Lovely Allergen - Chap 36
It was too close.
Le Zhishi didn’t have time to answer Song Yu’s question. Guilt and panic pulled his body back. He tripped over the higher steps behind him, and his body fell backward.
But Song Yu was one step faster. He grabbed his arm and pulled forward. Le Zhishi was like a roly-poly toy that had lost its free will. He swayed around and finally fell into Song Yu’s arms.
“What’s wrong with you?” Song Yu frowned and asked him, but Le Zhishi didn’t appreciate it. He struggled a few steps back and stood on the higher steps. His voice was a little unsteady. “I’m fine.”
Song Yu stood in the same place and stared at him. He seemed to be checking if he was telling the truth.
Le Zhishi’s state was very strange. He couldn’t explain his strange behavior to his brother, so he simply squatted down and buried his head in his knees. He used other things to cover it up. “I accidentally drank a mouthful of someone’s beer just now. I’m feeling a little uncomfortable now.”
After hearing this, Song Yu’s doubts disappeared a little. He squatted down and held his wrist to check the inside of his arm. There was no rash for the time being. Song Yu wouldn’t doubt him if he said it was an accident.
“How much did you drink?”
Le Zhishi shook his head, but his head was still buried. “Not much, just a small sip.”
The arm that Song Yu was holding was very hot. The temperature climbed up like a snake and reached his heart. A thin layer of sweat formed on his back. He wanted to break free, but he also wanted to stay in the same position. He wanted to continue being held like this, or even be hugged like just now.
This kind of contradictory mentality was too strange. Thinking about what he saw in the KTV just now, Le Zhishi even felt a little panicked subconsciously.
He saw with his own eyes a possibility that extended from his body that he had never thought of before, and this possibility was different from others. He thought of the other boys’ reactions after seeing the two men’s GIFs. They all laughed and ridiculed without any intention to hide it.
Only he was different.
Why couldn’t he laugh?
“Let’s go home.” Song Yu let go of his wrist and patted his hand. “Go back and take a chloradrenol pill.”
Le Zhishi raised his head. His face was even redder because of the suffocation. “Are you going back too?”
Song Yu nodded at him. “It’s quite boring.”
“Then why did you come?”
Song Yu’s expression changed. In the face of Le Zhishi’s direct questions, he had long learned to change the topic. He stood up and asked, “Are you leaving or not?”
“Let’s go.” Le Zhishi stood up with Song Yu without hesitation, but in the next second, he remembered that his clothes were still on the KTV table, so he told Song Yu that he had to go back to get them.
Although Song Yu didn’t say anything, he silently followed behind him. The group private room booked by the third-year students was at the innermost part of the first floor, while the third-year students were on the second floor. Song Yu didn’t want to go in at first, but when he thought about how he had accidentally drunk beer, he guessed that there would be some unruly people inside, so he followed him in.
Sure enough, Le Zhishi attracted more attention when he brought his brother in again. The atmosphere at the KTV was obviously different from at school. Everyone was more energetic.
“Yo, Le, your brother is taking you home.”
“Your family is so strict.”
Song Yu’s face was cold, and he didn’t say a word. Le Zhishi realized that the students who had dragged him to watch the movie had returned to the private room. They were singing, and a little afraid of being pestered, Le Zhishi quickly ran to the corner where he had been sitting.
Jiang Yufan was still sitting there playing games with others. When he looked up, he happened to see him. “Hey, you’re back? They said you went to the washroom. ”
“I’m going home. My brother is here.” Le Zhishi picked up the peripherals on the table. “You should go home early too.”
Jiang Yufan nodded repeatedly. “I’m leaving after this game. Come out tomorrow to play basketball.”
“Okay!” Le Zhishi ran away like a wisp of smoke. He was afraid that Song Yu would feel uncomfortable staying here. He was also afraid that the boys would pull him to do something strange again.
Song Yu came out a few steps before him, and his phone vibrated.
[Qin Yan: Handsome, are you coming back?]
Song Yu lowered his head and typed.
[Fire Hitachi: I’m going home.]
[Qin Yan:?? You’re too funny. You didn’t come when I asked you to, and now you suddenly changed your mind. You didn’t even sing a single song. He’s the king of karaoke, and you’re the king of pigeons.]
