Subordinate Doting - Chap 154
Ji Tingyu grabbed his hand, looked at each other through the moist air, then stood on tiptoe and kissed him.
There is no ambiguity or emotion, it is more like a mechanical movement.
It was the first time that He Zhuo realized that a kiss could be so bitter.
Although I was kissing his lips, my heart felt as if it was being pulled up in the air, hanging high in the air, and I didn’t know when I would be sentenced to death.
”Go to bed.”
Ji Tingyu spoke softly as he was picked up and pressed on the bed.
She looked coldly at the man moving his body, as if she were made of wood and had no reaction at all.
He Zhuo kissed from his ankles to his neck, and then stopped moving. He put his face in the crook of his shoulder and trembled slightly, just like a person being forced to enjoy the execution meal.
”This is the last time you give it to me, right…”
Tears dripped from his ice blue eyes and slid into the kitten’s mouth.
”I’m leaving,” he murmured.
”Where are you going?”
”Very far away.”
”how long?”
”Seven or eight years, or ten years, until I can get over this and face you calmly, without fear or hatred for you.”
I don’t like you anymore…
”Don’t be like this, Xiaoyu.”
He Zhuo lowered his head and hunched over him like a cornered animal. His wounded hands tightly grasped his shoulders, but no matter how hard he tried, he could no longer hold him back.
”You can break up with me, you can stop loving me… but you can’t make me lose sight of you. I swear I will treat you very well, and I will never let you suffer any injustice again. Give me another chance, okay? Just once… Don’t abandon me like this… Please, don’t leave…”
Tears can easily make a person weak.
The wolf king’s strength and pride were shattered from the inside out. He prostrated himself before him like a wild beast, begging for a chance.
”I’ve never asked you for anything before, just this once, please don’t abandon me, okay…”
Ji Tingyu sobbed and shook his head, unable to bear to see him show such an expression. In his heart, He Zhuo would always be a confident and powerful king, and would never be humble or even humbly bow his head to others.
Heartache and hatred wrapped around the blade, surging and rolling in his heart, scraping every bit of soft flesh. Ji Tingyu was almost dying of pain.
He wanted to forgive, but when he closed his eyes he could only see He Zhuo’s back as he left that day.
He wanted to feel resentful again, but when he opened his eyes he saw his lover lying on him begging.
”I can’t stand it anymore, please let me go.” She raised her hand tremblingly and stroked his cheek, “He Zhuo, there is no other ending for us…”
”Yes, why not? Don’t treat me as He Zhuo anymore. Treat me as Damon, as a brand new person. Let’s talk about it, okay? Let’s clear up the misunderstanding. I can explain it.”
Ji Tingyu’s eyelashes trembled, and his heart seemed to be pried open.
He Zhuo pressed on: “What did you remember? Tell me, okay?”
”I think of a lot of things, very messy. Some can be strung together, but some are just a mess.”
He got out from under He Zhuo, moved naked to the bedside, and lit a cigarette. Under the dim light of the night lamp, he looked just like a small, thin figure.
After thinking for a long time, he said:
”I’ve been having dreams lately, and there are a lot of people in my dreams.”
”They forced me to sit on an electric chair, beat my joints with rattan sticks soaked in salt water, denied me food and sleep, and locked me in a very narrow long box where I could only stay upright for 27 days.”
“Afterwards, I became mentally ill.”
”I saw the dead team members standing in front of me, Rosaline, Monkey, Meng Fan, Cheetah… They wanted me to pay with my life, to plead guilty, and told me that they still had ideals that they had not yet fulfilled.”
”I accepted it, I was relieved, and I returned home.”
”I married someone I’ve loved for a long, long time.”
It was like replaying the past frame by frame. When he talked about getting married, he smiled longingly, as if it was a very beautiful thing for him.
”That was my…most relaxing day.”
”Our wedding was beautiful. He prepared the flowers I liked, held my hand as we walked into the church, and stood in front of the sculpture like an angel. I thought I was saved, and I thought he would help me, but… he also bullied me…”
The hand holding the cigarette paused, the smile on Ji Tingyu’s face disappeared, and he looked at a dot in the void in a trance.
”He ignored me, despised me, and humiliated me.”
”My legs are not in good condition. If I walk too fast, I will limp, which is ugly. I am not pretty either, I look like a crazy clown.”
”I don’t want to go out, but he wants me to accompany him to the dance, but how can I go?” Ji Tingyu shrugged and exhaled a puff of smoke: “I can’t dance.”
”Stop talking.” He Zhuo couldn’t stand it anymore. He rushed over from the bed to him, frantically put out his hands to cover his mouth, wiped his tears, and tried to divert his attention by all means.
”Stop talking about it, Xiaoyu. Stop reminiscing about it and forget about it, okay? Don’t think about it.”
”Didn’t you ask me what I remembered?” Ji Tingyu asked him back, with an innocent and cruel expression on his face.
”Do you want to know what happened that night?”
He Zhuo shook his head desperately, he was almost driven crazy by him.
Ji Tingyu said to himself: “You brought me to the dance, and then left me in a corner without paying any attention to me, and just chatted with other bosses. I didn’t know what I could do, so I ran to the small flower hall and bumped into someone. The person pushed me down, and I couldn’t get up. I collapsed there. He called many of his companions over, gathered in a circle, and laughed at me for being a cripple. Where were you at that time?”
Ji Tingyu lowered his head, looked into He Zhuo’s eyes and told him:
”You were in the middle of the crowd, dancing with a tall, skinny omega in your arms. You already had a partner, so why did you ask me to make a fool of myself?”
”I’m sorry… I didn’t know you were in trouble…”
He Zhuo collapsed, his heart was pierced and broken.
