Lovely Allergen - Chap 37
Song Yu didn’t respond to him, as usual.
Most of the time, Le Zhishi didn’t need to respond. It had been like this since he was young. He could express his love for his brother anytime, anywhere, without any obstacles. He didn’t think that there was anything wrong with expressing his feelings.
But now, he had changed a little. Occasionally, he hoped that his brother would respond a little. Even if it was just like when he was young, rejecting him decisively and telling him, “I don’t like it when you say that. Don’t do that in the future.”
He didn’t say anything. Le Zhishi wanted to guess. But he didn’t like guessing.
He didn’t show any symptoms of allergy, but he still took a pill as a precaution. That night, Le Zhishi tossed and turned, unable to sleep. He only fell asleep at around two in the morning.
He had a very strange dream. At first, he was lying on a beautiful grassland. The sky was low, and the clouds were floating. He stretched out his hand, and a dark cloud fell, pressing down on his body without leaving any gaps. For a moment, Le Zhishi almost couldn’t breathe. He tried to break free, but the cloud gathered into a human figure. It was the figure of a tall man. It didn’t have a face, but it gave him a very familiar feeling.
The impenetrable, incestuous embrace suffocated him. The feeling of being on the verge of death was pressing down on all his nerves. But strangely, he was forced to feel a strange feeling from this suffocation.
The cloud in the dream turned into a pool of hot rain without warning, drenching him. At five in the morning, Le Zhishi woke up from his dream.
For many days after that, Le Zhishi tried to find out more through the Internet. He didn’t want to be shrouded in ignorant curiosity and fear. He read many articles, did many tests, and watched many movies by himself. Most of them were literary films. The images were beautiful and moving. But the more he watched, the more confused Le Zhishi became.
He saw the so-called attractive pictures of men on the Internet, but he didn’t feel much. After doing set after set of tests, the results were very vague. They weren’t the same every time.
All of this confused Le Zhishi.
His confusion was always obvious, and he would often frown and daydream. When he accompanied Lin Rong to watch a TV series, he would stare blankly at the scenes of the male and female leads, or put on an inquisitive and serious expression, as if he needed someone to answer for him. So one day, when the family was on a trip, Song Yu said to Le Zhishi, who was staring blankly at a field of lotuses, “Do you still remember the lot you drew?”
Le Zhishi turned around, holding the quiet cotton candy in her arms, and looked at him blankly.
“Let nature take its course.” Song Yu said.
He vaguely felt that Song Yu understood him and knew why he felt lost. He had always relied on Song Yu and did not hold anything back.
“I don’t really want to be different from others.” Le Zhishi told Song Yu his thoughts frankly. He stroked Marshmallow’s fluffy head and said, “This is very strange.”
“Why?”
The moment Song Yu asked, Marshmallow slipped away under Lin Rong’s call.
Le Zhishi sat on the grass by the lake. He picked up an intact lotus seed pod and peeled a few tender lotus seeds from it. “I looked different from others when I was young, and I was always the center of attention. When I grew up, I didn’t want to stand out too much. “He peeled off the tender green skin, revealing the white and tender lotus seed, and handed it to Song Yu.
Song Yu took it but did not eat it. He felt that Le Zhishi was about to enter high school, and it was normal for him to be worried about his new social circle. The two of them sat side by side. At the end of June, it was the season when the lotuses first bloomed. The wind flipped the lotus leaves over, covering the new and wavering buds. Song Yu said in a low voice, “Do you know what’s the most contradictory thing about humans?”
Le Zhishi shook his head and looked at the side of his face.
“In order to avoid certain harm, we imitate the lifestyle of the majority. We become like others and become social. This is the social survival instinct of humans. It’s like mimicry in nature. In order to protect themselves, animals also learn to become one with their environment through evolution. That way, it’s safer. ”
“Yes.”
