Desharow Mermaid - Chap 58
Chapter 58
”Huh?” Rafal blinked his eyelids in confusion, and paused, “What… you?”
I moved my lips, but didn’t say anything, just shook my head stiffly, and spit out a long tone. He didn’t know about the entanglement between Agares and me, so he obviously didn’t understand the meaning of my sudden words. After all, it would be a strange logic to connect all these, because my grandfather was also a young man in his twenties when Dr. Winograd was young. At that time, there was no me at all. The young Agares made a promise that he didn’t know whether it could be fulfilled-to pay the grandson he didn’t have at that time as a “check”. Damn, how ridiculous that sounds!
Only I believe that this is the cause and effect of Agares suddenly breaking into the gear of my destiny, although I don’t want to admit it. I don’t want to believe my reasoning at all. I guess my grandfather may have lost his mind when he made such a promise. Maybe he was impulsive and reckless at the time. He never thought of the huge impact it would have on me in the future, and I can’t blame a deceased relative. ——I still clearly remember how much he loved me when I was young.
He often took me fishing, rafting, and camping, and let me spend my whole childhood carefree by the sea. Until now, whenever I look at the sea, I still think of his hearty and kind smile, and his touching my lips. Generous palms, these are deposited in the deepest mind, so I can not forget. He even played the role of my father.
I don’t believe that these behaviors are all to fulfill the promise he made, although when I think about it carefully now, some of his past behaviors are really weird. He often shoots fireworks towards the vast sea, often stops at the bow and blows The horn seems to be calling and responding to something. Is he trying to dedicate me to Agares?
My breathing was tight, my mind seemed to be blown by a sudden strong wind, and my thoughts were scattered and messy. What Rafal said next seemed to pass by my ears, and I didn’t hear a single word.
”Desaro!” Rafael shook my eyes, bringing me back to my senses, “So, listen, these Nazis may be after you because they know about your grandpa’s past, you have to Be careful and try to use what you know to keep your life alive, the time gate can let them know, because even if they go in, it will be difficult for them to get out…” “Understood, I will,” I took a deep breath and collected
myself , forcing himself to retract his dusty thoughts, his eyes fell heavily on Da Vinci: “I will try to save my life and delay time for you. Those Nazis need to use me to study Agares, maybe I can Gaining limited freedom, maybe you can get a doctor for Da Vinci… Wait!”
Saying this, I couldn’t help but suddenly think of my blood. correct! I slapped my thigh, hurried to the bed, grabbed the corner of Da Vinci’s coat, but hesitated again, Eva grabbed the wrist: “Desaro, what are you going to do?” “Deal with
his The wound…I…maybe there is a way to heal him, but I need you to avoid it.” I whispered awkwardly, it’s not hard to imagine that it would be a very ugly picture for me to heal Da Vinci, especially in this room In the small room, facing Rafal and Eva. I know that humiliation all too well, and it’s as scary as when I was violated in the lab. I should be glad that Da Vinci was asleep, otherwise maybe he would have the urge to commit suicide.
When I thought of this, I couldn’t help thinking of the monitor, and my heart skipped a beat, and I suddenly realized that I did this because those Nazis must be watching here.
”You’d better not do that,” Rafael held my arm, shook his head solemnly, and motioned for me to watch his hand hang over Da Vinci’s face, and I saw his eyelids tightened. The creases of the heavy bell floated up like a towel, the outlines of the eyeballs trembled rapidly, and even the muscles of the face twitched, and the whole face was deformed, as if in a fierce fight, a man surrounded by ghosts In the nightmare, the slightest slack will be swallowed up.
I gasped, isn’t that a sign of severe PTSD?
At this time, Da Vinci was like a frightened bird. If I woke him up recklessly, he would probably die suddenly like those who entered a deep sleep and were suddenly awakened.
”You see, he needs a doctor. His wound is actually healing, but there is dead tissue inside…” ”
Bang, bang, bang.”
There was a heavy knock on the door, “Desaro!”
Rhine’s voice It was heard, and then the door was pulled open, “Hey, wait!” Before I could reply to Rafal, my body was roughly dragged out. He was escorting me to the other side of the boat, and when he turned a corner, he bumped into a group of tall and burly militants. They saluted Rhine in unison, and one of them had a tanned bald head. The man’s expression changed immediately when he saw me. I coldly swept them around, oh, this is the guy who watched me beat that big orangutan-like jackass all over the floor. They should look at me with admiration. But I noticed that they were armed with guns and explosives, and in the distance a helicopter was about to take off. Damn, they must be starting to take over the island.
