Full Cup of Water - Chap 45
At this time, Xin Qianyu saw Lin Chunhong who was tired and haggard, like a lifeless piece of wood.
Seeing her like this, Xin Qianyu felt quite emotional: This woman really gave her all for her cause. However, the problem is that when she gave her all, she also asked Su Zhong to give her all for herself.
She was abandoned by her husband and looked down upon by her family. During her long years, her only emotional support was her son.
I have no friends or hobbies. For a long time, the most important person in my life was my mother. Although he looks relatively cold, he is enough to meet the emotional needs of this poor woman Lin Chunhong.
But now, she discovered that her son was actually not that cold. He was passionate, but all his passion was given to a strange man. Her son became a homosexual that she could not understand… and she went crazy.
Xin Qianyu looked at Lin Chunhong with hard-to-find hostility in her eyes: “Okay, I understand.”
Lin Chunhong seemed lifeless and just said mechanically: “I’m sorry, I was wrong. Please don’t embarrass my family.”
“I didn’t make things difficult for them, and I can’t do it.” Xin Qianyu said calmly, “You don’t need to apologize to me. The person you should apologize to most is Su Zhong.”
Lin Chunhong raised her eyes as if she had been pricked by a needle.
At this time, Su Zhong also came back from outside. When he saw Lin Chunhong, he was slightly surprised and just said: “Mom, why are you here?”
Lin Chunhong’s heart was broken again: I am your mother, why do you talk to me in such a tone?
“I…” Lin Chunhong looked at Su Zhong longingly, “I… apologize to you. I shouldn’t have been so strongly opposed to the matter between you and Xin Qianyu.”
“You don’t need to apologize to me.” Su Zhong said, “The person you should apologize to most is Xiaoyu.”
Hearing Su Zhong say the same words as Xin Qianyu, Lin Chunhong was in a trance: she found that the most important things in her life were slipping through her fingers like quicksand.
Lin Chunhong’s eyes suddenly became warm, and tears were about to burst out at any time: “Son——”
She looked at Su Zhong with fragile and helpless eyes.
And Su Zhong’s response was – confusion, confusion and even… embarrassment.
Yes, when she looked at her son sadly, he looked confused and embarrassed.
Lin Chunhong became even more panicked. She grabbed Su Zhong’s arm and said tremblingly: “I have nothing… Over the years, I have had nothing but you! You know that you are my only relative… For so many years, all my efforts have been put into you. I have no friends or family anymore, I only have you!”
Lin Chunhong had said this so many times.
Su Zhong was originally very cold and indifferent, and he had been passively listening to similar words for so many years, so it was really hard to be moved.
Of course, he was also grateful and just said: “Thank you, I understand.”
But such a reaction made Lin Chunhong extremely disappointed.
What she wants is not a faint thank you, but an equally warm emotional response from the other party.
Lin Chunhong suddenly became angry, her fingers were trembling, and hurtful words were about to come out at any time. But Xin Qianyu took the lead, pulled away from Lin Chunhong, and said calmly: “There is something I was thinking about last time. said.”
“What?” Lin Chunhong’s accumulated emotions were suddenly interrupted, and her face looked a little confused.
“Kailan. Why did you serve kale to Su Zhong when you last ate? And before, you served him kale several times.” Xin Qianyu said, “Su Zhong doesn’t like to eat kale. You Do not you know?”
Lin Chunhong’s face stiffened for a moment, and then she showed a look of disbelief: “Nonsense! Why doesn’t he like eating kale? He has loved eating it since he was a child…”
Xin Qianyu turned to look at Su Zhong: “Do you like kale?”
Su Zhong replied: “I have eaten it since I was a child, but I don’t like it.”
Lin Chunhong’s expression suddenly turned petrified: “How, how could it be possible?”
Xin Qianyu looked at Lin Chunhong and said, “But I can see that you really like eating kale. Basically, you must order fried kale when you go out to eat.”
Lin Chunhong looked confused.
Xin Qianyu said: “So, the person who likes kale is not Su Zhong, but you, right?”