“But humans are much more complicated than animals.” Song Yu looked at the lake in the distance. “Sometimes, we have a kind of expectation. We feel that we’re different from others. Sometimes, we yearn to be more special. We don’t want to be part of the ordinary majority. Therefore, everyone falls into a self-struggle and into contradictions. And to eliminate contradictions, we need to give up. ”
As he spoke, he looked at Le Zhishi. “If you’d rather be part of the crowd, you have to give up the part of yourself that doesn’t want to be ordinary.”
Le Zhishi also looked up at him. His light-colored pupils were very clear, and even his dark brown eyelashes were translucent under the wavering sunlight.
His eyes were filled with hesitation.
Song Yu finished what he had to say and turned his face away. Song Jin called out to him from behind, asking him to help him get a new bait. Song Yu responded and stood up.
He had only taken two steps when Le Zhishi couldn’t help but turn back and call out to him.
“Then what do you think I should choose?”
Behind him, a lonely flower bud swayed uneasily in the warm wind.
Song Yu stopped and turned around. “You have to decide for yourself. I can’t give you much useful advice. Because in my opinion, you have no choice. ”
Le Zhishi frowned in confusion.
“You were born special.” Song Yu raised his eyebrows. “Isn’t that so?”
The wind by the lakeside blew away the wild flowers and plants, and also blew away the lingering mist in the wetland park. The round leaves that covered the entire lake swayed, separated and overlapped, and the lotus pond turned from sporadic flower buds to blooming flowers all over the lake. In the middle of summer at the end of August, everything became clear.
The news of the college entrance examination scores was trending. Even people who didn’t participate in such a big event were very nervous. Only Song Yu was calm and composed. When the scores were checked, it was as if he had been ordered by someone else, as if it had nothing to do with him. Le Zhishi, on the other hand, was anxious for him.
The results were as calm as Song Yu himself. Even the homeroom teacher called to congratulate him, saying that there was no problem with T University, and gave Song Yu a lot of suggestions. After answering the homeroom teacher’s call, he received a call from the school’s leaders. Song Yu was too lazy to deal with them. He said that he was sick and left everything to Lin Rong.
Le Zhishi was a hundred times happier than Song Yu. He was even more excited than when he found out that he could get into Peiya High School’s rocket class. He immediately sent a message to Jiang Yufan to show off and emphasized that his brother only lost two marks in mathematics.
After knowing that his son did well, Song Jin also rushed back from the company, saying that he wanted to celebrate. However, he also knew that Song Yu didn’t like to be ostentatious, so he didn’t treat them to a meal. After discussing with Lin Rong, they decided to celebrate behind closed doors before filling in the application form.
“These are all your favorite dishes. Hurry up and eat.” Lin Rong took out a bottle of red wine and put it in ice cubes. “Today is a happy day. We can also drink a little. Le can’t drink.”
Le Zhishi was very open-minded. “It’s okay. I prefer Sprite.”
Song Jin stood by the table and asked Song Yu while cutting a lamb chop, “Have you been thinking about the school for a long time? You haven’t said anything for so long. It’s about time you told us. ”
Le Zhishi cared more about Song Yu’s answer than anyone else. He thought about what Xia Zhixu said before. They were going to study in Beijing. He wanted to know if Song Yu would also go to such a far place.
Even his homeroom teacher and the leaders of the High School Department advised him to go. Song Yu would probably go.
Lin Rong took out three wine glasses and said jokingly, “If you really go to T University and P University, I still have to treat everyone to a meal. Although I don’t really want to see Sister-in-law and the others, I have no choice. It’s more appropriate for relatives and friends to gather …”
“I’m not going to Beijing.” Song Yu sat on the chair and was very calm. “I want to enroll in W University.”
Song Jin obviously did not expect this. His expression changed slightly because of surprise, but he still showed an understanding attitude. “Sure, if you’ve already decided.”
“W University is also good.” Lin Rong’s attitude changed very quickly. T University and P University were the first schools in the heart of any parent. However, she was very happy to know that her son was willing to stay in the city. In addition, Lin Rong knew Song Yu’s character. She had already prepared herself before the announcement. She did not want to appear too opposed, so she smoothed things over and said, “W University is close to home. I think it’s pretty good to be able to come back whenever you want.”
