The Husky and His White Cat Shizun - Chap 130
Chu Wanning’s breathing was a bit heavy, his throat a bit dry.
He was not willing to admit defeat like this, so he made things difficult for him. He suppressed the fire in his heart and still asked lightly, “Forever?”
“Forever.”
“… I may walk very quickly and not care about you.”
“It doesn’t matter, I’ll chase.”
“I may also stand and not want to walk.”
“I’ll stand with Shizun.”
Chu Wanning was very anxious by his unthinking answer. He flicked his sleeve and said, “Then what if I can’t walk?”
“I’ll carry you.”
Chu Wanning, “… …”
Mo Ran was stunned for a moment. He felt that it was a bit disrespectful and abrupt, so he opened his eyes wide and waved his hand anxiously, “I’ll carry you.”
Chu Wanning’s heart beat faster and faster. He had to do all he could to suppress his desire to help this man up and touch him. This restlessness made him frown. He looked very anxious and a bit angry, “Who wants you to carry me.”
Mo Ran opened his mouth, but did not know what to say.
His Shizun was so hard to please. He couldn’t carry her on his back or hug her. He couldn’t carry her, let alone drag her. He was very stupid. He didn’t know how to make Chu Wanning happy.
So he lowered his head in disappointment, like a dog abandoned.
He whispered, “Then I won’t walk.”
“… …”
“If you want to get wet, I’ll accompany you.”
Chu Wanning was forced to do nothing by this tight entanglement. He was a person who was used to being independent, so he almost said without thinking, “I don’t want you to accompany me.”
Mo Ran finally did not speak. From Chu Wanning’s angle, he could only see his broad forehead, dark eyebrows, and two rows of long eyelashes. They hung down like a curtain of fog, slightly trembling, as if there was a wind blowing the curtain up and down.
“Shizun …” Chu Wanning anxiously refused, causing Mo Ran to misunderstand his intentions. Mo Ran said, “Are you still angry with me …”
Chu Wanning was still immersed in the throbbing of his heart and couldn’t get rid of it, so he didn’t hear clearly. He only said, “What?”
“When I was in the Ghost Realm, I told Master that I was sorry many times, but I knew that it wasn’t enough. For the past five years, I have spent every moment in guilt. I know that I owe you. ”
Chu Wanning: “…”
“I also want to do better. At least when I stand in front of you, I don’t feel that I’m too dirty, and I don’t feel that I can’t hold my head up. But I … I can’t catch up to you … Almost every day when I wake up, I’m worried that this isn’t a dream. I’m worried that when I wake up, you won’t be here anymore. The words you said to me when you saved me in the Jincheng Pool kept ringing in my ears. You said that the dream was too good to be real, so I … I was very sad … ”
Mo Ran’s voice was somewhat hoarse.
He still had some things to say, but he didn’t want to. He felt that he didn’t have the face to continue talking about this in front of Chu Wanning. How could he be so heartless as to let Chu Wanning know about the various things that happened in the past five years?
He … sometimes, when he was alone in the snow valley, he couldn’t tell the time apart, and he couldn’t tell where he was. At that time, he would take a needle and stab himself. It was very painful, but when the pain was enough, he knew that his divine sense was still awake and that he was still in this world.
He knew that all this wasn’t a dream he had in his previous life. When he woke up, he wouldn’t see the peak of life and death where things were still the same but people had changed. He wouldn’t see Xue Meng with eyes full of hatred. He wouldn’t see the Confucian Wind Sect razed to the ground. He wouldn’t see Chu Wanning lying in the Red Lotus Pavilion, just like when he was alive.
Just like when he was alive. Just like when he was alive.
What other four words could be more painful than this?
Strangely enough, when he found out that Chu Wanning had died in order to save him, when he went down to the Ghost Realm to save him, although his heart was in pain, he had never felt such uncontrollable despair.
But as the floating life faded away, as time gradually passed.
As the day of Chu Wanning’s awakening approached, Mo Ran felt more and more pain, more and more like his heart was being cut by a knife.
It seemed that the time spent alone gave him more time to think. It also seemed that in the days when he wasn’t with Chu Wanning, he was so hysterical, trying his best to imitate that person, hating that he couldn’t tear himself to pieces and replace himself with Chu Wanning’s reflection.
In short, many things that he didn’t pay attention to, didn’t think deeply about, and gradually forgot, all came back to his mind. Those past events were like a wet beach exposed after the tide had receded. He stood alone on the beach, the waves had died out.
Everything was so clear.
