Get Married - Chap 64
　Chapter 64 You think about me again…
　　A group of young people have gone out almost a block.
　　Shao Chengyun first stood there for a while, then got into the car with a sullen face, started the car, turned around and drove towards the direction Xin Rong was walking in.
　　He caught up with Xin Rong and his group, lowered the window on the side of the sidewalk, and lightly pressed the horn.
　　Xin Rong was walking on the outside of the sidewalk, with Louis’ arm still on his shoulder. As soon as Shao Chengyun’s car approached, Xin Rong turned to look at the black car that was approaching slowly when the horn sounded.
　　Shao Chengyun was on fire, and said to him, “Get in the car, I’ll take you back to school.”
　　This bar is out of the way and not near campus. Shao Chengyun was not at ease to let Xin Rong take public transportation back to school with this group of classmates who were obviously drunk, and he couldn’t stand Louis so deliberately pulling the distance from Xin Rong in front of his own face.
　　Xin Rong probably didn’t expect Shao Chengyun to drive around. He stopped on the side of the road, and Shao Chengyun’s car also stopped.
　　Louis and other friends spoke in a lower voice, Xin Rong pushed away Louis’ arm and walked to Shao Chengyun’s car instead.
　　Holding the car window with one hand, he lowered his body slightly, and said to Shao Chengyun at a volume that only he and Shao Chengyun could hear, “Mr. Shao, I’m going back to school by myself tonight, don’t send me off.”
　　After finishing speaking, he stared at Shao Chengyun across the passenger seat.
　　Even if the light inside the car was dim, Shao Chengyun could clearly read the complex emotions in Xin Rong’s eyes.
　　Seeing this from Xin Rong, Shao Chengyun was also confused, frowned and said, “Get in the car, it’s not safe around here.”
　　Xin Rong pursed her lips, her voice still kept low, first she called Shao Chengyun’s name, and then said, “I’m such an old man, and I still have friends by my side, nothing will happen.”
　　After a pause, Xin Rong suddenly let out a low sigh, and finally said to Shao Chengyun, “Even without your protection, I can still live well.”
　Shao Chengyun was stunned for a moment.
　　Xin Rong got up and left the car, walking back to a group of friends. The signal light at the intersection ahead just turned green, and the group of them quickly crossed the street without looking back.
　　Shao Chengyun sat alone in the car, and the wind gushed in from the window on the side of the passenger side.
　　After an unknown amount of time, he suddenly clenched his fist and slammed the steering wheel hard.
　　Because I accidentally touched the part of the horn, a long sound like a whimper echoed in the empty street, and then gradually dissipated in the wind.
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　　Shao Chengyun didn’t know that after Xin Rong left the hotel room yesterday, he didn’t go back to school immediately. Instead, he turned into the fire exit at the end of the corridor and sat alone in the empty stairwell for a long time.
　　It has been almost a year since the end of the marriage contract. During this period, Shao Chengyun has done many things for Xin Rong, some of which were thoughtful, some of which were reckless and impulsive, and even impulsive, which did not seem like what Shao Chengyun should have done. But the motivation behind this is all out of emotion, Xin Rong can feel it, and has thought about getting back together with him more than once.
　　It is not a question of love or not between them, but a hidden worry brought about by various realistic differences.
　　Xin Rong also made a serious self-analysis for this, and felt that with her own temperament, she might not be suitable to be Shao Chengyun’s pillow.
　　They have differences in age, family background, and life experience. No matter how you look at it, Xin Rong does not seem to be a suitable partner for Shao Chengyun.
　　To make matters worse, Xin Rong still has self-esteem that refuses to give up.
　　Before the marriage was about to disintegrate, Shao Chengyun said something similar to adopting him, and Xin Rong could never forget it. And he himself was obviously short of money, but he didn’t take away the bank card that meant impure feelings.
　　These actions may seem meaningless and childish stubbornness to outsiders.
　　Xin Rong was convinced that she couldn’t be that obedient and considerate young lover. Even if he liked Shao Chengyun so much, when he heard Shao Chengyun say “They don’t love you as much as I do” in the room just now, Xin Rong could hardly restrain his trembling.
　　The word love is too special to them, Xin Rong certainly knows its weight.
　　But once he calmed down, when he thought of Shao Chengyun’s answer of “don’t let go”, and “he is worse than you” when describing Bai Hui and Zhou Langye’s separation, Xin Rong’s heart turned cold again.
