Lovely Allergen - Chap 43
Le Zhishi didn’t know how he did it.
The thought seemed to naturally emerge from his mind, along with the image of Song Yu hugging him. But after burrowing into his arms and hearing Song Yu’s heartbeat, Le Zhishi woke up with a start and felt that he had gone crazy.
Thunder struck again. Le Zhishi, who had wanted to leave, subconsciously grabbed Song Yu’s clothes.
He heard Song Yu’s voice, which was filled with confusion.
“What did you say?”
Sure enough, he didn’t remember.
Le Zhishi felt indignant for no reason. In fact, for them, hugging wasn’t a big deal. When they were young, Song Yu often hugged him. When it rained heavily in elementary school, it was also the child Song Yu who would carry him so that he could curl up on his body like a koala so that he wouldn’t step in the rain.
Although they weren’t allowed to hug each other to sleep when it thundered, Song Yu would take the initiative to hug him when he was sad. Hugs were a silent form of comfort.
Le Zhishi was used to this, but he still remembered Song Yu’s hug in his sleep.
He was the one who was hugged, but the one who took the initiative didn’t remember anything.
If it were someone else next to him, would he also turn over and hug them?
“I’m not lying. That’s what happened.” Le Zhishi repeated stubbornly. He raised his head from his chest and looked into Song Yu’s eyes.
They were so close. Even in the dark, he could faintly see Song Yu’s face and feel that he was frowning.
“I don’t think you’re lying.” Song Yu’s heartbeat was faster than Le Zhishi imagined, and the vibration was magnified in the dark. “I just don’t remember such a thing happening.”
He paused and said, “Sorry, I didn’t have much consciousness when I was asleep.”
Le Zhishi gradually loosened her grip. In the next instant, a white light flashed and she took the initiative to withdraw from Song Yu’s embrace. He suddenly figured it out. He guessed that Song Yu only treated him as a pillow or a quilt on the bed. This was not a big deal in itself.
“You don’t have to apologize. I was just giving an example.”
A hug was a perfect example of how it didn’t mean anything.
Separated by a few centimeters, Le Zhishi confessed his thoughts to Song Yu. “I actually like the feeling of you hugging me. It gives me a sense of security.” As if afraid of being blamed, Le Zhishi quickly admitted, “But this is strange, I know.”
Song Yu was very quiet. When he heard him say this, he touched his shoulder through the quilt.
This action encouraged Le Zhishi. Face to face, he looked into Song Yu’s eyes. “Just for tonight, can you hug me?”
He began to rationalize his request. Just like when he wanted to eat something, he would logically come up with various motives. “The thunder outside doesn’t stop. I can’t sleep. Hugging you will give me a sense of security. If I fall asleep quickly, you won’t have to worry about me. You don’t have to care about me. This is a special situation. I won’t sleep in the same bed as you every day, and it won’t be stormy every night. ”
Sensing that Song Yu didn’t reject him immediately, Le Zhishi moved closer. “You don’t have to move. I’ll just stick to you. I won’t sleep on your arm.”
Song Yu suddenly felt a little funny, but he couldn’t laugh. He couldn’t tell whether it was his wishful thinking that Le Zhishi was childish or that he really couldn’t grow up.
He couldn’t help but reach out and stroke Le Zhishi’s hair. Then he stopped at the side of his face and gently covered his ear.
But no matter what, Song Yu didn’t want to make Le Zhishi more confused and confused, so he repeated it again.
“No matter what example you give, I’m not in love. This is the truth.”
Le Zhishi’s eyes were closed. He looked very obedient and obedient. “Then if you’re in love, will you let me know?”
“Do you want to know?” Song Yu blurted out. After he asked, he regretted it a little.
Le Zhishi didn’t know whether he wanted to or not. He didn’t want to be kept in the dark, but it might not feel good if he knew. He didn’t want his brother to share it with others.
Sharing the same pillow, their breaths mingled in the air. Song Yu waited for Le Zhishi’s answer in this quiet and torturous atmosphere, but Le Zhishi changed the topic.
“My deskmate is a girl. She also has a brother.” Le Zhishi deliberately added, “He’s her biological brother.”
“She complained to me before that ever since her brother fell in love, he wasn’t at home often. In the past, during the holidays, he would take her to Happy Valley or eat a lot of delicious food. But now, he deliberately keeps a distance from her, afraid that his girlfriend will be unhappy.”
