The Husky and His White Cat Shizun - Chap 208
Mo Ran wanted to speak a few times, but all he could do was move his lips. His temples were throbbing with pain. His blood was rushing madly, but he felt that his blood was no longer hot. Instead, it was cold and icy. While he was struggling, even his fingertips were getting cold.
“Master.”
“…”
“Actually… I…” He finally opened his mouth. Once he opened his mouth, he only said three or four words before he became confused and broke down again.
Why did he have to say it?
Those were all matters of his previous life. He had already committed suicide in the Hall of Mount Wu. He had died long ago. He only had the memories of his previous life… why did he have to say it?
Saying it out loud satisfied his conscience, but was it really the right choice?
How good was it now? Xue Meng would smile at him, Chu Wanning was his, his uncle and auntie were still alive, and Shi Mei was still alive… nothing was more important than these. Even if he had to live with guilt for the rest of his life and be a fugitive for the rest of his life, he did not want to destroy everything in front of him with his own hands.
But he also felt that this was something he should say.
Now that he could confirm that the person behind this must have experienced a rebirth, only he could remind everyone and let everyone be prepared. This was his chance to atone for his sins. Perhaps the heavens wanted him to die once, but he still kept his memories, so that at this moment, there would be someone who could stand up and stop this storm.
Even if he had to pay with his life.
Mo Ran closed his eyes. He was trembling, and his eyelashes were slightly wet.
He was not afraid of death. He was someone who had already died once. But in this world, there were things more terrifying than death. He had suffered enough in his previous life. In order to escape from those things, he chose to commit suicide. These years, especially after Chu Wanning died in this life, he had been running with all his might, trying to shake off the invisible monster behind him. But now, he was forced into a dead end.
Its sharp claws were hanging over his throat.
Betrayed by all, cursed for all eternity.
He could not escape… he could not escape…
Mo Ran cried. Silently, but his tears flowed down and fell to the ground.
He tried to suppress the trembling in his voice. He said, “I’m sorry… I… I don’t know how to say it… I actually… I…”
Suddenly, a pair of strong and well-proportioned arms wrapped around him from behind.
Mo Ran suddenly opened his eyes. He realized that Chu Wanning had walked over and hugged him from behind.
“If you don’t want to say it, then don’t.” Chu Wanning’s voice came from behind his shoulder. “Everyone has their own secrets … and they all make mistakes.”
Mo Ran was stunned.
Chu Wanning actually understood.
He already understood … That’s right, how could Chu Wanning not see through it? He had seen Mo Ran apologetically admit his mistakes too many times, whether it was sincere, false, unwilling, or sincere.
Although he didn’t know what mistake Mo Ran had committed, he knew that Mo Ran must have wanted to confess to something in the past that he didn’t want to talk about.
“Master …”
“If that matter makes you very uneasy and you want to tell me, then say it. I’m here to listen.” Chu Wanning said, “But if you feel that it’s very painful to say it, then if you don’t speak, I won’t continue to ask. … I know that you won’t do the same thing again. ”
Mo Ran felt like a knife was being twisted in his heart.
He shook his head slightly. It’s not…
It’s not as simple as you think… it’s far from that simple…
I didn’t pluck flowers that shouldn’t be plucked. I killed people. Blood flowed like a pestle and thousands of miles of dried bones. I destroyed more than half of the cultivation world. I destroyed you.
He broke down once again.
I destroyed you, Chu Wanning!
Why did you comfort an executioner… why did you comfort a person who stabbed a knife into his own heart? Why did you beg me to let myself go before you died?
Why didn’t you kill me back then…
He was trembling. He couldn’t stop trembling. Chu Wanning was in a daze. Suddenly, he felt a warm drop of water fall on the back of his hand. He murmured in a low voice, “Mo Ran…”
“I want to say it out loud.”
“Then say it out loud.”
Mo Ran was very confused. He shook his head and said again, “I… I don’t know how to say it…”
He had been controlling his voice very well. It was only now that he finally choked up.
“Really… I really don’t know how to say it…”
“Then don’t say it.” Chu Wanning let go of him and pulled him, making him turn around. In the dark night, he stroked his cheeks. Mo Ran was dodging, but Chu Wanning still firmly touched him and held his face. It was moist. It was tears that had been flowing for a long time.
Chu Wanning said, “Don’t say it out loud.”