　　Xin Rong is not a person who can’t afford to lose, and she will not be so obsessed with eternal feelings.
　　He knew that there were always many problems between himself and Shao Chengyun, and they would always be in different stages of life. No matter how hard Xin Rong strives, she will never have the status and wealth like Shao Chengyun.
　　Shao Chengyun is born with a sense of intimidation, can become a decision maker, and at the same time bear great pressure, and will also attract the surrender and admiration of others.
　　There is no doubt that Xin Rong is also included.
　　But the conversation they had in the room just now aroused the most fearful and worrying point in Xin Rong’s heart.
　　No one can guarantee that a pair of lovers will love each other forever. If Xin Rong wants to leave one day because of some conflicts and differences, how will Shao Chengyun treat him?
　　Xin Rong sat in the fire escape for 30 minutes without coming up with any answers. Finally, he dragged an extremely tired body back to school.
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　　Xin Rong’s withdrawal was so obvious that he even said something like “I can live a good life myself”, Shao Chengyun was also frightened by him.
　　On the plane back to China the next day, Shao Chengyun didn’t go to the airport directly, and didn’t even change the ticket to a specific date, but continued to stay in the hotel.
　　Xin Rong’s course schedule for this semester is very full, and her schedule is relatively regular. She basically has to go to the library every night.
　　Shao Chengyun went there to wait for him for two nights, but Xin Rong didn’t come out to see him, but just sent a message to let Shao Chengyun return to China as planned, and he needed time to calm down.
　　After all, Shao Chengyun was the one with richer emotional experiences, and he knew that he couldn’t let it go on hold at this time. If coupled with Louis’ fierce pursuit, it would become a situation of internal and external troubles. Xin Rong might not be able to chase her back.
　　On the third night of his attempt to go to the library to wait for Xin Rong, it suddenly began to rain.
　　Shao Chengyun was originally standing on a lawn more than ten meters away from the library gate. Due to the rain, he had no choice but to go to the long eaves in front of the gate to avoid the rain.
　　Because he appeared every night recently, his tall and handsome appearance was very eye-catching. Many students who went in and out of the library had seen him, and they would cover their mouths and make soft comments when they passed by him.
　　Shao Chengyun was not the kind of person who would be entangled endlessly, even if he was waiting for someone, he would just wait for a while in silence. If Xin Rong sent a message asking him to leave, he would leave a few minutes after receiving the message.
　　This night’s situation was no exception, except that Xin Rong didn’t send a message and called him directly.
　　Xin Rong’s tone was gentle, but his attitude didn’t change at all. He asked him to go back to the hotel to rest, and asked him if he wanted an umbrella.
　　The rain has not slowed down, and it hits the glass eaves with a loud crackling sound.
　　Shao Chengyun originally planned to wait for the rain to stop before leaving, but when Xin Rong called, he didn’t want to disturb the other party, so he said, “No need for an umbrella, I’ll be back right away.”
　　After hanging up the phone, Shao Chengyun walked back to the hotel in the rain for nearly 20 minutes. He was completely cold from head to toe. Mobile phones are also difficult to use due to prolonged immersion in water.
　　Shao Chengyun took off his clothes, went into the bathroom and took a shower, but after taking a shower, he felt even more lethargic in body and consciousness.
　　He tried to restart the phone, but the system did not respond, and all missed calls and unread messages could not be read. In the end, Shao Chengyun threw the phone on the ground, and lay down on the bed with a feeling of despair that he had never felt before.
　　This sleep lasted until the next morning, and at an unknown time, the continuous knocking on the door gradually woke him up.
　　Shao Chengyun sat up in a daze, his throat was so sore that it was difficult to swallow saliva, he heard Xin Rong’s voice when he had a splitting headache, he regained his energy, grabbed a bathrobe and put it on his body, got out of bed and opened the door .
　Xin Rong was also stunned when she saw Shao Chengyun.
　　Shao Chengyun looked very depressed, holding the door with one hand and the wall with the other, his eyes were completely lifeless. Only because the curtains in the room were still blocking the light, Xin Rong couldn’t see him clearly.
　　Shao Chengyun didn’t speak, and took a step back to let Xin Rong enter the room.
　　Xin Rong was holding a paper bag containing cold medicine, and as soon as she entered the room, the man leaned against the door and hugged her.
　　Shao Chengyun hugged him very tightly, because the bathrobe on his body was already loosely tied, his high body temperature was transmitted to Xin Rong in an instant.
