Four-Faced Buddha [To My Shore] - Chap 70
Chapter 70 Chasing After His Wife? Whoever wants to chase, chase!
2024-10-13 07:28 Category: Four-Faced BuddhaTurn off the lights
You Shulang pushed open the bathroom door. He had moved into this room almost a month ago, but today he was re-examining every corner of it.
He walked to the mirror and looked at himself. His complexion wasn’t good; he was shrouded in gloom and exuded a sense of irritability and anger.
What did he do in this bathroom yesterday?
As he gripped the sink, his knuckles bulged and turned bluish-white, and You Shulang’s body trembled slightly.
Yesterday, he did his first self-reading session here, nearly two months after separating from Fan Xiao.
His gaze shifted, and in the mirror, he seemed to see himself from twenty-four hours earlier…
The figure turned on the shower, and the steam from the hot water began to flow in the small space.
He took off his clothes and stood naked in the jet of water, his hair, wet with hot water, swept back over his forehead. He supported himself against the wall with one hand, while the other hand followed the water flow, gradually moving down his burning skin…
Gradually, besides the sound of flowing water, there were some ambiguous sounds trapped in this small space.
Suppressed and low-pitched, unlike joy.
I worked on it for a long time, until my arms started to ache and my eyes were red from the heat, but it still felt like something was missing. I was hovering on the edge, but I couldn’t get close to the threshold of explosion.
You Shulang, filled with rage, lashed out recklessly. But in the end, it was all in vain; besides pain, it brought him no pleasure whatsoever.
He finally gave up. Water dripped from his drooping hair, creating a curtain of water in front of his eyes, concealing the man’s sad, self-deprecating smile.
What did Fan Xiao give her? Besides deception and harm, she also had a body that had been ruined.
Now, he can no longer obtain the pleasure that men are meant to have through simple means.
“Damn it!” You Shulang slammed his fist against the slippery wall. After a moment, he hesitated for a moment, then raised his hand, dipped his fingertips in shower gel, and reached behind him…
The memory was abruptly cut off. The water pipe hanging above the sink was suddenly turned on, and cold water rushed out with great pressure. You Shulang scooped up a handful and splashed it on his face. When he looked in the mirror again, there was a hint of anger in his eyes.
He still remembered Fan Xiao’s expression just now, as if he were looking at a toy held in his hand with a special label attached.
“Isn’t the only way you get pleasure right now to be fucked?”
The man’s humiliation was direct and sharp. You Shulang felt like a clam shell pried open by a sharp blade, exposing his most private interior, with nowhere to escape. And what was wrapped in that fragile and tender flesh was not an expensive pearl, but a filthy desire that made him feel ashamed and disgusted.
He suddenly remembered the isolation and bullying he suffered in high school after his sexuality was revealed. He was surrounded by scrutinizing gazes, some subtle, some blatant; contempt and insults, some intentional, some unintentional; and bullying, whether malicious or purely for amusement.
Those years were extremely difficult, but they were nothing compared to what he was going through now. For the first time in so many years, this was the first time You Shulang felt like he couldn’t hold on any longer, the first time he felt utterly disheartened in his predicament, and the first time he dared not look forward to the future.
Fan Xiao was the biggest gamble of his life. His handsomeness, gentleness, enthusiasm, and even vulnerability and unpredictability became the charm that seduced You Shulang.
Even the most self-controlled person could not resist a premeditated offensive. You Shulang let himself fall deeper and deeper into the trap, his desperate love plunging him into the malice-laden web woven by Fan Xiao.
“I’m such a joke,” You Shulang thought.
He didn’t look at Fan Xiao; his gaze went past the man’s shoulder to the lights in the building across the street. Occasionally, blurry figures could be seen moving in those windows. In each warm light, a happy home was nestled, and some happy people lived there.
That’s nice. It’s just that the light is too far away.
“Congratulations, Mr. Fan, another restricted video has been added to your computer.” You Shulang chuckled lightly. “Do you understand? If not, I’ll give you a live demonstration.”
Fan Xiao had prepared himself for a beating, and even tensed his muscles when You Shulang made the slightest movement. But now, receiving such a nonchalant taunt, he frowned slightly and suddenly felt that a beating was better than nothing.
