Black Lotus - Chap 69
“You know what I was thinking when I saw you outside the classroom?”
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Tang Shuo turned his head looking affectionately at Wen Niannan, those eyes were full of love.
Wen Niannan lowered his head to avoid Tang Shuo’s intense sight, he said in a whisper: “What were you thinking?”
“I was wondering how there could be such a beautiful angel in this world, and the sound of the piano was so wonderful, you know, I had never cared about it before, but I decided to open a music studio to make music because that was what you liked and what you loved most.”
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Hearing that Tang Shuo opened a music studio because of him, the guilt he always felt for Tang Shuo grew more.
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Wen Niannan suddenly squatted down, saying between sobs: “I…I’m very bad…It isn’t worth it, I don’t deserve you to do this, I’m a nasty man, Tang Shuo… I’m nothing… I’m a mess, everyone hates me…why are you always doing so much for me? I…I’m sorry…I’m sorry Tang Shuo…”
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Tears suddenly were rolling down his chin falling to the ground, the man’s voice choked intermittently as if he was trying to hold back the tears.
“Niannan, do you know how good you are? Why do you think that you aren’t worthy, in my heart you’re worthy of all the best things in the world. Your wings shouldn’t be broken, you shouldn’t give up on music you once thought of like life…”
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“I”
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Wen Niannan raised his hand wiping off the tears from falling to his face over and over, he was trying to control his emotions, not wanting to burst into tears again.
“Niannan.”
Wen Niannan kept his head down wiping the tears from his face, wiping them again and again, but when he heard Tang Shuo’s voice, his hand stopped.
“Cry out…don’t hold them, it’ll be better to cry out, okay? ”
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In an instant a moment full of pain exploded, Wen Niannan burst into tears, streaming the tears with all the endless despair and sorrow.
After years of being subject to misery, to be hurt, again and again, to be disappointed, again and again, that was enough…
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Tang Shuo heard the cry of the refrain of many years with sorrow, his eyes were moistened, he stepped forward squatting down.
They were very close to each other, Tang Shuo stretched his hand out slightly towards Wen Niannan, when he saw Wen Niannan wouldn’t reject him, Tang Shuo reached Wen Niannan’s crying eyes and gently wiped away the tears on his face.
“Niannan, can I hug you? Just this time…” Tang Shuo asked with a trembling voice.
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Wen Niannan, surprised, after a long time, he slowly raised his head looking at the person in front of him, his voice quivered: “Okay…”
Hearing his reply, Tang Shuo’s excited hands trembled, his outstretched hand shrank back.
“I…can I really?”
Tang Shuo gently held Wen Niannan into his arms, hugging him tightly, as if he was holding the whole world in his arms as if in the next second would disappear…God…it…wasn’t a dream…
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Time seemed to stop at that moment, the room was silent, full of warm decorations, a beautiful piano, two people hugging each other tightly, two hearts comforting each other.
Tang Shuo reluctantly let go of the person in his arms after a while, because he felt the person in his arms trembling slightly, knowing that he was already resisting the discomfort, trying to contain himself, his heart was aching more.
Why do you always think about other people’s feelings, choosing to ignore yours?
Wen Niannan was shaking a little, his trembling body was being caused by someone’s else touch, making him feel more disgusted with himself by the same.
He turned his head looking at the piano on the side, a touch of sadness flashed in his eyes, he stood up wanting to leave the piano room, but dizziness attacked him.
“Niannan! What’s wrong with you, Niannan?” Tang Shuo asked nervously as he stepped up to help Wen Niannan.
Wen Niannan’s headache was getting worse, his head felt like a bomb, he was dizzy, and his vision was blurry, he touched his head, pressing his head with his hands.
“My head hurts…”
Tang Shuo squeezed Wen Niannan’s hand saying with worry: “Don’t fight, I’ll help you go to the couch to rest.”
“No…no, I’ll just walk by myself.” Wen Niannan said, patting Tang Shuo’s hand, he walked toward the couch, holding his head tightly.
Surprised, Tang Shuo stared at his hand, controlling his emotion flashing in his eyes, he approached, worried about seeing Niannan with that terrible headache.
Wen Niannan took off his hat because of the pain on his head, the noticeable bandage above his eyes was exposed. Tang Shuo kept staring at the bandage with an insistent look in his eyes.
“What do you want to ask? Ask, I’ll tell you everything.” Wen Niannan said when he saw Tang Shuo wanted to say something but he was afraid that he wouldn’t tell him anything.
“Don’t be afraid to ask because I’m feeling better, it’s okay, I’m really fine, just ask.”
There was nothing he couldn’t tell him, but perhaps only Tang Shuo cared so much about him.
When he heard those words, Tang Shuo was surprised, but hesitating, he asked: “Niannan, that wound…Gu Yansheng hit you? Was it because of me? Because of that photo…”
“Yes, he hit me, but it isn’t your fault, it’s me who shouldn’t ask for anything. What right do I have to stay by his side? To be in his heart?”
