I Rely on Beauty to Stabilize the Country - Chap 158
Rebuilding the Silk Road will face difficulties and obstacles on both sides.
In comparison, sea routes are more dangerous than land routes. People living on land have been yearning and curious about the ocean and sky since ancient times. People in Daheng want to open up new roads, see the scenery of various countries, want Daheng to prosper, and spread the glory of Daheng to their eyes. Everywhere you can see.
This is the goal of some ambitious young officials, and also the goal of everyone surrounding Gu Yuanbai.
They not only long for peace and prosperity, they want to long for something more. The mountains and rivers inside and outside, the scenery is peaceful and prosperous, arousing magnificent passions in the hearts of men.
What Gu Yuanbai saw in his eyes had already traveled thousands of miles away. The vast land of coastal areas, grasslands, and yellow sand made his mind extremely broad, filled with ambitions that were not worthy of being a heretic.
He is not a person who indulges in love, and he doesn’t think companionship is very important on weekdays. But now, when he thinks of Xue Yuan leaving the capital and re-walking the Silk Road, he feels a bit bitter in his mouth.
Gu Yuanbai has long been accustomed to the days when Xue Yuan is around him. When it is cold, some people feel sad, and when it is hot, some people are anxious. When he wakes up in the middle of the night, someone hands him a cup of warm water and he is coaxed to fall asleep again. As time went by, I looked back and realized that it has been fourteen years since Jingping.
Four years have passed since the wood carving that Xue Yuan gave him in the 10th year of Jingping.
And if he wants to leave this time, he will have to leave for three to five years. If Gu Yuanbai’s health is not good yet, how can he wait for him for three to five years? But now that he has recovered and has time, Gu Yuanbai is unwilling to let Xue Yuan go.
He wanted Xue Yuan to stay under his nose and be visible at any time. But what Gu Yuanbai admired was the vigorous aura of freedom in Xue Yuan’s body, like wild grass and wild animals, full of vitality and untamable. He should run wildly and should not be raised as a domestic flower under the protection of Gu Yuanbai’s wings.
Gu Yuanbai understands that a man has ambitions in all directions. But that is not a short time, it is year after year, a time when the grass in the night turns yellow and withers, and frost and snow come several times.
At night, Gu Yuanbai faced the wall, mindlessly thinking about what he wanted Xue Yuan to do.
But he couldn’t think about it. He didn’t want Xue Yuan to go, and he didn’t want Xue Yuan to go. His decisiveness and sharpness were all gone now.
Someone reached over behind him and groped for his hand in the quilt. Gu Yuanbai didn’t move, and Xue Yuan pressed close to him.
His breath hit his neck. Xue Yuan said nothing, but held Gu Yuanbai’s hand tightly. Rubbing the thick calluses, every part of these hands was familiar to Gu Yuanbai in his heart. His thumbs were soothing on the back of the hands, as if to reassure Gu Yuanbai.
After a while, Xue Yuan asked in a low voice: “Can’t you sleep?”
Gu Yuanbai subconsciously let his breathing take a long time and pretended to be asleep. Xue Yuan chuckled a few times, “If we can’t sleep, let’s go for a walk.”
“How can you tell that I haven’t slept?” Gu Yuanbai finally spoke up.
“The hearts are connected,” Xue Yuan opened the quilt, got out of bed, found Gu Yuanbai’s clothes, and held him next to the bed, “How about wearing this indigo one?”
Gu Yuanbai nodded silently, Xue Yuan knelt down on one knee, raised his foot and stepped on his knee, arranging the white socks with concentration.
He is so serious, even a little serious. Gu Yuanbai looked at him from top to bottom, only seeing his handsome eyebrows as thick as ink spots. After Xue Yuan came to Gu Yuanbai’s side, he took care of everything and took care of it personally. He served Gu Yuanbai willingly. From being unfamiliar to being proficient, this proud man took care of Gu Yuanbai’s daily life.
“I should give you an extra salary,” Gu Yuanbai cheered up, “ask Tian Fusheng to give you half.”
Xue Yuan smiled, “Manager Tian must hate me to death.”
He helped Gu Yuanbai up and put on his clothes one by one. The robe smoothed out the wrinkles, the silver piping was billowing, and the cyan cloud and dragon pattern belt was slowly tied around his waist. After Gu Yuanbai was fully dressed, Xue Yuan After getting dressed, the two quietly walked out of the dim palace.