As Le Zhishi spoke, as if he wasn’t angry enough, he closed his eyes and took a deep breath. His voice was dull. “This year, her brother got married and moved out to have his own family. After that, it was very difficult for her to see him. I told her that she could go look for him. ” As he spoke, his eyelashes trembled slightly. “But she said that she looked for him. She was at her brother’s new house, like an outsider. Actually, this is very normal. From another perspective, no one wants their lover to share his feelings with others. So my deskmate also said that she just needs to get used to it. ”
Song Yu listened to him quietly and thought of Le Zhishi when he was young. At that time, he was innocent, cute, and serious. He didn’t mind anything. But now that a similar topic had appeared again, he couldn’t use the same tone to describe it.
“We’ll be like this in the future.” Lightning flashed, and Le Zhishi’s face was pale. As the thunder fell, he seemed to come to his senses and denied himself. “If siblings are like this, we’ll only drift further apart in the future. I’m not even your biological brother.”
Song Yu didn’t know if it was an illusion, but he felt that Le Zhishi was about to cry, and his heart clenched. In the end, his resistance to his sinful selfishness lost to his empathy for Le Zhishi. He pulled Le Zhishi into his arms as if he had given up. “No.”
Le Zhishi didn’t believe him. “You said it. People get separated easily. I’m more and more convinced of this now. ” He closed his eyes and rested his chin on Song Yu’s shoulder. He asked as if he was talking to himself, “Why aren’t we biological brothers?”
Song Yu put his hand on his back and hugged him tightly. He was a little helpless and asked Le Zhishi, “Why do you want to be my biological brother?”
“Because social relationships are very fragile.” Le Zhishi wrapped his hand around Song Yu’s waist. “But if we’re biological brothers, even if other relationships are cut off, the blood relationship can’t be cut off.”
Hearing this, Song Yu felt that Le Zhishi was naive and cruel.
He had long understood his own selfishness, so he had never hoped for Le Zhishi to be his biological brother. He had hoped that they had nothing to do with each other and were strangers who met by chance.
It was best not to have any other emotions mixed in this relationship. He would feel less burdened. He wouldn’t think of his parents when he hugged him, and he wouldn’t have to bear other people’s gazes when they held hands.
He also wouldn’t be unable to distinguish Le Zhishi’s feelings for him, and he wouldn’t have too much wishful thinking.
Seeing that Song Yu was silent, Le Zhishi touched his back and said in a relaxed tone, “Am I strange?”
What was strange was not Le Zhishi, but their state.
Song Yu didn’t answer. Le Zhishi said again, “Do you think I’m a pervert?”
This sentence almost made Song Yu, who had fallen into sadness, laugh. He whispered, “No.” And very righteously, he only touched Le Zhishi’s hair. “You were like this when you were a child.”
Le Zhishi asked in confusion and tiredness. Song Yu said, “Maybe it’s because you built an intimate relationship with me when you were young. Generally speaking, it’s an emotional relationship between a child and their parents. There are also siblings. The situation is special. The person you rely on is me, so you have separation anxiety. Actually, it’s normal. Some people are very old and will still be sad to leave their parents. ”
Hearing him speak, Le Zhishi felt very relieved. His thinking ability was obviously reduced under the influence of sleep, and he only grasped the key word separation anxiety. He felt that it made sense. Being separated from Song Yu would really make him anxious, so he hugged Song Yu and rubbed against his chest as if he was acting coquettishly. “Then can you not be too far away from me? Can you come home more often? ”
Song Yu’s body stiffened for a few seconds, and he felt that it wasn’t his at all.
However, he felt that it would be easier for him to fall asleep if he gave Le Zhishi a promise.
“Yes.”
“Really? Even in the future? ”
Hearing that Le Zhishi was happy, Song Yu couldn’t help but nod again.
Le Zhishi buried his head again and prepared to fall asleep. He realized that it was actually very easy for him to get what he wanted from Song Yu. Song Yu looked very difficult to get close to, but he was actually a very easy person to compromise.
After saying goodnight softly, Le Zhishi closed his eyes in peace.
The rain continued to fall without restraint, and it was very noisy. Song Yu’s palm never left Le Zhishi’s ear until the sound of thunder completely disappeared, and Le Zhishi’s breathing became stable. Only then did Song Yu put down his hand and gently rest it on Le Zhishi’s waist.
Late at night was the time when human willpower was at its weakest, and it was easy to make some impulsive choices. Therefore, Song Yu indulged for a second. He lowered his head and kissed Le Zhishi’s head very gently.
Other than the rain outside the window, no one knew about this kiss.
