Subordinate Doting - Chap 168
As for what you said I did for you, it was not only for you, but also for myself. I will admit the mistakes I made, and I will naturally redeem the tragedy I caused. I want you, so I have to pay the price. This is the fairest deal. I don’t feel like I’m sacrificing myself, and you shouldn’t think so either.”
He took Ji Tingyu’s hand wrapped in gauze and gently pressed it against his cheek. His curved lips were restrained and sexy: “I want you to love me just because you love me, not because of anything I have done for you. Do you love me?”
”Yeah, yeah, I love you, I love you very much. I will say I love you a hundred times every day in the future.” Ji Tingyu wanted to rub He Zhuo into his heart and let him see that it had been filled up by him.
”Then kiss me?”
The kitten immediately raised its head, but still didn’t know how to kiss someone so blankly. It could only kiss the tip of the nose, the cheeks, the eyes, and then the mouth like a woodpecker gnawing on wood.
The last time, I didn’t find the right angle and pressed my lips against his, making a loud empty sound, which was almost heard by the people next door.
Everyone in Ji Tingyu was dumbfounded, staring blankly with eyes wide open: “Why is it so loud…”
He Zhuo laughed, still wanting him, “Stick out your tongue for me.”
Ji Tingyu was so obedient that he was given whatever he wanted.
The two bodies were rubbing against each other naked under the quilt. As they rubbed against each other, they became aroused. He Zhuo turned him over and wanted to fuck him. Ji Tingyu shrank back with a red face: “Brother, wait a minute…”
”What are you waiting for?” He was breathing heavily. He couldn’t wait any longer and desperately wanted to do something to confirm that Ji Tingyu still belonged to him.
”Be good, little Mimi, and let me in.”
”But Rosalin will come to deliver the meal soon, and you won’t be able to finish it…”
He Zhuo froze and fell on him as if he had a heart attack.
Suddenly asked: “Do I bother you?”
”What?”
”Arrogant, powerful, irritable, and lustful.”
He repeated what Ji Tingyu had said verbatim.
The cat shook his head repeatedly: “You know I’m lying.”
”It’s okay.” He Zhuo lay down, pulled him into his arms and kissed his forehead, not letting him look at his face: “You don’t have to deny it, I know my character, I am indeed like this.”
”Not only that, I am also paranoid, stubborn, and unscrupulous.”
”I will get the person I want no matter what. Whatever I choose, it must be mine.” A trace of desolation flashed in his eyes, and he said softly, “Because that’s all I want…”
”Why do you have to have me?” Ji Tingyu’s voice was a little hoarse, as if he didn’t understand: “When I saw your past life, I kept thinking, we only spent a week together, is it really worth it?”
He Zhuo laughed, as if he had asked a stupid question.
”Because you are the first person who is willing to love me.”
”You rode a horse to pick up Hada for me in a competition and won first place. You smiled at me while sitting on the horse and said in front of everyone that you wanted to give me your love. That was the happiest moment of my previous life.”
He paused and looked at the blinding white above his head, as if he was ready to cut himself open. His tone was as if he was telling a story that had nothing to do with him.
”On the day we separated, you told me to live my own life, but I didn’t know what my life would be like. In my two lives, apart from you, I have never encountered any good things.”
”I was just a 2S-level wolf.”
Ji Tingyu looked at him in disbelief, a terrible guess flashed through his mind: “Then you…”
”It’s just what you think.” He Zhuo nodded.
”I am not huge in size, nor do I have the desires of an animal. I am not murderous, violent, or manic. But they were not satisfied. They despised my qualifications and the fact that I brought shame to the family, so they used various methods to transform me.”
Ji Tingyu froze in shock and looked at him with heartache.
He Zhuo, however, seemed to have let it go long ago, and was completely calm and composed.
”I was only four years old at the time and didn’t understand anything. I thought I was being punished by my father and grandfather because I was disobedient. I had to take so many injections every day, and my skin was cut open and my bones were torn out of my body.”
”But I didn’t hate them. I thought that as long as I got stronger, they would love me like a normal father and grandfather, hug me, lift me up high and let me sit on their necks.”
”But no, the first experiment failed.”
Ji Tingyu’s heart trembled. Seeing his lips tremble several times, he finally said, “They discussed in front of me how to deal with this waste and give birth to another child. You see, I have been despised since I was a child.”
My grandfather and father used him for a transformation experiment, and when it failed, they wanted to destroy him and have another one.
His mother tried her best to rescue him, loved him, educated him, and accompanied him. He Zhuo thought she really loved him.
But she let something slip before she died. In the five minutes when she was unconscious before her death, she revealed the secret she had hidden all her life.
”My father got her in an ignominious way and killed her first love. She hated my father all her life and hated me, a product of his blood. But because I had the same eye color as her first love, she forced herself to raise me. Until her death, she wanted me to clearly know that she didn’t love me.”
There was no trace of sadness in He Zhuo’s tone, but his eyes were downcast. Ji Tingyu wanted to hug him, but he gently stopped her.
”And then there’s you, my…first love?”
He rubbed the cat’s ears and told the story of how the two of them started.
”That night when we fell in love at first sight on the snowy mountain and fell in love with each other, I told you a lot. Do you remember?”
Ji Tingyu nodded sadly: “You said that you have many physical defects, low self-esteem, sensitivity, violence and lust, and you are prone to losing control when you enter a manic phase. Let me seriously consider whether I can accept such a person.”
But he didn’t have to take this route.
He Zhuo narrowed his eyes, and Ji Tingyu’s words that day were still vivid in his mind: “Tell me you don’t mind.”