”Hey, isn’t this the little Russian bird that beat Carnossen half to death?” The bald man twisted the corner of his mouth, looked at me with a ferocious expression, and stretched out his hand as if wanting to touch my face, but I turned his head away He flashed over, grinning and shining his teeth: “Hey, be careful, buddy.”
He tried to grab my neck with his backhand, but was blocked by Rhine, and his face immediately twisted into a ball: “Captain Rhine, Sakala Since Colonel Er ordered you to interrogate him, you have to show him the “sweetness” of interrogating prisoners of war, don’t waste this fair little face,” he twitched the corners of his mouth, and pressed his fist heavily on Rhine On his chest, “Carnossian was so severely concussed that his retina was detached.”
God, it deserves it. I wanted to say this word, but I held back and just let out a disdainful snort from my nose. If I could move my hand, I would have raised my middle finger to the bald man in front of me.
”I’ll take care of it. Be careful, don’t fight mermaids near the water, try to attack them from a distance. They are all crazy beasts,” Rhine turned to look at the helicopter, and drove me past them, : “Good luck, hahaha.”
After the footsteps were far away, a sense of crisis filled my heart, and when Rhine carried me towards a dark hatch, I started to feel hairy. Rhine drank, although he was able to talk freely just now, which superior would suddenly laugh when he warned his subordinates, he was not only drunk, but also drunk, who knows what he would do to me by taking advantage of his position !
”Line! I want to see Shaqalar, I have a secret that she is very interested in telling her!” I shouted in desperation, but he pushed me straight into the cabin and slammed it shut behind me. Door.
In an instant, the scene in the darkness quickly became clear in my sight. I found that there were chains and all kinds of horrifying metal instruments of torture hanging on the walls. I kicked and struggled, but he grabbed my arm tightly, pulled a chain to fasten my handcuffs, hung my arm above my head, stepped on some mechanism, and suddenly a mechanical force dragged me My body lifted off the ground, and my arms felt a dull pain like a dislocation, which made me uncontrollably let out a scream and gasped for breath.
”What secret? Why don’t you tell me first, let me hear if you are playing tricks, my little genius.” Rhine looked up at my face, stroked my cheek with one hand, and used rough and hot Palms rub against my skin. His blue eyes were cloudy and bloodshot, and the whites of his eyes were covered with blood. His expression seemed to be pity and admiration. I could feel his emotions trembling violently like a sawed steel wire, and he completely lost the loyalty he had tried to maintain before. The appearance of running dogs. The current him is ten times and a hundred times more dangerous than Shakaral.
”I swear it’s a secret that Shakaral wants to know very much. I can tell you first, but I have one condition.” I endured the pain in my arms and gritted my teeth to remain calm.
Maybe it was the superior’s name that slightly stimulated Rhine’s cerebral cortex, he frowned: “What condition?” ”
My friend needs medical treatment, you have a military doctor, right?” I squinted my eyes and panted, sweat dripping from my forehead Come down, flow under the chin.
Rhine’s fingers wiped off my sweat, and then pressed it on my collar along the flow of sweat, fiddled with the buttons, stared at my slowly wet chest, thinking about something thoughtfully, and drunk Laughing: “Oh, so it’s this? Are you begging me, Desaro? Then I also have a condition that your friend can get the best rescue—” He untied a few of my pills Button, “follow me, show that vile beast, I want him to hear how I possess you.” He squinted at the upper right, where there was a black box with many small holes on the surface , that is a player.
”Are you crazy, Rhine!” I glared at him in shock, my jaw chattering would only drive him crazy with alcohol. I had to clenched my fists, forcing myself to ignore his hand that untied my clothes, and stared at him coldly: “It doesn’t make any sense to do this, you want to declare to that beast that I should be yours, don’t you think he Jealousy like you? You’re wrong! He won’t care, maybe he’ll get as excited as listening to a tape, he just… just treats me like a paid-for sex tool. You think a What can beasts really do to humans…Love, oh, what a joke! You don’t understand…I just found out that I’m just…a compensation in a conspiracy!” I said every word like this, between my
teeth What I spit out seems to be the turbulent waves that I suppressed in my heart just now. The moment I blurted out, I even felt that this is logical, true and credible, but the scene about Agares that came out of my mind violently refuted what I said. These things are full of the night-like eyes when he looked at me, and a voice shouted that it is not like this, it is not like this!