“Shulang…”
“Do you need it?” You Shulang’s eyes turned cold. “If you don’t need it, please leave.”
He shoved Fan Xiao away, his tone already showing some impatience: “I’m tired today, I’ll move tomorrow. I don’t mind if you spy on me one more night.”
“Also,” he walked into the living room and poured some wine into a glass, “I will resign from Changling tomorrow. You can do whatever you want. People always have to pay the price for their actions, including me and Teacher Huang.”
“Of course.” You Shulang downed his drink in one gulp. “That includes you, Fan Xiao.”
“You’re going to give up Changling? Give up your teacher?” Fan Xiao’s tone was filled with the impatience of miscalculation.
“Fan Xiao, you seem to have missed one point.” You Shulang’s expression was indifferent, his deep eyes calm and serene. “The blame does not lie with me. None of this is my concern.”
He walked to the entrance hall and opened the door: “Fan Xiao, I am not the bodhisattva you speak of. I can’t even save myself, so how can I save others?”
“Although I still don’t know why you harbor such malice towards me, it doesn’t matter anymore, none of that matters.” He tilted his head slightly. “Please, Mr. Fan.”
The sky grew even darker, and only the bedroom light was on in the house. The light seeped out from inside the door, gradually dimming until it was almost gone by the time it reached the corner of the living room.
Fan Xiao stood in that dark corner, his dark eyebrows and eyes blending into the night, making them difficult to see clearly. He stood silently for a long time before finally saying, “None of it matters anymore?”
At this moment, his voice no longer carried the panic and impatience of before, but was like a surging wave in the night, deep and dangerous: “Does everything include me?”
“Fan Xiao, I don’t have time to play word games with you, nor do I want to drag things out with you. You only have two choices now: either get out yourself, or I’ll make you get out myself.” The door was opened a little wider, and You Shulang’s irritation intensified. “But I’m really not in the mood to beat you up right now. I’d like to ask Mr. Fan to do me a favor and get out yourself.”
In the past, You Shulang rarely spoke harshly. Even when annoyed or angry, he maintained good manners. He was more lenient than restrictive towards Fan Xiao. Before they were together, You Shulang never said a harsh word to Fan Xiao. After they became a couple, Fan Xiao enjoyed all of You Shulang’s tenderness and tolerance without any taboos.
But now, the man opposite him only looked at him with disgust and impatience. This made Fan Xiao, the one who had committed the violence, suddenly feel a little wronged.
Having never tasted defeat, he felt immense unease and panic for the first time. He subconsciously reached for his watch, another habit he had developed after You Shulang threw his Four-Faced Buddha into the trash can.
The watch was a gift from You Shulang, who said he hoped to be happy all the time. But now, You Shulang’s biggest wish is to be slinked away in disgrace!
They no longer care about their own happiness, or even about themselves as a person!
He once said he would love himself for the rest of his life, on a certain enchanting night.
Afterwards, during their intimate moments, Fan Xiao repeatedly expressed his love for You Shulang, and then asked, “Will you always love me?”
The man, with a cigarette between his fingers, stared into Fan Xiao’s eyes and said in the most affectionate tone Fan Xiao had ever heard: “As long as you still need my love, as long as you still love me.”
But now everything has changed.
You Shulang no longer cares about his own needs, let alone his own feelings.
His hand slowly clenched into a fist inside his sleeve. In the dim light, Fan Xiao lowered his eyes and pursed his lips. He walked step by step toward the door, stepped over the threshold as You Shulang wished, and before the door closed, he casually left a sentence: “It seems that Director You doesn’t want to care about anyone anymore. Do you still need me to say hello to your brother for you?”
You Shulang suddenly frowned: “What do you mean?!”
“It’s nothing, it’s just that your brother is now my private property advisor.” Fan Xiao leaned halfway back into the doorway and whispered in You Shulang’s ear, “I’ll turn off all the cameras, Director You, you can get a good night’s sleep tonight.”
Footsteps echoed in the corridor, and every step Fan Xiao took seemed to tread on You Shulang’s heart!
