth of his brother’s advice. Indeed, only direct pitches work for this guy. If you throw a changeup clumsily, he absolutely won’t understand. Come to think of it, even in high school during baseball games, this was the guy who came home covered in bruises because he said he was dodging the ball but got hit all over his body. A guy who can’t even hit a straight pitch properly has no chance of hitting a changeup. Tired of dragging things out any longer with pride or whatever, Eungyo decided to just be comfortable. He was going to die of sexual frustration if he kept dragging out something that could be resolved with a single word. Let’s just keep it simple. Whatever’s comfortable is good. Having made up his mind like that, Eungyo let out a long sigh and then spoke in the gentlest tone possible.
“Alright. I understand what you’re thinking. But… what if I want to live with you, putting aside all those complicated things?”
“…That’s impossible.”
“So, what if, I mean…”
“Hypotheticals are meaningless.”
At that stubbornness, so typical of an engineer at times like this, Eungyo gritted his teeth.
“So what if, without the hypothetical, I’m saying I want to live with you?”
Barely hanging onto his patience that was about to snap, he asked like that, and Seonwoo hung his head again and answered softly.
“I mean… there’s no way that could happen…”
“What if it could?”
“…It can’t.”
“I’m saying it can.”
“There’s no way it could…”
At the sight of him shaking his head and firmly denying that possibility, Eungyo suddenly felt his insides flip.
“I’m telling you it can.”
“It can’t.”
“I’m saying it can!”
“It can’t.”
“I’m telling you it can!”
“So, even if you say it can…”
“I’m saying let’s live together!”
The moment he raised his voice in frustration at the repetitive conversation, Eungyo had an “oh no” moment. He hadn’t meant to say it like this, but surprised by the strangely flowing conversation, he clamped his mouth shut. At that moment, Seonwoo blinked as if finally realizing the conversation flow was strange. Then he rolled his eyes around and after a moment, tilted his head as if he couldn’t quite believe it.
“Um… I’m sorry, but what did you just say?”
“I said let’s live together.”
Since the water was already spilled, this time he said it calmly and generously, and very clearly. Seonwoo looked at him quietly for a moment, then tilted his head again. Then he looked at Eungyo once more before tilting his head to the other side, and suddenly stood up and trudged towards the entrance.
“Lee Seonwoo, where are you…”
Before he could even ask if he was going out again, Seonwoo stopped in front of the entrance and suddenly banged his head against the marble pillar with a thud. At that terrifying thud sound, Eungyo watched in shock, and Seonwoo, who had hit his head, rubbed his forehead with his hand, then let out a scream not one but two beats late.
“Aaargh! It hurts! It hurts! It hurts!”
At that scream, along with the bump on his forehead that was starting to swell, Eungyo exclaimed in dismay and got up to rush over to Seonwoo. Then he quickly felt his forehead, which was already quite swollen.
“You idiot, why did you hit your head?”
Thankfully there was no bleeding, but seeing the bump swelling up clearly like in a cartoon, Eungyo was too startled to even touch it as he looked down at Seonwoo’s forehead. Seonwoo, touching his forehead, mumbled with a blank face.
“I was trying to check if this was a dream or not.”
“You can stop checking now.”
Seeing the severely swollen forehead, Eungyo got irritated and tried to grab Seonwoo’s neck to pull him away from the marble pillar, but Seonwoo’s shoulders suddenly stiffened. At that movement, he stopped, and Seonwoo slowly turned his head to meet his gaze with a blank face. Then he made an unexpected request.
“Then, could you slap my cheek?”
“What?”
“I don’t think my forehead hurts enough.”
At those words saying it didn’t hurt even though he had hit the marble so hard that a bump had formed, Eungyo was sincerely wondering if this guy might actually not be human, when the guy touching the bump on his forehead muttered softly.
“It suddenly doesn’t seem to hurt when you touch it… I think I need to hit it again.”
Along with those words, as he turned sharply towards the pillar, thinking he might hit his head again, Eungyo quickly grabbed Seonwoo’s shoulders to stop him.
“It’s definitely reality. So stop hitting yourself.”
“But…”
“I’m saying I want to live with you, you stubborn idiot.”
Although he repeated those words clearly once again, Seonwoo still had a blank face and didn’t seem to believe those words.
“Can you say it one more time?”
At that question, Seonwoo nodded vigorously. At that positive response, he answered clearly once more.
“Let’s live together.”
“…”
“Can you say it one more time?”
“This won’t do. This must be a dream after all. I need to jump off the balcony to check…”
At that determination to verify no matter what, still unable to believe it, Eungyo barely managed to grab the waist of the guy who was about to run off.