Maybe it’s the conflict in my heart that made my face look painful. Rhine looked up at me, as if he was a little confused, and the smell of alcohol kept breathing on my face. He hugged me, which was almost broken His waist and hot crotch are pressed against me, and the contents of his trousers have obviously lifted his head, but thankfully, he still seems to have a little sense of reason.
”Yes, I just found out, Rhine.” I closed my eyes, “I’m a compensation, my family has some entanglements with mermaids. Maybe Shakaral didn’t tell you, but she must know. The actions I saw in the device were all because I was bewitched, there was something about that beast…” I swallowed, feeling my throat was a little dry, and it was difficult to speak as if I was speaking against my will, ” Bewitched.”
My heart constricted, like a small animal curling up in protest, but I could only go on because I knew it would win Rhine’s mercy so that he wouldn’t take it now. I peeled off the bones and swallowed it. I was so stupid that I didn’t pay attention to the monitor’s lens and got too close to Agares. I didn’t expect how strong Rhine’s desire to conquer me was.
”If you had even the slightest… liking for me…” I actually gagged when I uttered the word, but I held back.
If Rhine’s “feeling” for me is called liking, it must be the most terrifying and extreme liking in the world, because I still clearly remember how he pushed me off the kayak and left me in the mermaid crowd In the strait, it was like throwing a stumbling block to stop them from moving forward, but when he found out that I was still alive, he became crazy because he couldn’t ask for it, just like the Nazis chasing their unattainable ultimate dream As crazy and perverted.
The funny and easy-going mentor I remembered was just his skin, but he was indeed a Nazi in his bones, a terrorist through and through.
”Stop torturing me… Rhine, find a doctor for my friend, I will thank you forever. Really, he is dying.” I
thought of Da Vinci’s trembling eyelids, and a stream of heart-rending heat rushed into my nostrils, Made my voice a little hoarse.
”Thank you…” Rhine repeated the word, and smiled lowly. His fingers were embedded in my hair, and he spread out to comb my messy bangs, and then grabbed them lightly, so that I had to face him face to face. TV: “I don’t want your thanks, Desaro, I want a chance, since you said you have no feelings for that monster, you can accept me, right?”
”If you give me a reason to accept you. Doctor, Rhine.” I emphasized hoarsely with red eyes. His wine-smelling lips were almost touching the tip of my nose, making me almost suffocate.
”Let me taste your taste first, I have endured it for too long.” He closed his eyes, held my head in his hands as if holding glass, and kissed my earlobe with his lips. I didn’t even have the energy to feel Nauseous, as the pain from the hanging arms was exacerbated by the weight of his head, my arm was about to dislocate as I heard a slight rattling sound from the bones.
He sighed softly in my ear: “Why are you a Russian? It would be great if you were a German. Desaro, you are the one I met in this dirty, complicated, and shady battlefield.” The purest existence I have ever seen…” He paused, stroking my back: “You don’t know that when you first visited the Canterbury Cave with me, the earnestness and bravery were so charming, I I can’t imagine that you just jumped in and created a miracle. There are many times, you have impressed me and amazed me, so I gradually understand that even if I am your mentor, I can’t control you, No one can limit your persistent drive and ambition, and your attitude of chasing dreams is the most admired by the Germans. Shakaral is right, you are like a beautiful moth, which makes people want to Hold on to you who are flying high…”
He took a breath, and laughed almost intoxicated: “Otherwise you will fly, so that no one can catch up for a lifetime.” ”
Didn’t you catch me…” I handcuffed me Li’s wrist was trembling slightly, the cold metal was extremely painful, “You want to tear off my wings and turn me into a worm that can’t fly, wriggling pitifully in your palm, begging for your mercy He Chuiai. You enjoy that feeling, don’t you? Rhine, this is what you want to do to me. Don’t describe yourself as so affectionate.” I looked at him sideways, eyes as sharp as
nails, “Come on Well, you want to destroy me, then do it, you will never see the moth you want to catch. Or…you can try, let me have a reason to be grateful to you.” Rhine was
stunned Dazed, his eyeballs were clouded like a cobweb, I could see that his alcoholism was getting worse, his mind was a little unconscious, and his heart was a little shaken.
At this time, I really feel lucky that he has more than pure sexual desire for me. In fact, if he is sober, he may not really do anything to me, but just relying on strength to make me surrender will make him feel extremely unwilling. Because that would prove he couldn’t beat the hormones of a beast. Rhine is a conqueror at all, and wants me to submit to him completely, love and worship him, but that is just a dream.