He remembered his previous life, where the smoke of war was everywhere, and there was no way out.
Xue Meng had come to the Peak of Life and Death. In the Magus Mountain Palace, which had been completely destroyed, Xue Meng had questioned him word by word with tears in her eyes.
Why did he treat his master like this?
Xue Meng once forced him, forced him to turn back before he died — —
He said, Mo Ran.
Think carefully, put down your ferocious hatred. Turn back and take a look.
He once took you to practice martial arts, and protected you thoroughly.
He once taught you to read, write poems and paint.
He once learned to cook for you, clumsily, and his hands were full of injuries.
He once … … he once waited for you to come back day and night, alone from dark … … to dawn … …
At that time, Mo Ran didn’t listen, and he refused to look.
Now, he walked to the shore of fate, and the tide was low. He lowered his head and looked at his feet, and saw a lost heart. That heart used to treat him so well, it was so sincere that it was about to die, and its blood was about to dry up.
It was he who was headstrong and didn’t see it, and he stepped on it.
Just like that, he stepped on Chu Wanning’s heart!
Every time Mo Ran thought of this, he felt cold all over, and his flesh was mangled. What did he do … … what did he do? Two lifetimes, sixteen years, when did he ever repay Chu Wanning? When had there ever been a day when he put Chu Wanning first in his heart?!
Bastard!!!
Was he a heart of wood and stone? Why didn’t he feel pain?!
In these five years, how many times did he see Chu Wanning return in white in his dreams, and his face was the same as before?
When he woke up, his pillow was wet. He said every day, Chu Wanning, Master, I’m sorry, it’s my fault, it’s my fault.
He said it every day, but it didn’t reduce his guilt in the slightest.
Later, when he saw the fragrance of spring, he would think of him. When he saw the falling snow in winter, he would also think of him.
Later, every morning was golden, just like Chu Wanning’s soul. Every night was black, just like Chu Wanning’s eyes. Later, every wisp of moonlight was like his sleeves brushing the snow, every rising sun was like the warmth in his eyes. Later, he saw Chu Wanning’s figure in the red clouds at the edge of the sky, in the blue morning light, in the heroic sea of clouds.
He was everywhere.
Because of this pain and longing, his hatred for his lowly birth gradually faded away, and his fanatical infatuation with Shi Mei faded away.
One day, he saw a snow-covered winter jasmine poking out of a crack in the wall outside the snowy valley.
He looked at it calmly for a while, and just thought as usual. He thought, ah, this flower is so beautiful, if Master saw it, he would definitely like it.
He just faintly thought, thinking of the simplest, most casual thing.
When Chu Wanning died, it didn’t drive him crazy, but the grief that crushed him suddenly roared and rushed to him. A dike of a thousand li could be destroyed by an ant’s nest, and he suddenly collapsed.
He broke down and cried bitterly. The deep valley was vast, and the wild geese were frightened and cold. His voice was so hoarse and ugly, and he was ashamed to cry for that golden flower that grew proudly in the snow.
Five years.
He had never forgiven himself.
“Master … I’m sorry … I did my best to rush back today, and I also brought a gift for you. I don’t want to see you empty-handed when I see you …” That forced calmness finally dissipated, that forced calmness finally collapsed.
Mo Ran knelt in front of Chu Wanning. He finally lost his composure. Now, only in front of Chu Wanning would he lose his composure.
“I … am still very stupid. After you came back to life, the first thing I promised you, I couldn’t do it. It’s my fault. ”
Seeing him like this, Chu Wanning couldn’t bear to see him like this. He had always liked Mo Ran, and now that they were reunited after such a long time, how could he bear to let him suffer like this?
But when he heard him say this, he hesitated and asked, “Why did you come late today?”
“Originally … I could still make it. But at Colored Butterfly Town, I encountered some demons, I … ”
“You were delayed in killing the demons?”
“I’m sorry.” Mo Ran lowered his head, “Not only was it delayed, even the gift I prepared for Master was almost destroyed … I was also covered in dirty blood, so I hurriedly came to take a bath, but in the end …”
Chu Wanning’s heart softened.
Grandmaster Mo.
This Mo Ran, was indeed different from five years ago.
Five years ago, he was still selfish, but now, he knew what was important and what was not. Chu Wanning was not a person who only thought about romance. If Mo Ran saw the Colored Butterfly Town and didn’t care about the demons, he would be angry. But now, this man who was obediently kneeling in front of him, clumsily asking for forgiveness, he felt that this man was so stupid that it was somewhat cute.