Le Zhishi was very happy, but he also knew how to observe the situation and did not interrupt too much.
“Have you thought about what major you want to choose?” Song Jin asked.
“Mapping.” Song Yu replied, “I’ve already self-studied a lot this summer. I’ve basically learned the basics. I’ve also grasped some related computer knowledge in advance so that it’ll be easier to get started when I enroll.” He looked at Song Jin and said further, “This major is the best at W University. I’ve also looked into the academic direction in the future.”
Song Yu matured earlier than his peers. As parents, they had already expected this, but Song Jin was more or less surprised. He did not expect Song Yu to have already planned for the future.
What was even more unexpected was that Song Yu wanted to study this major.
Song Jin could not control his expression for a moment, and Le Zhishi saw it all.
“That’s all for later. It’s okay as long as our son has thought it through.” Lin Rong urged Song Jin to sit down. “Let’s celebrate first.”
Le Zhishi asked Song Yu a lot of questions during the meal, such as what mapping was, what he wanted to study, and what he wanted to do in the future. Song Yu gave him relatively concise answers one by one, giving him a general idea.
“No wonder.” Le Zhishi suddenly grabbed Song Yu’s wrist. “The painting you gave me last time.”
Song Yu pulled his hand away. “Hurry up and eat.”
“What painting?” Lin Rong interrupted and teased. “The two of you are getting more and more little secrets now.”
“No, I’ve told you everything.”
“I don’t believe you. Then tell me if there’s a little girl you like.”
Le Zhishi laughed dryly. “There’s really no one.”
Song Jin also laughed. “How can there be a mother like you, gossiping about your child’s puppy love every day?”
“This is normal. If you tell me, I can guide you and give you ideas.”
Song Yu picked up a piece of beef for Lin Rong with his chopsticks. “Let’s eat.”
“Yu is giving me the cold shoulder again!”
“…”
After dinner, Le Zhishi and Song Yu gave Cotton Candy a bath together. The dry Pomeranian was fluffy like a fluffy cloud. When it came into contact with water, it shrank and shrank, and its size was reduced by half. Cotton Candy did not like bathing and always tried to escape. They could only hold each other while bathing.
Halfway through the bath, Le Zhishi was mostly wet. Song Jin appeared at the door of the bathroom downstairs and said gently, “Song Yu, come with me for a while.”
Song Yu was called out, and only Le Zhishi and Cotton Candy were left in the bathroom. Both of them were wet and nervous.
On the other hand, Song Yu was not nervous. He had expected that his father would talk to him, so he was not surprised. Song Jin took a basketball downstairs and took his son to the basketball court in the neighborhood.
The two of them played casually. One of them was on the defense, and the other was on the offense. Song Yu would always remember that when he was young, it was Song Jin who taught him the rules of basketball. He told him that this sport required not only explosive power, but also patience.
“It’s been too long since we played basketball together.” Song Jin stood in the middle of the court and threw a shot. The basketball followed a parabola and landed in the basket. It swayed as it fell in and hit the floor. He shook his head and put his hands on his hips. “I can’t. Dad is old. My strength can’t keep up with yours.”
Song Yu picked up the ball and went to the vending machine at the side of the court. He bought two bottles of sports drinks and handed one to his father. The two of them sat down and faced the empty court. Song Jin sighed. “I still remember when we used to play here. We were facing each other. You were on the defense and wanted to win. You wanted to snatch the ball away from me. In the end, you hit the ball away and it hit your brother on the head.”
Song Jin laughed when he recalled the scene. “Le Zhishi was stunned. He sat on the ground and didn’t get up for a long time. He didn’t cry either. He just stared blankly at the ball that fell on the ground.”
He then looked at Song Yu. “You were very scared at that time, weren’t you?”
Song Yu was silent. It was a tacit admission. The scene at that time was blurred, but he could still remember how nervous he was at that time. Because he was too nervous, he couldn’t remember Le Zhishi’s reaction at that time.