”I will find a doctor for your friend, and he will receive the best treatment…But, Desaro,” Rhine breathed heavily, his hand twisting my earlobe, “promise me, after the base is completed , go back to Germany with me, become a German citizen, and marry me. And from now on, you can’t get close to that mermaid again, can you do it?” ”
Marry?” I froze my mouth in astonishment. The Nazi persecution of homosexuals during WW2 was horrific, this guy is making such horrible jokes on me, thank goodness it’s not WW2, otherwise I would have been sent to a horrible place like a concentration camp by him!
”Yes, get married. We don’t restrict homosexuality like you do in Russia. Although it’s not legal yet, it will be in the future…” He murmured dreamily, falling into his own imagination with some excitement, “I can’t wait for you You have become my little bridegroom, Desaro, and you can’t go back. Your school status and household registration files have been canceled secretly by someone I entrusted. You are no longer a Russian, you are a stateless person, and you will be slow Slowly, slowly, year after year, I was forgotten.”
I was stunned on the spot as if under a heavy hammer, and my thoughts turned for a long time before I slowly realized this terrible fact. The chance to learn, he destroyed my dreams, erased my proof of existence, uprooted me from Russia, and turned me into a footless bird that couldn’t land, so that he could make a kite and lead me away.
”No…no, no! What did you do, why do you do this! You mad dog, mad dog! I will kill you!” I
kicked him hysterically, but he hugged my legs tightly, The severe pain in my arms prevented me from exerting any strength, and the clanging sound of iron chains irritated my eardrums like an explosion, making my brain buzz, and in the dizzy state, I heard Rhine keep asking: ” Will you promise me, Desaro? I love you, I love you like crazy!”
”Go away, you bastard, you are worse than shit, lunatic!” I yelled weakly, and the calmness I tried to maintain collapsed in an instant. When Rhine trembled and untied my waistband, I knew I’m finished.
However, at the moment he took off my pants, I suddenly heard a messy electrical current sound, which made me tremble all over and suddenly held my breath.
”Line, call Rhine!” Sakaral’s voice sounded from his pocket, God knows for the first time that I felt her female ghost’s voice sound like heaven, “Bring Desaro, this mermaid doesn’t know what to do I suddenly went crazy, I order you to bring him now and stop the interrogation!” ”
It seems that your boss has made me temporarily unable to agree to your conditions.”
My vocal cords trembled.
Thanks to Tossa Carral, I escaped from Rhine’s claws by luck. When I was sent back to the bilge, I couldn’t help but feel a sense of amnesty. My legs were a little weak, as if I was stepping on the void. , my mind is like a vain sky, my mind is full of thinking about my warm home, my parents’ meals, the exciting years spent in college, my dear classmates and teachers, those will become a dream, like broken Dissipates into dust in the wind.
My soul seemed to be pulled out of my body, and my heart was empty. My body was as fragile as a layer of ice, and I could hear the sound of cracking when I walked.
I was brought to Shaqalar without saying a word. She glanced at the strangle marks on my wrist indifferently, took out the key to open it for me, and said lightly: “Just now I saw this mermaid self-mutilating on the monitor. , please calm him down, little Desaro, and, you need to feed him, he refuses to eat anything. We have to keep him alive.” She handed me a small bucket full of
sardines , gave me a false smile.
I took it over in silence, and stepped into the hatch in silence. It wasn’t until my sight became clear as the hatch closed that I realized the word Shakral said—Agares was harming himself.
When I saw his appearance clearly, my hands trembled, and the bucket almost fell to the ground. His wrists were no longer hung on the sides of his head as before, but were lowered to his shoulders. He pulled the chain so that it was derailed from the metal gear on the top, and his wrists were stuck several times. There is a deep sunken white scar, his flesh is turned outwards, and the blue blood coagulates like two wrist cuffs, thickly accumulated between the handcuffs.
”Desharow…” His eyes locked me tightly in the mottled hair, and he shook his hand with the chain: “Come…I…” He spat out Russian syllables jerky, as if trying to express What, but I don’t know how to form words and sentences.
I suddenly realized that he wanted to break free by self-harm because he had heard all the conversations between Rhine and me. This idea led me to stagger two steps towards the water, and I wrapped my arms around his strong body in despair, and my hands sank into him. Clinging tightly to the thick hair, he closed his eyes and buried him in his neck, sniffing deeply at his scent.