“I…”
Suddenly, the begonia fragrance was so close. Chu Wanning kissed him. This seemed to be the first time he took the initiative to kiss Mo Ran. He was shaky and clumsy. He pressed his lips against Mo Ran’s, bit by bit. He pried open his bitter mouth and slid his tongue in, stirring and twining.
Chaos, restlessness, madness.
Mo Ran also did not know why. Perhaps it was because love was a harbor to escape all pain. Perhaps it was because humans were ultimately the same as beasts. During sex, everything could be thrown to the back of one’s mind. In this indulgence of desire, only joy was real.
To give the helpless and pity.
To give the desperate and desperate people a moment of respite.
No one spoke again. As the kiss lingered, Chu Wanning felt Mo Ran’s desire for him. He was pushing against him through the clothes. He hesitated for a moment and reached out to touch him. But Mo Ran held his fingers and intertwined their fingers. “This is enough.”
He held him in his arms. Only the person in front of him could suppress his pain.
Could purify his soul.
“You don’t have to do anything else. This is enough…”
Chu Wanning raised his hand and touched his face. For no reason, he felt very distressed. “How could you be so foolish?”
Mo Ran then held his other hand. Like this, the two hands were tightly connected. He pressed against Chu Wanning’s forehead. “If I had been so foolish earlier, that would have been good.”
Chu Wanning saw that he could not persuade him. He also did not know how to say softer words. He could only clumsily rub his cheeks, the tip of his nose, and finally gently suck on his lips.
When he did this, the tips of his ears were clearly red, but he tried his best to appear very calm and unhurried. He took the initiative to kiss Mo Ran. He took the initiative to hug him. He did some things that he was not used to doing in the past.
“Shizun…” Mo Ran dodged, but his breathing gradually became faster under his kiss. “Don’t… don’t be like this.”
“It’s always been you doing these things.” Chu Wanning broke free from his hands and hugged his neck. “Today, you listen to me.”
“Shizun…”
Chu Wanning looked at his dog-like warm and moist eyes. He patted the back of his head and actually comforted him with a gentleness that he had never shown before. “Good boy.”
There was no light, so they kissed and caressed by the wall. The kiss went from gentle to intense, from intense to thirsty, from thirsty to lingering, full of male desire and urgency.
“Shizun… Wanning…”
Mo Ran kept calling his name. There was pity, love, infatuation, and guilt.
As long as Chu Wanning gave him the slightest bit of love, it would be the strongest aphrodisiac in the world.
He finally stopped thinking about it. He pressed Chu Wanning against the wall and pressed against him. He fiercely kissed him and rubbed him. In the end, the two of them were panting, their hearts beating violently. He went crazy. The corners of his eyes were red. Chu Wanning frowned as he kissed him. “The light…”
“Isn’t it already extinguished?”
He continued to kiss him, kissing his earlobes and neck. He heard Chu Wanning resist the desire to moan and whisper in his ear, “No, light it up…”
Mo Ran was stunned.
Chu Wanning said, “I want to look at you.”
The light was on.
The darkness was gone.
Chu Wanning’s phoenix eyes were bright, clear, stubborn, and firm. They were covered with a layer of desire. His cheeks seemed to be frosty, but his ears were red.
He said, “I want to look at you.”
Mo Ran suddenly felt his heart hurt so much that he was about to die. How could his dirty, broken, and cold heart continue to live under such eyes?
He hugged him, kissed him, and pressed Chu Wanning’s hand to his chest, where his heart was beating.
He said, “Remember this position.”
“…”
“If there is a day, I can’t be forgiven.” Mo Ran murmured in a low voice. The tip of his nose rubbed against Chu Wanning’s. “Kill me with your own hands. From here.”
Chu Wanning was shocked. He stared at him in disbelief. “Do you know what you are saying?”
Mo Ran smiled. His smile had the handsomeness and sincerity of Grandmaster Mo, but also the wickedness and madness of the Emperor Ta.
“My spiritual core was formed because of you. My heart is also yours. If there is a day when I have to die, these two things should belong to you. Only then can I… ”
He didn’t continue.
The shock and fear that had never appeared in Chu Wanning’s eyes made him unable to continue.
Mo Ran finally lowered his eyes and said with a bitter smile, “I’m just teasing you. I’m just saying this to tell you… ”
He hugged him tightly.