Lin Chunhong said calmly: “I, I like it, but my son…”
Lin Chunhong still looked indifferent. Lin Chunhong felt more and more guilty, and her voice became louder: “If he doesn’t tell me, how will I know?”
Xin Qianyu turned to Su Zhong and asked, “Have you ever said you don’t like kale?”
Su Zhong replied: “Yes.”
Lin Chunhong retorted: “I don’t remember this happening!” Her tone was anxious, as if she wanted to prove something.
Su Zhong’s reaction was very bland: “It’s normal not to remember, because it was a long time ago.”
When Su Zhong was a child, he told Lin Chunhong that he didn’t like kale. Lin Chunhong disagreed and forcefully put the vegetable into Su Zhong’s bowl and said, “This is delicious!” Fast food! Don’t be picky!
Over time, Su Zhong stopped resisting and would eat whatever Lin Chunhong gave him.
There are many similar things, such as the clothes Su Zhong wears and the things he uses, it doesn’t count what he likes, Lin Chunhong only picks what she thinks is good.
Su Zhong was interested in the 5-yuan abacus, but Lin Chunhong insisted on buying him a 100-yuan toy car. She took the toy car and said to Su Zhong: “My mother spent a month’s salary to buy this for you…” …”
Su Zhong’s expression at that time was also confused and confused. In the end, he could only say: “Thank you, mom.”
Xin Qianyu looked at Lin Chunhong with burning eyes and said, “Since you are such a great and considerate mother, can you name ten kinds of food that I don’t like?”
Lin Chunhong wanted to say, “Su Zhong is never picky about food,” but before she could say the words, she choked again: she was not sure whether it was because Su Zhong didn’t like any food, or whether she didn’t care and just treated Su Zhong as something he didn’t like. The food was forced on him, but Su Zhong didn’t resist.
But Lin Chunhong refused to show weakness and only said: “I am also doing it for his own good. Is it okay for children to be picky eaters?”
“I know that only children are picky eaters. Adults are not picky eaters. If adults don’t like to eat, that’s called taboo food.” He, you are indeed an amazing single mother. But it is undeniable that you are a bit extreme. You have no relatives to rely on, so you regard your ambition as an object of self-projection. He must accept whatever you think is good. , he will do whatever you think he should do. This is not love – or, in other words, this is not pure love.”
These words were spoken in a calm tone, but they pierced Lin Chunhong’s heart more than any other foul language.
Lin Chunhong almost jumped: “What do you know?! Do you know how hard I worked to raise him? Do you know how I took care of him meticulously? And you, you don’t know anything, you only know how to put on your clothes and stretch out your hands, Come on, you can’t love him like I do!”
“I can’t.” Xin Qianyu answered simply, “Why should I love him like a mother?”
Lin Chunhong was blocked and couldn’t say a word.
Su Zhong was silent for a long time, then picked up a business card and handed it to Lin Chunhong: “Mom, something is definitely wrong with you. See the doctor.”
Lin Chunhong looked down and found that it was a business card from a psychological counselor. Her face turned pale: “You, you think I’m sick?”
“We are all sick.” Su Zhong patted Lin Chunhong on the shoulder, “I am also seeing this doctor. The psychological problems that have troubled me since I was a child have also been relieved a lot.”
Lin Chunhong’s eyes have always been moist, but she endured it until this moment before tears fell: “The… psychological problem that has troubled you since you were a child?”
When she held the business card in her hand, Lin Chunhong dared to face herself. She was not a perfect mother…
At the same time, the image of the “perfect son” in his heart was instantly shattered.
What is reflected in the mirror is never the real intention, but the psychological projection of Lin Chunhong.
When the illusion broke, she was cut and dripping with blood.
In the end, she took away the business card and followed Su Zhong’s advice to face her psychological barriers.
In fact, her problem has always existed.
She was born in a family that favored sons over daughters. Her brother occupied the best resources, and she accepted this allocation subconsciously. After getting married, she acted as a good wife, a good mother, a good husband and a good mother-in-law. Unexpectedly, what greeted her was her husband’s disgust and betrayal. After the divorce, she had to work and raise children alone. However, her son is different from normal children…
Life is hard for her.