When it was almost dawn, Le Zhishi woke up in a daze. He was very happy to find that Song Yu didn’t leave while he was asleep. The single bed was too cramped, and his waist was a little sore. He closed his eyes and lay in his arms for a while. He felt a little hot, so he turned around and leaned his forehead against the wall.
In his sleep, Song Yu felt the movement of turning over and moved as well. He subconsciously hugged Le Zhishi from behind. His entire back was securely wrapped, and they were nestled together comfortably and safely.
Le Zhishi woke up the second time at 7: 30. It was very bright outside, and he covered his head with the blanket. Then, he remembered Song Yu’s instructions and pulled a bit of the blanket off his head.
In hindsight, he realized that there was someone missing from the bed. Le Zhishi narrowed his eyes and turned over. He lay on his stomach and stretched out an arm to swing it over the railing. He called Song Yu’s name in a muffled and weak voice.
He didn’t know how many times he repeated it, but he finally heard some movement. He raised his head with great effort and opened his eyes. He saw Song Yu walk out of the bathroom and close the door. Le Zhishi rubbed his eyes and lay on Song Yu’s pillow. He said lazily, “Why do you have to take a shower in the morning …”
Song Yu didn’t expect Le Zhishi to wake up so early. He was a little surprised when he saw him, but he quickly recovered. “It’s faster to wake up this way.”
He wanted to let Le Zhishi sleep a little longer and go buy breakfast, but he didn’t expect Le Zhishi to take the initiative to get up. He hadn’t slept over before, so he wasn’t very familiar with climbing down the ladder. Song Yu stood beside him, ready to help him at any time.
However, he didn’t get a chance to help. Le Zhishi landed safely, his bare feet stepping on the tiles. Song Yu ordered him to wear slippers. Le Zhishi quickly stepped on the slippers, stretched, and said like a qualified scholar, “I also want to take a shower.” After that, he went to the bathroom.
Song Yu helplessly glanced at his back, then lowered his head to pick up the watch on the table and put it on his wrist. Then, as if he suddenly thought of something, he looked back at the bathroom and regretted it in advance.
Sure enough, Le Zhishi, who turned on the shower, shouted from inside.
“The water is so cold!”
Even if the temperature was adjusted to a suitable temperature, Le Zhishi was still complaining when he came out. “Don’t tell me you used cold water to take a shower. It’s so cold. You’ll catch a cold.”
Song Yu didn’t explain. If he tried to explain, “Why would a 21-year-old man take a cold shower in the morning?”, it was very likely that he would get himself into trouble.
He didn’t want to create an awkward situation where he couldn’t hide anything, so he changed the topic and urged Le Zhishi to have breakfast with him.
The water downstairs didn’t reach the first floor as Song Yu expected. Instead, it retreated a lot. Le Zhishi was wearing Song Yu’s clothes. He was afraid that he would wet his trousers, so he deliberately chose a pair of shorts that only reached his knees. His white calves were exposed, thin and long.
Le Zhishi drank a bowl of warm eggnog, which was made by mixing eggs with boiled glutinous rice wine. It was sweet and mellow. He also ate a palm-sized noodle soup, which was one of the few foods in the fried breakfast that he wasn’t allergic to. He liked to break open the noodle soup and eat the crispy inner ring, then take a bite of the soft outer ring. It was salty and crispy, and he could taste the rice milk and soybeans.
“Do you have to study at night?” Song Yu handed him a tissue.
At the mention of this, Le Zhishi started to feel dejected. “Yes.”
“Go back after lunch. I’ll drive you.” Song Yu also took a sip of the eggnog. “After this, you can rest.”
Even though Le Zhishi didn’t want to leave, he still nodded. “Plus, Mian Mian won’t be used to being alone at home.”
Song Yu observed Le Zhishi’s expression. He didn’t feel too sad, and he felt that he had indeed grown up.
After lunch, Le Zhishi said that he was a bit sick of the fried food and wanted to buy some drinks. Song Yu had no choice but to take him to the campus supermarket that he went to yesterday. Le Zhishi was a typical Libra. He had serious difficulty making choices, so he stood in front of the freezer for a long time.
Song Yu accompanied him. There were many people walking around, and many girls were glancing in Le Zhishi’s direction. He had an outstanding appearance, and his mixed-race face was different from the others, so it was normal for him to attract attention. However, Song Yu felt uncomfortable.
This was even worse than being surrounded and watched by others.
“This is the one you drank like crazy yesterday, right?” Le Zhishi picked up the cherry-flavored cola and looked back at Song Yu.
Song Yu corrected him. “I didn’t drink like crazy. I drank it because I was thirsty.”