This joke was really not funny. Song Yu did not laugh, and for a moment, he did not know how to reply.
He also felt that his protective instincts were too strong.
Le Zhishi came out with his beloved peripherals and walked to the bus stop with Song Yu. He realized that many things were like lying in bed counting sheep after insomnia. The more he thought about it, the more he could not fall asleep. The more he warned himself not to think about that scene, the more the GIF of the advertisement kept flashing in front of his eyes, making him feel very embarrassed.
The bus left at night, and they stood side by side without saying a word. Cars came and went on the road. Le Zhishi did not have dinner. His stomach growled, and the atmosphere became even more awkward.
However, Song Yu did not feel anything. He asked Le Zhishi to sit there and wait. Not long after, he came out with Red Bean Matcha Daifu and a box of ice cream and handed it to Le Zhishi.
The bus also arrived. They got on the bus. There was only a young man sleeping with headphones on, sitting at the front of the bus. The two of them swiped their cards and sat in the last row of double seats. Le Zhishi opened the Daifu and swallowed it in two mouthfuls. He tore open the lid of the ice cream and slowly enjoyed it.
His attention would unconsciously shift when he was eating.
Song Yu helped him hold the tray and stared at it for a while. “You went to the party for this?”
“Yes.” Le Zhishi did not hide it and said that this was the peripherals he wanted the most. “Actually, there is one from Naruto, but it has been sold out. I was going to squat at Idle Fish and try my luck.”
Song Yu sighed silently. He felt that one day, Le Zhishi would run away with someone because of an anime peripherals.
The ice cream was also matcha flavored. Le Zhishi felt that Song Yu would like it. He scooped a spoonful and brought it to his mouth, but Song Yu still refused. Le Zhishi had to finish it himself and put the box in the convenience store’s plastic bag, satisfied. Le Zhishi’s body temperature dropped after eating the ice cream, but there were still some strange emotions in his heart.
He found that he did not dare to think about it and think deeply, as if he was afraid of knowing something.
The budding of puberty was like the restless wisdom teeth, hidden in the deepest part of his heart. The sense of existence could only be faintly seen at best, but it was impossible to ignore. He always wanted to use the tip of his tongue to lick and touch it, but he could not get any clear feedback.
Worry, curiosity, panic, fear, these emotions were all ambushed in the ambiguous soft flesh, and he could not make the right prediction.
He looked forward to it, but was afraid of the dull pain that could come at any time.
Song Yu was sitting next to him, and he did not know when he put on his headphones. The car swayed forward, and the reflective glass reflected his handsome side profile. Together with the flash of neon lights, there was a kind of illusory beauty.
Le Zhishi looked at the glass window, and his heart was filled with the curiosity of a young child toward an old man.
“Song Yu.” He turned his head.
Song Yu took off one of his headphones and looked at him.
“Have you seen that kind of video before?” Le Zhishi’s expression and tone showed obvious embarrassment, but he seemed to be afraid that Song Yu would not understand, so he added, “The kind that is not suitable for children.”
Song Yu frowned. “Why are you asking this?”
Le Zhishi was not led away by his rhetorical question this time. He insisted, “Have you seen it before?”
Song Yu was silent for a second or two. He raised his hand to put on his headphones, as if he was not going to answer his question. Le Zhishi hurriedly pressed his hand to put on the headphones. “I’m just curious.”
“Why are you curious?” Song Yu stared at him with a sharp gaze.
Le Zhishi did not avoid Song Yu’s gaze, but he paused for two seconds before saying, “A few guys took me to see it just now.”
He was a little scared at first, but Song Yu’s reaction was much calmer than he had imagined. “And then?”
He raised his eyebrows, and there was still not much expression on his face. “Was it nice?”
Le Zhishi looked down and mumbled, “Just like that.” He did not dare to say what he saw after that, and only said the first half. “I actually didn’t see it clearly. They were all squeezed together, and the phone screen was so small. They were laughing very loudly. They said that the girl had a good figure, but I couldn’t tell. Anyway, she was very fair and was a foreigner. The guy … ”
“He wasn’t good-looking. He had a stubble.” Le Zhishi raised his eyelids and glanced at Song Yu. He looked like a puppy who had done something wrong, but the words that came out of his mouth were so direct that it made people laugh. “He’s not as good-looking as you.”