“But he didn’t mind. You ran to him and he said something. He seemed to want you to hug him. If you didn’t hug him, he wouldn’t get up.” Song Jin smiled. “Le Zhishi’s personality is too similar to his father’s. He will definitely be like your Uncle Le when he grows up. Don’t look at him as if he doesn’t know anything and is like a child. He actually knows a lot of things in his heart. He just doesn’t want to think too much. ”
Song Yu knew that his father was right, but he always unconsciously treated Le Zhishi as a child. He knew that he had grown up, but he still treated him as someone who needed to be protected from time to time, as if he could get some pleasure from it. In fact, he didn’t. All he could get was an increasing burden.
“Tell me what you think.” Song Jin touched the bottle in his hand to Song Yu’s. “Why do you want to study basketball? It has something to do with your Uncle Le. ”
Song Yu stared at his father and found that he actually knew everything.
“I think Le Zhishi is also very much like you.” Song Yu suddenly said.
Song Jin knew that he was not changing the topic. He laughed. “He is also very much like your mother. After all, he is also a child that we raised. On the contrary, you seem to have grown up on your own and don’t need us much. ”
Song Yu shook his head and denied his father’s statement. “I need you very much, everyone.” It was rare for him to be honest, but that was all he could say.
A gust of wind blew, the shadows of the trees around the stadium swayed, and the cicadas were clamoring. Song Jin asked, “I actually know that you have liked astronomy and geography since you were a child. It may have something to do with your Uncle Le. When I was a child, I was busy with my business. Yue Yi took you to a lot of places, climbing mountains and watching the sea. ”
As he spoke, he put his arm around Song Yu’s shoulder. “Now that I think about it, my son is really amazing. He ran around the country with him at such a young age and saw a lot of scenery that many adults have never seen.”
In fact, Song Yu was not willing to talk about Yue Yi in his family. To him, Le Yi was like another father figure. Le Yi had brought him to see different worlds when he was young and enlightened.
He would always remember Yue Yi standing at the top of the mountain, shouting at the clouds, hoping that everyone around him would be happy.
He hoped that his children in the future would be happy too.
Song Jin smiled and said, “Sometimes I also wonder what it would be like if he were still alive. He was so chatty and such a good person. If Le was raised by them, would he be better than he is now? ” He paused and said, “So your mother and I are really serious about raising Le. We always feel that Yue Yi is watching us from the sky.”
He looked at Song Yu. “Think about how well he treated you when you were young. If he were still alive, he would have doted on Le so much. ”
Song Yu’s nose turned sour. He was a little reluctant to continue delving into this topic. It was as if he was caught in a dilemma. On one hand, he knew that if this assumption was true, Le Zhishi would be happier. On the other hand, he could not imagine that there was a Le Zhishi in this world. He did not grow up with him and lived a life completely independent of him.
How scary. Song Yu thought.
“When I heard you say today that you want to learn surveying and mapping and that you want to do research in this area in the future, I felt a little conflicted.” Song Jin told him openly, “You might have guessed it.”
“You’re afraid that it’s not safe.” Song Yu knew that he would think so. After all, no matter how advanced modern technology was, it was inevitable for surveying and mapping workers to go out for work. They might face very dangerous terrain tests.
Song Jin nodded. “You know, your Uncle Le’s incident still left a shadow on me.”
He was being too subtle. Song Yu knew that it was not at the level of “a shadow” at all.
“It’s still not the same.” Song Yu explained, “Anyway, there’s still a long time before you can go out for work. It’s too early to talk about this now. Besides, work and hobbies are different, so the level of safety measures is also different.”
How could Song Jin not know this? Today was different from the past. Going out for work was not a common thing anymore.
In the end, he just couldn’t get over it.
He patted Song Yu’s knee and sighed. “Go ahead. Even if dad is worried, I’ll support you.” After saying that, he smiled. “If you can rely on us more in the future, it’ll be even better.”
Song Yu lowered his eyes and nodded.
Song Jin’s cell phone rang. It was a message from his wife urging him to go home. He stood up and stretched. “Let’s go and bring some ice cream back for your mother.”
“Okay.”
