My Little Poplar - Chap 110
Bai Xinyu came home, in the morning rush hour, it was after nine o’clock, he sighed and went through the door.
His father had gone to the office, his mother was sitting on the sofa, when she saw him coming back, she stared at him and said, “I thought I had heard wrong, what are you doing out at four or five o’clock?”
Bai Xinyu glanced at the maid, she smiled and avoided it. He sat down next to his mother and said: “Last night, Yu Fengcheng came to see me, he had a fever, I took him to the hospital.”
Li Weizhi’s voice rose involuntarily, “Why did he come to see you in the middle of the night.”
Bai Xinyu put his arm around his shoulders and said, “He knows you know about us, so… to see me.”
Li Weizhi pushed his hand away, looked at him seriously and said, “And then what.”
Bai Xinyu looked at her, sighed softly, “Mum, when I retired from the Snowleopard over a year ago, I had already decided to break with him, without that determination, I would never have come back. We had our problems, I thought I was out of the army, that was the end of it but now, after all this time, I find I can’t get him out of my mind. Mum, I’ve told you everything since I was a kid and I don’t want to keep this from you, I just can’t get him out of my mind, there’s no place in my life I’ll ever remember more than the army and likewise, there’s no one I’ll ever feel more strongly about than him.”
Li Weizhi’s eyes were wide, they were filled with anxiety, resentment, disbelief, “Son, why are you so confused, you’re with a man, what do you want people to think of us? Your brother is like this, you are like this too!”
Bai Xinyu took his hand, rested his forehead against hers and said softly: “Mum, this has nothing to do with my brother, if I had been influenced by him, I would have been influenced when I was still with him, I wouldn’t have waited to go to the army and end up like this. Mum, you’ve always loved me, I’ve upset you again about this, I’m sorry, I understand what you’re saying, if I could control myself, I wouldn’t want to like men.”
Li Weizhi held his neck, whimpered and sobbed, repeated: “Why do you make people worry, why do you let me worry.”
Bai Xinyu stroked her back gently, his eyes were moist but his eyes were firm. He had hesitated for too long, he thought time would solve his problems but in the end he found that nothing could be solved if he didn’t face it. No matter how much he avoided it, he couldn’t fool himself, he still loved Yu Fengcheng, he still secretly missed the good times they had in the army, he wished he could go back two years, he would have cherished the experience of fighting alongside Yu Fengcheng, in Botswana, when he felt his life was almost over, he had no idea how much he loved Yu Fengcheng. All his thoughts of Yu Fengcheng exploded at that moment, the sorrow and despair he felt at that time, he still remembers it vividly.
Life is unpredictable, maybe one day he will really disappear from this world, he hopes that when that moment comes, he will not regret it as much as he did when he was drenched in gasoline, so, he wants to walk with Yu Fengcheng again, this time he must walk steadily, not blindly following Yu Fengcheng but but to walk side by side, to decide together the direction of the future.
After consoling his mother, he too was upset and went to the office.
As soon as he arrived at the office, his brother calls him into the office, to have a meeting with him, Li Yu is already waiting in the office as usual, looking at the two of them, Bai Xinyu feels a little envious for the first time.
Jian Suiying said: “You have ‘sad’ written on your face, what’s wrong?”
Bai Xinyu sat down on the sofa and sighed, “My mother… She found out.”