“You’re going to commit suicide while pregnant?”
“But this is too strange!”
“There’s nothing strange about it. I’m saying I’ll live with you!”
“…Why?”
It was a foolish question. But at the same time, it was the sharpest question piercing to the heart of the matter. Not knowing how to answer those words, he hesitated for a moment, and Seonwoo looked into his eyes as if truly curious. At that gaze earnestly seeking an answer, he had no choice but to speak his true feelings.
“I like you too, you idiot.”
Having said that while tightly hugging the guy’s waist from behind, just in case this guy might run off again, the guy paused. Then he looked intently into Eungyo’s eyes and tilted his head.
“…Why?”
At that repeated question, he decided to give up completely now. His mistake from the beginning was thinking he could win against this naive beagle-like guy. This guy is literally an unidentified life form. Since neither his habits nor ecology have been clarified at all, he just needs to be honest.
“I just like you. I’ve come to like you. Isn’t that enough of an answer?”
Not knowing how else to explain, he stopped there, and the guy who had been frozen in place for a moment turned his head again to look towards the balcony.
“…I really need to jump off after all…”
As Seonwoo insisted on verifying whether this was a dream or reality, saying he still couldn’t tell, Eungyo quickly wrapped his right arm around Seonwoo’s waist and gripped the nape of his neck with his left hand. And before that guy could spout any more nonsense, he pressed their lips together. As he put his tongue into that mouth while their lips were joined and gently entwined their tongues, the guy who had been staring with wide eyes finally relaxed his body. Then, fluttering his eyelashes, he just blankly received the kiss. After soothing him like that for a while with the pleasant sensation of lips and tongues, Eungyo gently separated their lips after a long time, and Seonwoo looked at Eungyo with a still blank face. At that docile gaze, Eungyo asked again as if to confirm.
“Do you believe me now?”
“…No. I can’t believe it.”
“Then what do I need to do for you to believe? Other than jumping off. And other than hitting your head.”
“I don’t know…”
At that still dull response, Eungyo sighed and once again tightly hugged Seonwoo’s waist and neck before joining their lips. At that kiss, this time Seonwoo also stretched out his arms to hug Eungyo’s neck. As if wrapping around his whole body, he moved his steps towards the sofa. And still clinging as if wondering if this wasn’t a dream, he carefully laid that body down on the sofa and leaned over it. Then he nestled between the legs of the guy lying on the sofa. Feeling dizzy just from the kiss, he diligently explored Seonwoo’s mouth and entwined their tongues, then separated their lips again. Seonwoo, breathing heavily, finally seemed to feel it was real as he smiled awkwardly.
“Is this… real?”
“Yes.”
“It’s not a dream?”
“No.”
“I’ve had so many dreams of you holding me that I can’t believe it.”
“…Huh?”
“Yesterday too, I dreamed you were holding and touching me. In the dream, Hoya appeared, and when I hugged Hoya, suddenly Hoya turned into you and held me tightly.”
That probably wasn’t a dream, Eungyo suddenly realized. No, it might have been a dream, but it seemed he had dreamed the exact sensations from reality. Still, he wondered why it had to change from a dog, but deciding that was something to keep secret forever, he just pretended not to know.
“This isn’t a dream.”
“…Still, I can’t believe it.”
Seeing Seonwoo still making a face like he couldn’t believe it, as it had happened so suddenly without any warning, Eungyo slightly lowered his body and pushed his hips forward. Seonwoo suddenly held his breath. Looking down at his groin with a surprised face, as if he had felt the hard genitals pressing right against his perineum, Seonwoo’s face showed shock. Eungyo slowly moved his hips and asked as if to confirm.
“Can you still not believe it like this?”
“…I’ll believe it.”
“That’s good.”
With a sense of relief that now he probably wouldn’t run off to the balcony, Eungyo kissed him again, and Seonwoo’s arms wrapped around Eungyo’s neck. At the pleasant sensation of those slender arms he had always dreamed of, Eungyo separated their lips and lightly bit Seonwoo’s nape. As he bit that soft skin, he used the hand that had been hugging Seonwoo’s waist to pull down his waistband, and Seonwoo lifted his hips to help.
At that active movement, Eungyo pulled down his pants along with his underwear in one go. Though the pant leg caught at his knees was annoying, he had no leisure to care about such things. Right now, he only wanted to touch this guy. He wanted to touch more, to taste him to his heart’s content. And now he was allowed to touch. At this moment, he had gained the right to legally touch. The moment he realized that fact, Eungyo started moving his hands without hesitation. Clothes were stripped off in an instant.