He didn’t know how many more chances like this would have.
“Wanning…”
I love you, I want you, I can’t leave you.
There were many things he wanted to tell him, but just like in his previous life, he didn’t know where to start.
Chu Wanning was still in a daze. He didn’t know how big of a mistake a person had to make to be able to say something like this.
But when Mo Ran kissed him, his consciousness fell apart in the chaos. He wasn’t a person with such weak willpower. Maybe this shouldn’t be blamed on Mo Ran’s kiss. It was just that he didn’t want to think too deeply about it.
There was despair in the passion, like boiling oil dripping into a flame.
Later on, the entanglement was primitive and crazy. Before they reached the bed, most of their clothes had been taken off. Chu Wanning was pressed down on the bed by Mo Ran. Between the pillows, there was no shyness and awkwardness like the first time. A man’s demand for desire was simple and rough.
His underwear was quickly undone. Mo Ran buried his head and kissed him, sucking on him. Sometimes he raised his eyes to look at Chu Wanning under the light. His eyes were unfocused, and he was panting slightly with his neck raised.
How many more times like this would happen?
Twice? Once?
He was about to go to Jiao Mountain. Perhaps he would be able to see the person behind the scenes. If that person really used the exquisite chess game, the only one who could quickly solve it was himself.
Everything would come to light.
But during the entanglement, he coaxed his Shizun, and also coaxed himself, who was on the verge of despair. He said that there would be many, many opportunities in the future.
They would always be together.
Just like the entanglement of love, from night to day, he would bully him many times a night. They would sleep in the same position, entangling with each other. At dawn, when the sun was rising, he would wake up in his gentleness. They would indulge in sex in the middle of the day, dirty to the extreme, loving to the extreme, wanting to the extreme.
Mo Ran held them together and stroked them, relieving them together.
Chu Wanning’s phoenix eyes were full of desire and fog. Following Mo Ran’s movements, his mouth was slightly open as he panted. His eyes gradually became confused and blurred.
While he was intoxicated, he suddenly heard someone knocking on the door.
Chu Wanning suddenly came back to his senses, the blood draining from his face. Mo Ran immediately covered his mouth, not letting him make a sound. The room was very quiet, but his other hand was still anxiously and fiercely stroking, stimulating himself and the person in his arms.
Chu Wanning wanted to shake his head, but Mo Ran’s strength was too great. He couldn’t move, and could only reveal a pair of phoenix eyes, comfortable and painful, filled with hatred and frustration.
“Shizun, are you there?”
Hearing that voice, Chu Wanning glared at Mo Ran even more angrily. He lightly knocked on the bed with one hand.
Mo Ran swallowed his saliva, his Adam’s apple moving seductively. His voice was low and hoarse. “Yes, I know, Xue Meng.”
“Shizun?” After waiting for a while, there was still no response. Xue Meng muttered, “Strange, the light is clearly on … Shizun?”
It seemed that Mo Ran didn’t plan to pay attention to him at all. He was still lying on top of Chu Wanning, immersed in love. The room was too dark. He even mistook Chu Wanning’s angry eyes for moist passion.
“Shizun?”
The disciple outside didn’t plan to leave, and the disciple on the bed didn’t plan to stop either. Chu Wanning couldn’t do anything about it. In a fit of anger, he actually bit Mo Ran’s finger. Mo Ran felt the pain and moved his hand away. There seemed to be a trace of grievance in his black eyes.
His voice was deep and slow. “Your bite hurt so much …”
“You might as well die from the pain.” Chu Wanning panted and glared at him fiercely. Then he said to the door, “I’m already on the bed. What’s the matter?”
“Ah, nothing,” Xue Meng said, “It’s just that I … I can’t sleep. There’s something on my mind that I want to tell Shizun …”
His voice gradually became softer. He could almost imagine the appearance of Phoenix hanging her head outside the door.
Chu Wanning: “…”
What was going on? Why did both of them have something on their minds tonight?
Chu Wanning was still worried. He patted Mo Ran, who was still on top of him, and whispered, “Get up and put on your clothes.”
Mo Ran’s eyes widened. With a dog-like expression, he asked, “You want to let him in?”
“There’s something wrong with his voice …”
“Then what about me?”
“…” Although Chu Wanning was embarrassed, he still said, “Put on your clothes and hide under the bed.”