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Wen Niannan laughed at himself, the expression on his face was more like crying than laughing.
“I… want to divorce…maybe I’m really leaving this time.”
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“What did you just say? You…you want to divorce?”
Those words made Tang Shuo’s body froze, incredulous, he looked at the man in front of him, thinking that maybe it was a mere hallucination.
“He said that he would rather break off his relationship with his family and give up his position in the company to divorce me, what else can I do…I want to divorce, to escape from there, to a place where no one knows me, but…can I really give up everything and leave…”
The words of his mother made him reconsider his decision, the Gu family and the Lu family helped his father, all those years, all the projects taken by the Wen family, step by step, his father gained everything he had now, he couldn’t forget their gratitude.
But if I don’t leave, will be the same as before, loving Gu Yansheng without hoping for anything…
Wen Niannan’s head began to ache horribly again, lightly pressing his temples wanting to relieve the pain, but his heart was now full of bitterness, why did it become like this…
“Niannan?”
Wen Niannan slightly raised his head looking at the worried eyes from the person in front of him, with a light smile on the corners of his mouth: “What’s the matter?”
“Are you really going to divorce?” He wondered whether he should be happy or sad when he heard that Gu Yansheng would break his relationship with his family to force Wen Niannan to divorce.
Niannan had always been reluctant to divorce, but at last, he agreed to divorce because he didn’t want to see Gu Yansheng break his relationship with his family; it was clear that he still was in his heart, but he decided to be in pain just for his sake.
Tang Shuo suddenly stood up leaning over, staring straight at the person in front of him: “Niannan…if you divorce..can I? Can I have a chance?”
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The prayer in his eyes pierced Wen Niannan’s heart deeply, Wen Niannan felt in shock.
“I…I don’t know…I…I’m going back, it’s too late, Tang Shuo, I’m going back. ”
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Wen Niannan, with panic in his eyes, wanted to leave, he took his hat putting it on, but Tang Shuo grabbed his hand.
“You’re running away from me.” The voice was full of complaint and stubbornness.
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“I can’t? Why I can’t? Why not if we’re so happy when we’re together? ”
“Because I’m not worth it, I’m not worthy of your gallant dedication, Tang Shuo, you should be living as carefree and free as before, continuing your career like before you met me. You shouldn’t have let me control your emotions.”
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That smile, as bright as the sun, shouldn’t be destroyed by someone like me…
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“Well, I promise you, I’ll be as carefree and free as I used to be, making music every day as happy as before, okay?” Tang Shuo wiped the tears from the corners of his eyes, his eyes were red and dreadful, he smiled at him with great effort.
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Seeing that smile, Wen Niannan couldn’t stop his sobs, saying between them: “Well, it’s a beautiful smile, thank you Tang Shuo.”
Neither spoke again, but both understood what the other was thinking at that moment.
Wen Niannan, one more time, put his hat back, raising his feet, he went out in the direction of the car, Tang Shuo was following two meters behind him but he neither spoke nor advanced.
After opening the car door, Wen Niannan hopped in, looking back at the man standing on the side of the road, Tang Shuo approached.
“Tang Shuo, I’m going now.”
“Well, be safe on the road and send me a message when you get home.”
“Okay, go back, it’s cold outside.”
Tang Shuo didn’t leave, he stood there watching Wen Niannan start the vehicle, but suddenly he turned his gaze looking at a bag on the co-pilot seat, the name on the bag was…
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He stood there like that, frozen until the car was far away…
Tang Lunxuan rushed back to the company after receiving a message from his secretary, as soon as he entered the office, he saw the secretary pouring coffee to the person on the couch.
When he saw that evil face, Tang Lunxuan suddenly felt that the air in his lungs was escaping, he took a deep breath walking over.
“Zhou, why did you suddenly showed up here today? You didn’t tell me, you’d be here.”
The man on the sofa calmly drank his coffee without even looking at him.
Zhou Yuanfeng saw Tang Lunxuan when he was parking at the company entrance. He stood in front of the floor-to-ceiling window of the office looking frowned at the movement downstairs, a touch of impatience flashed in his eyes when he saw the hour on his watch.
After a moment a silver-gray car was parked downstairs, when he saw someone getting off from the car, Zhou Yuanfeng’s mouth twitched unconsciously looking at him like a predator looks at its prey.
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Zhou Yuanfeng picked up the coffee in front of him blowing carefully, ignoring the person talking in front of him.
Tang Lunxuan sat across from him, the secretary poured him a cup of coffee, he raised his eyes, looking at the man in front of him, without any idea of what he was trying to do.
Even when the coffee in the cup was empty, Zhou Yuanfeng didn’t say a word. Tang Lunxuan turned to look at the secretary next to him, but the secretary just shook his head.
Strange, didn’t President Zhou just said that there wasn’t time to wait for someone unless they wanted to lose time? So why he was sitting there calmly drinking coffee?