After urgently removing Seonwoo’s clothes first, Eungyo put his lips on Seonwoo’s nape and quickly moved his hands to caress Seonwoo’s chest. Every time that smooth skin brushed against his fingertips and lips, his head felt dizzy. Though skinny, his skin was as soft and smooth as a baby’s, so incredibly silky and tender. At that sensation, even better than he had imagined, he lowered his pants and rubbed his already dripping genitals against Seonwoo’s lower abdomen, sending a tingling sensation up his spine. Along with that, Seonwoo’s genitals were also getting harder. Feeling Seonwoo’s body clearly responding, he lightly bit the tip of a nipple standing erect and licked it with his tongue, eliciting a thin moan.
“Ah…”
At that sound of moaning while arching his back, he felt light-headed. So this was the kind of moan. That day too, he had clung to him crying like this. Writhing his body, swallowing his breath, and moaning as he clung to him. Looking at Seonwoo beneath him now, Eungyo recalled the memories of that day.
The sight of him spreading his legs and begging to do it quickly, the hot breaths he let out as if in pain every time he moved his hips, and the tingling pleasure he felt the moment he touched that skin, all remained vivid. Just remembering made his head spin, so he carefully lifted Seonwoo’s hips and nestled between those legs, pressing his genitals against his perineum.
At that moment, as his genitals passed between the ass cheeks, Seonwoo let out a high moan and writhed his body. Seeing the guy who had always seemed just like a child clearly responding, he thrust his genitals up between the crevice once more, and Seonwoo twisted his waist and clung to his shoulders.
“Ah… it feels good.”
At the increasingly rapid breathing and hot respiration, he thrust hard against the perineum area once more, and his head went hazy with the dizzying sensation. Even without penetration, it felt like his lower half might burst, so he moved his hips quickly. Though he tried to restrain himself as much as possible, Seonwoo’s waist shook at those increasingly rough movements. Grabbing that waist with both hands and pulling it down, he continuously rubbed his genitals between the ass cheeks, and Seonwoo’s moans grew louder.
Those moans stimulated his ears and took over his brain. Feeling like all the nerves in his body were exploding, tingling to his fingertips, he hugged Seonwoo’s waist tightly and thrust his hips up hard one last time, and suddenly his mind went blank. Along with that, semen burst out between the small buttocks below his waist. After ejaculating, while catching his rough breath, he kissed the lips of the one lying on the sofa and caressed his member pressing against his lower abdomen, making him release instantly. Though slightly delayed, he clearly ejaculated. While fondling his member, he sucked hard on his nipple again and kissed his lower abdomen. Between the widely spread legs, he could see the semen he had released dripping down between his buttocks. Somehow that sight made his vision swim. He reached behind and caressed between the buttocks slick with semen, making Seonwoo cling to him again with low moans. Then, moving his hips on his own, he mumbled softly:
“It feels good.”
Then with a bright smile, he spread his legs wider and pushed his hips forward while whispering softly:
“This is a dream, right?”
“It’s not a dream, so don’t run to the veranda again.”
Eungyo joked back saying if he fell while naked and covered in semen like this, he’d rather die falling with him, and Seonwoo laughed and clung to him more.
“If it’s a dream, I hope I don’t wake up.”
“Absolutely not. Even if it’s a dream, I won’t let you go anyway, so stop talking nonsense.”
Since this guy was fully capable of doing it, he preemptively put his foot down, and the arms clinging to his shoulders held on even tighter.
“I won’t let go. I can’t let go. I love you, hyung. I really, really love you so much.”
His chest felt tight at those arms desperately clinging as if grasping the last thread, and that voice. It was like this that day too. That face desperately clinging while smiling brightly, and those pitiful gestures were maddeningly lovable. That’s probably why he couldn’t forget. The moment he realized those confessions he thought were just playful or habitual were sincere, and when he acknowledged the fact that those emotions had persisted tenaciously for 10 years, the appeal of those emotions and this guy’s expressions and gestures from back then seemed only lovable. Perhaps that’s why afterward, whenever he saw this guy, he felt like he would go crazy wanting to see those expressions again.
He wanted to pin down that skinny body and mess him up completely, make him cry more as he clung desperately, and see him cry out in pleasure, moaning as he was drowning in ecstasy. And he wanted to comfort him as he cried, covered in his semen. Like now, he wanted to hold this clinging person until he was completely undone.
Yes, this was the sensation.
This feeling was so tender and lovable. With that tender feeling, he once again tightly embraced the small body. With the thought that he could now hold him freely, he held that skinny body and kissed that skin to his heart’s content.
At that moment, it felt like the time of hardship was finally coming to an end.