“By the way, you probably don’t know yet. Your Uncle Le was the one who set me up with your mother back then.”
Song Yu really didn’t know. No one mentioned it. “Is that so?”
“Your mother has good conditions and is beautiful. There are too many people chasing after her.” Song Jin joked, “Although your dad is also doing well, my family background is still a little bad. It’s much worse than your Uncle Le’s. When I was in college, he knew that I liked your mother. Your mother was also a little interested in me. I was too embarrassed to chase after her. It was all Yue Yi’s instigation. He was busy between the two of us. It wasn’t easy for us to get together. ”
“Without your Uncle Le, maybe there wouldn’t be you.” Under the street lamp, Song Jin’s smile carried a hint of nostalgia. It gradually faded, leaving behind a sigh.
“The big lucky star is gone. It’s good to leave a little lucky star for our family, isn’t it?”
Song Yu looked at the shadows on the ground, long and short passed through the shadows of the trees. He nodded.
“En.”
After buying the ice cream, before going upstairs, Song Jin suddenly received a call from a foreign businessman. He handed the bag from the convenience store to Song Yu and told him to go upstairs first. He would go up after he finished the call.
So Song Yu opened the door alone and handed over the ice cream his father bought for his mother. He refused his mother’s dog food attack and went upstairs alone. Who knew that when he passed by Le Zhishi’s room, the bedroom door suddenly opened, giving him a fright.
Le Zhishi stood at the door of his room. “Song Yu gege, are you okay?”
Song Yu was baffled. “What’s the matter?” After saying that, he was ready to go to his room. Who knew that Le Zhishi pulled him in and closed the door.
“What are you doing?” Before he could figure out the situation, he was pressed against the bedroom door by Le Zhishi. Le Zhishi pressed one hand on Song Yu’s ribs and the other hand grabbed the door handle.
“Did Uncle Song just pull you out for a lecture?” Le Zhishi looked into his eyes, his eyes were still very determined. “He doesn’t seem to support you going to W University.”
“No.”
“If you say no, then there must be.” Le Zhishi thought that he had already figured out the routine. “What did Uncle Song say? Does he want you to go to T University to study?”
Just now, when he was blowing the cotton candy with the hairdryer, he heard Lin Rong talking to her best friend on the phone. It was a pity that Song Yu didn’t want to go to T University.
Everyone said that he could go anywhere, but in fact, they still wanted to persuade Song Yu to consider it more.
The more he thought about it, the more he felt that this was the case. Le Zhishi let go of Song Yu’s hand and pulled open the bedroom door to go out. “I’ll help you talk to Uncle Song. I can persuade him.”
Just as he took a step out, he was grabbed by Song Yu and pulled back. “Come back here.”
Le Zhishi was face to face with him. When he saw the helpless expression on Song Yu’s face, he couldn’t help but ask, “Why do you look like you want to laugh but can’t?”
At this time, he was very sharp. Song Yu let go of his hand. “What are you thinking about?”
“I’m thinking about you.”
Song Yu was stunned.
Le Zhishi’s tone was overly sincere. “At the dinner table, you said that you wanted to major in surveying. I feel that Uncle Song and Aunt Rong weren’t very supportive. If it were me and I saw everyone’s feedback, I would definitely feel defeated. Who doesn’t want their chosen path to be recognized? ”
“So?” Song Yu looked at him.
He looked up with a firm gaze. “I support you. I’ll support you at all times. I don’t want to see you change your decision because of anyone’s opinion. Because you’re very mature. You know what you want, right? ”
As he said that, Le Zhishi grabbed Song Yu’s hand. Although he didn’t know that he had actually made a mistake in his prediction, Song Yu could almost feel his heartbeat as he desperately wanted to express his support.
“Brother, I’ll always be on your side.”
In a trance, Song Yu recalled what happened on the basketball court when he was a child. He finally remembered what Le Zhishi said when he hit him and sat on the ground.
The little boy held back his tears and didn’t cry. He even stretched out his arms and said, “Brother Yu, you can play basketball now. You’re so good.
Can you carry me? ”