There was no scenery to see in the imperial garden at this time. Gu Yuanbai raised his head and saw the bright stars in the sky above his head.
Xue Yuan took him for a walk, “Do you want me to go?”
“Look at you,” Gu Yuanbai continued to raise his head, “If you want to leave or don’t want to leave, how can others persuade you?”
Xue Yuan held his hand tightly, “How will you know you can’t talk to me if you don’t try?”
Gu Yuanbai stopped talking, and disappointment flashed in Xue Yuan’s eyes, “Sometimes I really want to get into your belly and see what you are thinking.”
Gu Yuanbai said: “Then you should get into your head.”
It must be two or three o’clock in the middle of the night. Two people came to see the dark imperial garden in the middle of the night. Gu Yuanbai suddenly woke up and cursed himself: “Silly.”
Xue Yuan quit, he said displeasedly: “Why are you scolding yourself?”
“…” Gu Yuanbai, “Can’t I even scold myself?”
He suddenly felt some unexplainable grievances. Xue Yuan was startled and coaxed: “Don’t scold yourself, scold me.”
Gu Yuanbai lowered his eyes and straightened his mouth. Although he looked stubborn and stubborn, Xue Yuan felt soft-hearted. He hugged him, his affection turned into invisible and intangible threads, and he sincerely sighed: “It would be great if I could carry you on my body. good.”
Gu Yuanbai muttered in his arms, “It’s impossible to pretend, but if you–”
Xue Yuan remained calm and looked down at him, “What if?”
Gu Yuanbai couldn’t help but said: “If you stay with me, it will be like putting it on your body.”
He actually said this sentence, but he woke up after saying it.
no.
This is not Gu Yuanbai’s style of doing things.
If you want to go, go, and if you want to come back, come back. What are you doing sticky? Use emotions to bind the other person to give up the idea of making contributions. If others dare to do this to Gu Yuanbai, Gu Yuanbai can avoid this person.
There is more than just love in the world, and Xue Yuan should not be detained by Gu Yuanbai’s side. How many efforts he had made before, none of them were just for meritorious service?
Now that such a great achievement is in front of him, Gu Yuanbai tells him not to go. Thousands of people are shouldering the burden, and the prosperity of a country is the driving force. Gu Yuanbai should not use the personal relationship between his children to imprison a talent who is useful to the country. .
Gu Yuanbai took a deep breath and gradually became firmer, “I said it’s bad, you should go.”
Xue Yuan was stunned, “Is the Holy One willing to let me go?”
“Of course I won’t let it go,” Gu Yuanbai smiled stiffly, “But this is a great opportunity to make a contribution, will you miss it?”
Xue Yuan’s actions in the past two years have attracted much attention. He seems to be born with a keen sense of danger. Such a sense of smell is also unusual in politics. It is rare for him to have such an official position at his age, but if he still wants to be promoted, he has to either transfer from outside and perform meritorious service, or endure seniority.
When he is transferred to the position of Privy Councilor, it will take at least ten years.
Returning to the Overland Silk Road was a good opportunity to make great contributions. Xue Yuan was indeed very excited. The purpose of his meritorious service was to be able to be by Gu Yuanbai’s side openly and to become Gu Yuanbai’s pillar of support. It’s not a good way for him to survive. This is a great opportunity, but the only drawback is that the journey is far away and takes too long. As long as you think about it, you will start to reject it before you are far away.
After being away from Gu Yuanbai for several years, Xue Yuan couldn’t accept this.
“Daheng is so great and has so many achievements, so there is no need to rush this time,” Xue Yuan smiled, took Gu Yuanbai’s hand and covered the side of his face, “Whatever you say is whatever you say, as long as you say it, I just listen, it’s not a big deal if I miss it.”
Hint: “Your Majesty, what I said is the truth.”
“Then go ahead,” Gu Yuanbai touched the corners of his eyes, “You are not young anymore.”
“…I’m still young.”
Gu Yuanbai smiled and rolled his eyes, stroking from the corners of his eyes to the bridge of his nose, “It’s okay to go there once. You are my eyes. If you go and take a look at those countries, you are taking a look for me.”
Xue Yuan looked down at him and didn’t speak for a long time. His eyes melted into the darkness, as if he was suffering from the pain of separation and was anxious to withdraw.