　　The room was very dark, and there was a small light gap between the curtains and the floor, which was not enough to illuminate the two of them.
　　Xin Rong let Shao Chengyun hold him, and he was also struggling in his heart, as if someone took a pair of scissors and cut countless gaps on the tip of his heart one by one.
　　Ever since watching Shao Chengyun walk out of the campus in the rain from upstairs in the library last night, Xin Rong couldn’t read any books, went back to the dormitory restlessly, and didn’t sleep well all night.
　　This morning, he received a call from Shao Chengyun’s assistant from China, saying that he couldn’t get in touch with his boss at all, and begged Xin Rong to check it out.
　　Xin Rong was also thinking about Shao Chengyun, wondering if he would get sick after being exposed to the rain, so she bought some medicine and came to the hotel.
　　Shao Chengyun’s voice was hoarse, and he called Xin Rong’s name twice. Xin Rong felt pain in her heart when she heard that, she raised her hand to cover his mouth, and said, “Stop talking, go drink some water.”
　　After finishing speaking, he was about to break free and go get water for Shao Chengyun. But Shao Chengyun refused to let him go, pressed him against the door, held him tightly in his arms, and asked him in a hoarse voice, “Are you here to say goodbye to me…Xin Rong?”
　　Before Xin Rong could speak, he continued on his own, “Are you going to date someone else? You don’t want me…”
　　Xin Rong closed her eyes, not knowing how to answer this sentence.
　　Shao Chengyun’s beard stubble from sleeping overnight slowly rubbed against Xin Rong’s neck, he was not very sober from the fever, and his usual calmness, strength, and strategizing were all gone. Becoming an ordinary person who is afraid of losing a loved one.
　　Xin Rong supported Shao Chengyun with one arm, trying to help him back to bed to rest. But Shao Chengyun pressed him against the door, pressed his hot body against him, and continued, “When I was twenty years old, I was also a man of the school, no worse than any of your classmates. Take a closer look Look, think about me…”
　　Shao Chengyun didn’t dare to kiss Xin Rong again, but he couldn’t help wanting to possess him. His dry lips rubbed against Xin Rong’s smooth and moist neck skin, and he said vaguely, “I can help you read the papers and play ball with you.” , Watching a movie, I can reduce my work and spend more time with you, Xin Rong, please think about me…”
　　Xin Rong couldn’t listen any longer, looked up at the ceiling, her eyes started to turn red, and felt that she could no longer insist on being a cruel person.
　　In the year that Shao Chengyun brought Xin Rong back, even if he did some things that were beyond Xin Rong’s expectations, such as pretending to be a Winnie the Pooh, or going to work in Haoli, but with Shao Chengyun, these behaviors are controllable, At the same time, it is accompanied by a clear purpose.
　　But the rain last night, and Xin Rong’s avoidance of retreating, shattered the little hope he could control.
　　Shao Chengyun had an unprovoked but clear premonition that Xin Rong’s avoidance this time was true, and no matter what he did, he might not be able to redeem it.
　　When he tried to say something more, Xin Rong threw away the paper bag in his hand, embraced him with both arms, and gave him a kiss suddenly.
　　The sound of their rapid breathing rose and fell in the dark room, and the door panels of the not-so-sturdy old-fashioned hotel were also squeezed slightly.
　　They hugged and kissed for an unknown amount of time, Xin Rong was deprived to the point of lack of oxygen, her eyelashes were stained with moisture, and the corners of her eyes were moist, obviously crying.
　　While Shao Chengyun was under the high fever, he didn’t notice Xin Rong’s abnormality, but such a long and deep kiss also overdrawn Shao Chengyun’s remaining physical strength. In the end, Xin Rong turned away, ended the kiss, and brought Shao Chengyun back to the bed to lie down.
　　Maybe it was because of the comfort of the kiss, after Shao Chengyun lay down, he didn’t speak any more, but just pulled Xin Rong down on his body, wrapped his arm around him, and wanted to fall asleep with him.
　　Xin Rong didn’t move, and quietly let him hold her. After a while, Xin Rong heard that Shao Chengyun’s breathing became steady, and then carefully propped herself up and walked away from him.
　　Afterwards, Shao Chengyun slept for a long and deep sleep, woke up once near noon, took two pills and a bowl of porridge, and was coaxed to sleep by Xin Rong again.