If she didn’t tell herself a few lies, it would be difficult for her to live with a smile——
“Yes, brother is a man, and men are in charge of the house. It’s all like this…”
“My husband is a very nice person and is willing to support me. Whose husband is not like this?”
“My son is not slow, he just doesn’t like to talk…”
“Who said there is something wrong with my child? There is nothing wrong with your child. Why don’t you try to get 100 points in the test like my son?”
…
At night, the night seems to be stained by the breeze, and the dark blue color is reflected on the transparent glass windows.
Xin Qianyu closed the velvet curtains and looked back at Su Zhong lying beside the bed.
He walked towards the bed, took off his cotton socks, revealing the white insteps, and said, “Do you think Lin Chunhong loves you?”
Su Zhong glanced at Xin Qianyu: “Yeah.”
There was actually some confusion in his tone.
Xin Qianyu sighed and lay down next to Su Zhong: “Do you hope she loves you?”
“I hope.” Su Zhong replied, this time there was no confusion in his tone, it was very straightforward, “No matter what, being loved is a good thing.”
Xin Qianyu smiled: “Of course.”
Su Zhong said in a deep voice: “But… maybe I don’t deserve to be loved. It seems that not many people are willing to love me.”
“Nonsense.” Xin Qianyu couldn’t hear Su Zhong’s pitiful tone, “You are too slow to feel it!”
Su Zhong immediately turned his head and showed the expression of a puppy asking for food: “Do you love me?”
Xin Qianyu’s heart skipped a beat, and she tilted her head and said, “You have to feel this for yourself.”
Su Zhong hugged Xin Qianyu and put his head on Xin Qianyu’s chest, like a coquettish pet. He listened carefully: “Xiaoyu’s heart is beating very fast.”
Xin Qianyu’s face turned red and her expression was indignant, but she was reluctant to push this handsome man away.
Maybe it’s because the night is too dark and the beauty is too abundant.
Since Xin Qianyu told Su Zhong to feel it, Su Zhong pressed Xin Qianyu on the bed to feel it.
In the past, Su Zhong would ask Xiaoyu if he wanted it, but because Xin Qianyu had said in embarrassment before, “You don’t have to ask about it from now on,” Su Zhong felt that he had been given permission, so he could have it anytime, anywhere, whenever he wanted.
However, Su Zhong would still consult Xin Qianyu’s opinion on some key issues.
“Can I be in there?”
“No!” Xin Qianyu said, “It’s too troublesome to clean.”
“I can help you……”
“No means no!”
“Okay…” Su Zhong said aggrievedly, “Can it be on your lap?”
“ah?”
“Xiaoyu’s legs are very beautiful.”
…
A sentence that Xin Mu often said flashed through Xin Qianyu’s mind: Men are all dogs.
You really have to listen to your mother.
Just when he was missing his mother, his mother’s call came.
My mother’s voice was soft and she said with concern: “You are huffing and puffing, aren’t you…?”
“…No,” Xin Qianyu said, “You are thinking too much.”
“You’re really not doing it?” Xin Mu said in a “Don’t lie to me” tone.
Xin Qianyu said sincerely: “Really not.” He was not doing it, but he had just finished doing it and was still panting.
Xin Mu nodded and said, “The CFO cashed out and left. Do you know this?”
“I know.” Xin Qianyu stopped feeling sleepy when she heard it was about work, “What’s wrong?”
Xin Mu said: “The old man knows that he transferred his shares to you.”
Xin Qianyu smiled and said, “I just want him to know. I just want to see him anxious.”
“Naughty.” Xin Mu said fondly, “The old man is really in a hurry and asked you to go back for dinner.”
On New Year’s Eve, the old man didn’t care whether Xin Qianyu went back for dinner, but now he asked people to go home. It was really interesting.
Xin Qianyu nodded: “Okay, since it’s Chinese New Year, I’ll go back and cause trouble for the old man.”