This drink reminded him of the same unpleasant memory.
Le Zhishi looked at the packaging and showed a look of disdain. “Don’t you think this looks like the fever syrup you drank when you were young? It’s exactly the same. “With that, he put it down and picked up a bottle of lemon-flavored soda.” I’ll take this. ”
At the checkout counter, Le Zhishi pulled out a lemon-flavored lollipop and let Song Yu pay the bill together.
After they came out, Song Yu began to remind him, “You can’t casually eat things given by others in school.”
“I didn’t,” Le Zhishi retorted. “I’m not that stupid.”
He had already promised to eat the food that others brought from home.
“Whether it’s fish or desserts, it’s not like we don’t have them at home. There’s no need to eat things given to you by outsiders.”
Le Zhishi felt that his tone was a little strange, but he still agreed. “I know.”
Song Yu finally let it go. The two of them took a walk on campus. In places with a lot of water, Le Zhishi’s feet were soaked in water. He accidentally stepped on something and cried out.
Song Yu looked down and saw that it was a red koi, but his tone was calm.
“Maybe it ran out of the lake after it was flooded.”
However, Le Zhishi didn’t think it was normal. He felt that he was super lucky. He even put his hands together and prayed to the koi he stepped on. “Bless me and let me be admitted to your hometown.”
Song Yu said that he was superstitious, but he began to criticize Song Yu. “When you were taking the college entrance exam, I went to the trouble of praying to the gods and Buddhas for you.”
Song Yu’s usually straight mouth couldn’t help but curve up a little. He naturally took the opportunity to ask him, “Then what do you want for the college entrance exam?”
Hearing him say this, Le Zhishi was stunned. He hadn’t considered this question at all. “I have to think about it.” He quickly said, “First of all …”
Song Yu raised his eyebrows. “How many requests do you have?”
Le Zhishi grabbed his arm to stop him from interrupting. Then he looked up at Song Yu and said, “First of all, I hope you can encourage me to get into W University. I haven’t thought about the rest yet. The deadline will be automatically extended to a week after the college entrance exam. ”
Song Yu lowered his eyes and smiled faintly. It was as if he was condoning and acquiescing to his behavior of changing the rules.
Le Zhishi saved the lollipop he bought for when he left. The holiday was coming to an end and there were many people at the subway station. Song Yu swiped his card and said that he wanted to send him home. However, Le Zhishi didn’t want Song Yu to take the train back alone, so he maturely refused.
The last train left when they got off the elevator. Le Zhishi felt very lucky.
He and Song Yu stood side by side in front of the subway’s safety door. Their shadows were reflected in the glass. He was wearing Song Yu’s clothes from head to toe. He didn’t look any more like Song Yu. However, Le Zhishi now began to learn not to be anxious about a non-existent blood relationship.
Le Zhishi thought about himself at the last parent-teacher conference. He held the lollipop in his mouth and even laughed.
While waiting for the train, Le Zhishi repeated his request from last night. Song Yu patiently agreed and said that he would visit him next weekend.
“Don’t you have anything to say to me?” Le Zhishi looked up into Song Yu’s eyes. He pursed his lips and smiled beautifully.
The sound of the new train gradually approached and the announcer’s voice came from above.
[Dear passengers, the train heading to Tian He Airport is about to arrive …]
Le Zhishi’s attention was attracted by the new train. He leaned forward and turned his head to look at the bright lights on the track. The next second, his wrist was held.
[… Please get off first, pay attention to the gap between the platform and the train.]
The gap shortened and Song Yu’s voice appeared in his ear.
“Le.”
Le Zhishi turned his head and looked at him in confusion.
Song Yu’s expression was very soft and different from usual. “Actually, I wrote some words of encouragement in your math textbook at the last parent-teacher conference.” There was a hint of slyness in his eyes, but his expression was calm. “I know you don’t like math and don’t look back. You really didn’t notice.”
The safety door of the underground door opened, and the long enclosed space opened up. Many people came out in a hurry and headed in different directions. Le Zhishi felt his wrist was released and he was pushed into the narrow space by the crowd.
He realized that Song Yu was very cunning and good at hiding. He could hide a riddle for a long time and then reveal a clue when Le Zhishi could not continue to ask.
Song Yu was very good at torturing people. Le Zhishi could not wait to go back.
The door closed and the announcer moved from outside to inside the train.
[… Please stand firm, next stop …]
Le Zhishi’s phone vibrated and a message popped up.
[Brother Song Yu: Actually, I really hope that you can get into W University.]
[Brother Song Yu: I’ll wait for you here.]