　　Xin Rong did not return to school, and stayed with him in the room. When Shao Chengyun was fast asleep, Xin Rong sat in the chair by the window, quietly watching him fall asleep.
　　At six o’clock in the evening, Xin Rong walked to the bed and checked Shao Chengyun’s temperature.
　　The fever has subsided, and Shao Chengyun’s physical fitness is good enough. Ten hours of deep sleep was enough for him to recover.
　　Xin Rong used the mobile app to order a takeaway from a nearby Chinese restaurant. When he went to the hotel lobby to bring the rice porridge and side dishes back to the room, Shao Chengyun was not asleep, but sat on the bed with his clothes on, looking at Xin with clear eyes. Banyan walks in. She was a completely different person from the way she went to open the door for Xin Rong this morning.
　　Xin Rong took out several lunch boxes and put them on the bedside table, filled another bowl of porridge for Shao Chengyun, and handed it to him.
　　Shao Chengyun said, “You can eat a bowl too.”
　　Xin Rong shook her head, “I’m not hungry.”
　　Shao Chengyun seemed to know something, so he didn’t persuade him any more, and drank the porridge without saying a word. During the period, Xin Rong put a few slices of steamed soft chicken into his bowl, and he ate them too.
　　Then Xin Rong took away the tableware, went back to the chair by the bed and sat down, first was quiet for a few seconds, and then said to Shao Chengyun, “I have thought about it these days. When I saw you on the cruise ship, I was 21. I’m 5 years old, life has just begun, and now I’m asked to make a choice, whether it’s emotional or otherwise, it’s too early.”
　　Xin Rong was wearing a long-sleeved hoodie. His hands were hidden in the sleeves and he was secretly clenched into fists, but nothing was revealed on his face, and his voice was calm and indifferent, without any flaws.
　”I need time.” Xin Rong looked into Shao Chengyun’s eyes and said slowly, “At least one year, I want to have an independent living space, socialize, and maybe consider getting to know other people. Please don’t contact me either. ”
　　Every word Xin Rong uttered was very difficult for him. He could also see Shao Chengyun’s eyes gradually turning darker. He knew that with the other party’s temperament, it was difficult to accept this kind of complete letting go. What’s more, I also mentioned the possibility of interacting with other people.
　　But if it wasn’t like this, Xin Rong would never know whether Shao Chengyun could really give him freedom, not just a few verbal promises.
　　Even though Shao Chengyun wanted him to stay, Xin Rong was unwilling. Will they be able to complement each other.
　　After Xin Rong finished speaking, she took out an electronic ticket from her jeans pocket, put it on the bedside table, and said, “He Xun sent it to me by email in the morning, and now everyone in the company is waiting for you to go back.”
　　Shao Chengyun silently watched him finish all this, and then Xin Rong stood up, and the moment he was about to push the chair away, Shao Chengyun suddenly reached out and pulled him back.
　　The room is very quiet, the garden in the atrium of the hotel is outside the window, and the noise of traffic outside cannot be heard.
　　Shao Chengyun’s palm was warm and strong, holding Xin Rong’s hand, he asked him in a deep voice, “Is this what you want?”
　　Xin Rong nodded and looked into the other person’s eyes, “This is what I want.”
　　He didn’t ask Shao Chengyun again if he would let him go, nor did he mention what would happen in a year. He was afraid that if he stayed here for a second longer, he would be pierced by those deep eyes.
　　Shao Chengyun stared at Xin Rong, but finally let go.
　　Xin Rong looked away, walked around the big bed, walked to the door, opened it, and stepped onto the carpeted corridor.
　　The door closed behind him, and he walked towards the stairs at a constant pace, and after starting to go down the stairs, his pace became faster and faster, and finally left the hotel at almost a trot speed.
　　The street was full of passers-by in a hurry, but Xin Rong couldn’t see any faces in front of her eyes, she just kept replaying the look in Shao Chengyun’s eyes before letting go.
　　The man’s eyes were bloodshot, and the side jaw line was tense, clearly in a state of depression and pain, but he let go of Xin Rong’s hand. Just because Xin Rong said, this is what he wanted.
　　Xin Rong tried her best to control her emotions, and pulled the hood over her head with her backhand. He didn’t want to cry uncontrollably on the street, and he didn’t want to attract attention.
　　A year is not very long, he told himself.
　　If Shao Chengyun still came to him after a year, then he would tell him the answer.
