Good Luck Time - Chap 22
In fact, these are inappropriate usages. Tao Sizhi felt that she only learned the acquired helplessness from Jiang Ge.
Jiang Ge made Tao Sizhi feel negative and tormented on many occasions when he was alone. However, after Jiang Ge left for many years, his helplessness naturally dissipated, and Tao Sizhi thought that he had recovered.
The two were silent for a while, and then Jiang Ge sat down at the end of Tao Sizhi’s bed. Tao Sizhi glanced at him, feeling that his eyes were difficult to understand.
After a few seconds, Jiang Ge said to Tao Sizhi: “I have no other intention, I just want to help you.”
Tao Sizhi looked at him. The two looked at each other for a moment. Jiang Ge looked away and said, “Aren’t you bored living here alone every day?”
”Would you like to go for a drive?” he asked Tao Sizhi, “I have applied for the pass today. The car is downstairs, so there is no need to go further.”
It’s half past nine, it’s getting late, Tao Sizhi wants to go to bed, he hasn’t taken a shower yet.
But strangely enough, he finally said to Jiang Ge: “It’s raining so hard today, I think there must be very few people in the all-night bookstore I used to like to go to.”
After saying that, he immediately regretted it. He didn’t know why he said that, and he didn’t know why he followed Jiang Ge out.
The corridor of the dormitory is relatively narrow. If two people walk side by side, the backs of their hands will touch each other from time to time.
This time Jiang Ge’s hand was finally warm. Tao Sizhi turned his head slightly and looked at Jiang Ge’s profile.
Jiang Ge always looked very proud, and his coat was spotless. Tao Sizhi wanted to look at him, but she didn’t want to look at him.
They went to the bookstore and stayed on the first floor for a while. Tao Sizhi selected two books when a group of noisy middle school students suddenly came in at the door.
Tao Sizhi subconsciously approached Jiang Ge, put her shoulder against Jiang Ge’s chest, and quickly backed away.
”Why don’t you go?” Jiang Ge said. He took the book in Tao Sizhi’s hand and walked to the checkout counter where he was queuing.
Tao Sizhi followed and said to Jiang Ge, “I’ll arrange it myself.”
Jiang Ge gave him the car keys and said, “You go to the car first.”
Tao Sizhi walked downstairs to the underground garage and found Jiang Ge’s car.
Jiang Ge’s car was very quiet, with no decorations. Tao Sizhi sat in the car, dazed for a while, and then Jiang Ge got out. He gave the book to Tao Sizhi and said, “Where to go next?”
Tao Sizhi didn’t say anything, so he drove out. His speed was not very fast. Tao Sizhi didn’t understand why he came to this conclusion, but he felt that Jiang Ge was very sad.
Jiang Ge drove for a long time, taking a large circle in the city and taking some repeated routes. Tao Sizhi did not stop him. Finally, Jiang Ge returned to the bookstore and stopped under an overpass in the city center.
The rain became so heavy that the windshield was completely covered in gray, and they seemed to have entered another world.
”Tao Sizhi,” Jiang Ge said to him, “I came out to my parents last winter.”
”Do you know what coming out is?” He asked Tao Sizhi again.
Tao Sizhi knows what it means to come out, a gay person who announces his sexual orientation to his family or society.
Jiang Ge looked at him for a while, and without waiting for Tao Sizhi’s answer, he said to himself, “But I didn’t say who the target was.”
Tao Sizhi really wanted to look at the glass of the car window, because the ripples on the glass were very interesting, but he restrained himself, and even though he was a little distracted, he still looked at Jiang Ge.
”My dad beat me up and sent me to the northwest branch to open up wasteland. This year he finally said he was too lazy to take care of me anymore and transferred me back.” Jiang Ge didn’t look at Tao Sizhi, looking at the void somewhere in front of him.
Tao Sizhi didn’t know what to say, so he looked at Jiang Ge’s face.
After some time, maybe three minutes, Jiang Ge turned his eyes back to Tao Sizhi’s face. The corners of his mouth were slightly curved, but there was no smile in his eyes. He asked Tao Sizhi: “You don’t remember this place, do you?”
Tao Sizhi looked into Jiang Ge’s unsmiling eyes, moved her lips, and whispered, “Remember.”
”On September 13th in the first half of the senior year of high school,” he told Jiang Ge, “you were unhappy in the bookstore, so you dragged me here.”
Jiang Ge smiled again, and after a moment, he said, “Why did you hug me then?”
Tao Sizhi thought Jiang Ge looked really sad, so he didn’t answer.
”Do you remember what you said when you hugged me?” Jiang Ge asked Tao Sizhi.
Before Tao Sizhi could speak, Jiang Ge answered by himself: “You said your brother told you that not everyone in the world can like you, and you should only look at people who like you.”
”Tao Sizhi, are you talking nonsense?” he asked Tao Sizhi, “have you never liked me?”
His voice was very flat, and you couldn’t tell whether it was confusion or pain, or even whether he was asking a question.
But Tao Sizhi felt that his heart was suddenly tightened. He reached out and touched Jiang Ge’s arm to confirm that Jiang Ge was really sitting next to him.
”Tao Sizhi,” Jiang Ge looked at Tao Sizhi in the heavy darkness and in the rain beside the overpass, and asked him in a low, powerless voice, “When you kiss me, do you want to kiss me or be happy? .”
Tao Sizhi looked at Jiang Ge blankly. He raised his hand involuntarily and touched Jiang Ge’s hair and cheek, confirming again that Jiang Ge was sitting in front of him.
Jiang Ge pulled away his hand and held his wrist loosely.
After holding on for a while, Jiang Ge asked again: “Did you miss me when I was away?”
Tao Sizhi said: “Jiang Ge, I have thought about it.”
Chapter 13
”Jiang Ge.” Tao Si called Jiang Ge abruptly and poked Jiang Ge’s arm with his finger. Jiang Ge was solving a solid geometry problem when he poked him and the auxiliary line was drawn crookedly.
Jiang Ge turned to look at him. Tao Sizhi looked as dull as ever. He said to Jiang Ge expressionlessly: “I want to go to the All-Night Bookstore.”
”Going again?” Jiang Ge looked at his watch and felt confused about Tao Sizhi, “It’s almost ten o’clock, aren’t you going to bed?”
Since the weekend last week, Tao Sizhi had to stay at Jiang Ge’s house for one night because his brother was on a business trip. He walked around Jiang Ge’s room holding a pillow in the middle of the night. In order to make him normal, Jiang Ge agreed to take him on an all-nighter. After going to the bookstore, Tao Sizhi seemed to fall in love with this feeling.
