Sweet Desire! The Cold Lord God, Who Can Tease, Coax, and Act Coquettish. - Chap 1109
【Beisijia Diary】
April 18
Half a year has passed since my brother rescued me from Bai Mingpeng.
My brother is busy taking care of me every day, cooking for me in different ways and trying to make me happy, and he was even terminated by his agency for this.
Now, I am just an acting instructor in an ordinary institution.
From a movie star to a mentor, from an annual salary of tens of millions to a salary of hundreds of thousands, he fell from the altar and was ridiculed by thousands of people.
It’s all because of me.
I have felt upset more than once about the news that slandered him online, and even argued with those trolls.
I tried desperately to tell them that Shang Yijue was not a bad artist, he was the best neighbor brother in the world.
But… it’s of no use, because I’m still an 18th-tier celebrity and few people will listen to me.
June 29
I was discharged from the hospital. My brother said that my mental state was still unstable, but I felt that if I continued the treatment, it would be just like that.
It’s a waste of money and it makes my family worry.
I went to the institution where Shang Yijue worked to sign up to learn vocal music.
I want to be closer to him, and I also want to improve myself and stand in front of others.
Maybe when I have a lot of influence, I can clarify a lot of things for him.
October 31
Recently, many students have said that Teacher Shang looks at them differently, as if there is always some kind of passionate love in his eyes.
I actually knew about this several months ago, before it even happened.
I have thought about confessing to him more than once.
But I didn’t have the courage.
Perhaps it was because I saw him when I was kidnapped by Bai Mingpeng, and I always had an inexplicable fear of him psychologically.
But the day after tomorrow is his birthday, so I’m still planning to give him a surprise.
November 2
It’s so useless. I just wanted to kiss my brother secretly to test his attitude.
But I vomited so much that my stomach almost perforated and I had to be hospitalized again. I don’t know what my brother will think after he is discharged from the hospital.
How can I apologize to him?
November 20
I was finally discharged from the hospital, but my brother was gone.
He just left me a WeChat message saying that he had to go on a business trip and asked me to take good care of myself.
December 20
A month passed and my brother didn’t come back.
February 20
Three months passed and my brother didn’t come back.
May 20
I became very popular because of one of my albums and I am about to become a first or second tier singer.
But… my brother still hasn’t come back.
It has been half a year and he seems to have disappeared. All the messages I sent were read but not replied to.
Am I wrong? If I hadn’t vomited and had a stomach problem and been hospitalized, my brother wouldn’t have passed away…
July 3
Director Xia found me and said that the production team of “Teasing You” wanted to invite me to participate in a dating variety show with Shang Yijue.
At that time, I was super surprised.
They told me Shang Yijue’s address and said that the program crew couldn’t hire him, so they asked me to go and invite him.
I bought an overnight high-speed rail ticket and found his door, but didn’t knock.
I squatted outside the door all night, thinking about what I should say when I saw him.
Apologize or… pretend you know nothing?
But as I was thinking, daybreak came.
He opened the door and seemed to be going to throw away the trash, but the moment he saw me, he froze.
Her eyes turned red and she said, “Sijia, why didn’t you tell me you were coming?”
“I’m afraid…of disturbing your sleep.” I said proudly.
But I saw him quickly open the door and told me to come in.
But he didn’t touch me again.
Not even a simple hand holding or shoulder pinching.
So brother…is it really because of me that you left?
For a person like me, you gave up your future, left your hometown, and bore the infamy. Is it really… worth it?