Gu Yuanbai finally said: “Go.”
The stars turned into the Milky Way, and the spring breeze gently relaxed its steps in the night. Xue Yuan’s Adam’s apple rolled. After a long time, he said with difficulty: “Okay.”
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A lot of preparations need to be made before moving forward on the Silk Road, and it will take at least six or seven months. From that night on, Xue Yuan stayed by Gu Yuanbai’s side day and night. Gu Yuanbai indulged him so much that traces of their companionship were left everywhere in the palace.
Like the lingering fight before parting, Xue Yuan gritted his teeth more and more as he became more prepared. Sometimes at night, he pressed Gu Yuanbai’s back, like a neck touching each other. To the dying mandarin duck, “Your Majesty, after I leave, will others climb into this bed?”
When Gu Yuanbai said no, he would ask again: “What if you like someone else?”
He asked Gu Yuanbai almost a dozen times a day if he liked him.
The time to part was getting closer and closer, and he was visibly panicking. The silence he had developed over the past two years was shattered to pieces, and the fear and fear almost engulfed him. He would often look at Gu Yuanbai and see his fingers tremble, and he was irritable and depressed, which made Xue Yuan start to lose weight frighteningly before leaving. .
Gu Yuanbai knew that he couldn’t bear to leave, but he didn’t know that it would be so serious.
Xue Yuan would occasionally fall into the pain of separation even during the day. He was overwhelmed by such emotions, and only Gu Yuanbai’s soft call could wake him up. Day after day, the redness in his eyes became deeper and deeper. Gu Yuanbai woke up in the middle of the night and realized that he didn’t even sleep and was just staring at him.
The pair of eyes in the night seemed to be looking at the last straw.
For Xue Yuan, sleeping has become a waste of time. He is reluctant to go to sleep. He would rather use the time to take one more look at Gu Yuanbai.
Gu Yuanbai put down all government affairs, pressed Xue Yuan on the bed during the day, and said, “You need to rest.”
Xue Yuan looked at him with red eyes, which were already heavy with fatigue. Gu Yuanbai didn’t know how Xue Yuan could open his eyes again, or how much willpower he used to fight against exhaustion. body, but if you think about it, you can appreciate the difficulty.
The mattress was soft, and the incense smelled like the sun. Xue Yuan was lying on such a bed, staring at Gu Yuanbai without any movement.
Gu Yuanbai covered his eyes, “Jiuyao, would you like to close your eyes and sleep?”
Xue Yuan didn’t want to disappoint Gu Yuanbai, but as soon as his eyes were covered by darkness, he couldn’t see Gu Yuanbai’s panic attack, leaving him unable to resist. He resisted the idea of pulling Gu Yuanbai’s hand away, thinking about sleeping and not letting him worry.
But he clenched his teeth, his masseter muscles trembled, and he struggled desperately.
Gu Yuanbai looked at him like this, and suddenly there was a rush of heat in his eyes, like a bottle full of water suddenly falling to the ground. He collapsed completely, and kept his mouth shut tightly without making a sound, with tears in his eyes. But it rolled down drop by drop like beads.
Hot and sad tears fell on Xue Yuan’s face.
Xue Yuan was startled. He couldn’t help but let go of his clenched teeth. The panic in his heart suddenly turned into confusion. He raised his hands, but his eyes were covered and he didn’t know what to do. “Don’t cry, don’t cry. I’m going to sleep. I’m going to sleep now. I’ll be there soon.” Can sleep.”
It was dark in front of him, and the little emperor’s cold fingers blocked his vision. Xue Yuan could not see what Gu Yuanbai looked like now, but he could feel the trembling of his fingertips and the extremely suppressed choking.
More and more tears fell, and they seemed to be falling from the corners of Xue Yuan’s eyes in a daze.
Gu Yuanbai cried so hard that he couldn’t stand up. He was crying in pain and silently. He was shocked by this fierce and violent emotion, which made his face look messy and red, and his eyes were blurred.
It was too torturous, the sudden sadness could not be concealed, and no matter how strong the willpower was, it could not prevent the current collapse.
Sad, why is it so sad to fall in love?
Xue Yuan’s appearance made Gu Yuanbai so uncomfortable. He was drowning in the deep sea, his breathing was intermittent, and he could only vent his emotions freely in his eyes.
He felt sorry for Xue Yuan.
It hurts so much.