Chu Wanning slowly stepped forward, a warm feeling surging in her heart. She reached out her hand and was about to help Mo Ran up when she suddenly heard Mo Ran say in a muffled voice, “Shizun, please don’t expel me from the sect.”
This time, it was Chu Wanning’s turn to be stunned. He didn’t know that Mo Ran was so guilty and uneasy, so he didn’t expect Mo Ran to say this. He hesitated, “Why …”
“Even if it’s raining, I accompany you, chase you, guard you, carry you, hug you, you don’t want it, you’re not satisfied. I beg you, don’t expel me.”
Mo Ran finally raised his face. Chu Wanning’s heart trembled.
He saw that this man’s eyes were slightly red, and there was a mist in them.
Chu Wanning was always decisive, but at this time, he suddenly didn’t know what to do. He was at a loss, “You … you’re twenty-two this year, why are you still …”
Pausing, he sighed and said, “Get up first.”
Mo Ran suddenly raised his arm, fiercely rubbed his eyes, and stubbornly said, “If Master doesn’t want me, I won’t get up.”
… he was still a hooligan!
Chu Wanning had a headache. He pursed his lips, grabbed his wrist, and pulled him up.
Under the touch of his fingertips, he only felt that the muscles were strong, and the flesh was hot. This young and strong body was no longer the same as when he was a teenager. When Chu Wanning touched him, he suddenly felt a throbbing in his chest. He was stunned, and suddenly let go of his hand.
Fortunately, Mo Ran was still upset, and didn’t notice Chu Wanning’s abnormality. But Chu Wanning stared at his hand in disbelief for a while, and his heart was in a perilous situation.
“What … happened to me?”
“Could it be that after five years of deep sleep, I’ve thrown my pure heart and few desires to the back of my mind?”
When he raised his eyes again, he looked at Mo Ran in astonishment.
Or was it that this person in front of him had changed so much that he couldn’t control himself anymore?
Mo Ran bit his lip for a while, as if he was determined to stay stubborn, the kind that couldn’t be driven away, “Please don’t drive me away, Master.”
As he said this, he wanted to kneel again.
How could Chu Wanning dare to help him up again? He hurriedly stopped him, “If you kneel again! I really don’t want you anymore! ”
“…” Mo Ran was stunned for a moment. He blinked his eyes, and suddenly understood. His eyes suddenly lit up, “Master, you don’t blame me … you don’t get angry at me because I didn’t keep my promise today? You … ”
Chu Wanning said angrily, “When have I ever been so narrow-minded?”
Mo Ran was excited, and couldn’t help but want to hug him. This scared Chu Wanning. He took a step back, and his sword-like eyebrows were raised in anger, “What are you doing? Where are your manners? ”
“Ah.” Mo Ran suddenly realized that he had lost his manners, and hurriedly said, “I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I forgot my manners.”
Chu Wanning’s ears were red, and he said coldly, “You’re already in your twenties, but you’re still so unruly.”
Mo Ran’s ears were also red, and he muttered, “It’s my fault.”
“It’s my fault” seemed to have become his catchphrase. When Chu Wanning heard this, he was a little angry, a little amused, a little sympathetic, and a little warm.
He raised the curtain of his eyelashes, and his gaze rested on the corners of his eyes, and then he faintly glanced at Mo Ran again.
This time, he saw a handsome, tall, and straight man. His wheat-colored face was slightly red, and he didn’t know if it was because the steam from the hot spring had not dissipated, or if it was for some other reason. The moisture in the surroundings seemed to have been evaporated by his sunlight, and it made his eyes even darker and brighter, shining brightly.
Dong.
Chu Wanning felt his heart tremble, and his fingertips seemed to have the same burning temperature when he touched Mo Ran just now. He suddenly swallowed dryly, and didn’t dare to look at Mo Ran again. He cursed, “Idiot.” Then he suddenly turned and left.
The barrier above his head didn’t change, and Mo Ran really did as he promised, and chased after him.
Chu Wanning lowered his eyelids, and didn’t dare to look back. He knew that his eyes were filled with love and desire that couldn’t be hidden anymore, and it was as hot as the fire on his fingertips, and couldn’t be contained.
He had finally destroyed him.
Five years ago, Mo Ran couldn’t do it, but five years later, this man had done it. He had won his heart, and sunk him into the sea of desire.
From now on, Chu Wanning was no more than a mortal, a body of flesh and blood, captivated by lust, living in a net, unable to escape.