Song Yu’s face showed a puzzled expression. “Why are you comparing me? Do you think I’ll be happy if you say that I’m better looking than the male actors in erotic movies? ”
Le Zhishi was also confused, but he quickly found a reason. “Because you’re here. And you’re very good-looking. ”
Song Yu was speechless. The bus announced the stop, and Le Zhishi shook his shoulder as if he had just woken up from a dream. Only then did the two of them get off the bus.
“Don’t hang out with those people in the future. You’ll only learn bad things.” Song Yu warned him in a stern tone.
But even if he did not say it, Le Zhishi knew in his heart. Although his upbringing since he was young was not considered an iron fist, it had always guided him in a good direction. Even Le Zhishi himself did not like the feeling of that group of people just now.
Moreover, he always subconsciously felt that if he learned bad things, he might be hated by Song Yu.
Walking on the street, the summer wind blew in their faces. There were many barbecue shops by the roadside that were doing a good job. The tables were placed outside, one next to another. Everyone sat outside to eat supper and chat. Song Yu’s voice sounded a little muffled in the noisy environment, and he was not so stern. “It’s normal for you to have a sexual awareness. You’ve grown up.”
Le Zhishi did not know how to respond, so he did not say anything. They walked past the food stall area, and the surroundings suddenly quieted down. Only the cicadas in the night could be heard. The dim yellow street lights elongated their shadows and stuck together.
Le Zhishi, who had his head lowered, heard Song Yu ask again, “You only have these thoughts after watching it?”
He did not know why Song Yu changed the topic again. He said stubbornly, “Yeah.”
Song Yu did not press him. The two of them walked to the elevator downstairs in silence. He raised his hand and pressed the up button. While waiting, Song Yu spoke again in a low voice, “Actually, you don’t have to feel ashamed about this kind of thing. It’s normal for you to have some feelings or reactions when you see it. It’s human instinct to reproduce. You can be curious and take the initiative to understand it, but don’t do things you shouldn’t do because of curiosity. ”
In fact, Song Yu did not want to be a guide in this regard. He forced himself to be indifferent when dealing with such a situation because he did not want to embarrass Le Zhishi because of this matter.
But in reality, he did not want to imagine Le Zhishi’s expression when he saw those scenes.
“Sex is not something to be ashamed of. Only by facing it can you treat it correctly. ”
On one hand, Song Yu hoped that his younger brother could treat the sprouting of sexual consciousness correctly. On the other hand, he felt that he did not have the right to teach him. After all, the thoughts that he held were “incorrect” in the public’s sense. This contradiction that went against common sense made Song Yu feel trapped and trapped, but he still had to learn to fulfill his responsibility as an elder brother.
“It’s all normal. Don’t be nervous.”
When he thought about how Le Zhishi could tell him these things without any burden, Song Yu felt that he should know his place and be a good elder brother.
Le Zhishi repeatedly chewed on Song Yu’s words, and the burden in his heart seemed to lessen. However, what he found difficult to talk about and what Song Yu said seemed to be two different things. The degree and direction were different.
But perhaps this was the same logic, he convinced himself.
But if Song Yu really knew that he had a stronger reaction when he saw the scene of a boy with a boy, would he still be able to calmly say this to him?
Le Zhishi was not sure.
The elevator door opened. He did not know if it had been transported before, but a little dust fell down the moment the door opened. Le Zhishi, who was standing in front, inhaled it and could not help but cough.
“Are you okay?” Song Yu pressed the floor button. He was not as sensitive to smells as Le Zhishi, so he did not feel anything strange in the elevator, so he subconsciously lowered his head to check if there was still the smell of cigarettes on him. Seeing this, Le Zhishi shook his head, calmed his breathing, and said to Song Yu, “It’s not on you. There was dust on you just now.”
After Le Zhishi discovered his motive, Song Yu’s tone changed unnaturally. “I just don’t want to be stained with the smell of cigarettes. It smells bad.”
“A little bit. But I don’t know why. “Le Zhishi leaned against the elevator wall and panted. After coughing, his pale face turned red, and his eyes were wet. His tone was as sincere as his eyes.
“It smells good on you.”
