The Husky and His White Cat Shizun - Chap 235
“How …” Mo Ran took a step back, shook his head, and muttered, “How is this possible? It’s really you …? ”
“Yes, it’s me.”
The Emperor Ta looked at him slowly, and then smiled, “Well … I thought that after you were reborn, you wouldn’t remember much about your past life, but looking at you now, it seems like you still remember?”
“…”
“And looking at your expression, you seem to have guessed my existence. If that’s the case, you’re not too stupid. ”
Mo Ran mumbled. He had a lot to say, but the words were about to come out of his throat, but in the end, he shouted in disbelief, “But you’re clearly dead!!!”
“Oh?”
“You took the poison in the Wu Shan Palace, the king of poison, there was no way you could have survived! You died in front of the Tower of Babel, buried in a coffin under the flowering tree, you’re already dead!! ”
The Emperor Ta chuckled, “That’s not a good enough reason.”
As he spoke, he slowly raised his eyes, and revealed a sarcastic smile. His eyes were like the sharp beak of a raptor, ready to peck through Grandmaster Mo’s body.
“Why don’t I say one for you?” He said softly, with the calmness of toying with people in the palm of his hand, and chuckled, “Yes, I’m indeed dead, and the person who can prove that I’m dead is standing in front of me right now.”
Mo Ran, “…”
“Because you’re the soul that helped me escape.” The Emperor Ta laughed, “The most benevolent Grandmaster Mo, across the world, there are people who often tell me about your … how should I say, heroic deeds?”
He sneered.
“You’re so interesting, I thought you didn’t remember much about your past life, so you could pretend like nothing happened. But you actually remember everything. ”
“…” Mo Ran gritted his teeth.
“Sigh, Grandmaster Mo, do you think that as long as you keep silent, no one will know the truth? Do you think that as long as you put down the knife, you can start all over again? Most importantly, do you think … ”
The Emperor Ta suddenly became even more ruthless. He gripped Chu Wanning’s neck, his nails digging deep into his flesh. He pinched Chu Wanning until his skin turned purple. He furrowed his brows in anger, but he couldn’t say a word.
“Do you really think that I will be so kind and let you enjoy the light alone when there is no more fire in my world?”
“Don’t touch him!”
The Emperor Ta sneered, “Don’t touch him? Don’t you think it’s ridiculous for you to say this to me? ”
With Chu Wanning in his arms, he slowly walked in circles.
He and Mo Ran looked at each other.
The Emperor Ta stared at Grandmaster Mo.
Mo Ran stared at Mo Weiyu.
The past life was staring at this life.
The Emperor Ta mocked him, “Don’t you know how I did it? Now you’re pretending to be a good person. ”
“Don’t say it!”
“Hmm? Why didn’t he say anything? Don’t you think those things are interesting and unsatisfying? After so many years, life and death, don’t you think it’s time to talk about it? ”
Mo Ran couldn’t help but shake his head. His expression was even uglier than Chu Wanning’s. He was angry, helpless, guilty, and desperate. “Don’t say it.”
“Oh, you want me to shut up so badly? How interesting, our wise and kind Grandmaster Mo, at this moment, seems to be … “The Emperor Ta thought for a while and spat out three words,” very scared. ”
Mo Ran couldn’t wait any longer. He looked at Chu Wanning being tightly held in the Emperor Ta’s arms, and his heart was in turmoil. He didn’t know what to do. He just wanted to stop this demon in front of him from talking. He just wanted to bury all the ugliness and the past in the ground and seal it in the coffin.
The ghost light rose and suddenly attacked the Saint of Treading Immortals. The red sparks crackled and crackled. The flames were even more ferocious than before.
Avoiding the attack, the Emperor Ta’s expression changed slightly, “… Heaven’s Inquisition?”
No, as soon as he finished speaking, he already knew the answer. The red light of the willow vine was not Heaven’s Inquisition.
“… Your new Divine Martial Art is very interesting.” The Emperor Ta’s expression was slightly complicated. He stared at the vine whip for a moment, then looked up at Mo Ran. His expression was even colder.
“If that’s the case …”
As he spoke, he flew back and handed Chu Wanning to one of his men behind him. He then raised his hand and summoned No Return, “Come, let’s fight. I’m curious, which one is more powerful when I’m holding No Return, or when I’m holding the vine whip? ”
As he spoke, the Emperor Ta’s finger touched the Modao inch by inch. No Return’s green light surged, and his spiritual power reached its peak.
At the same time, Grandmaster Mo’s finger touched the willow vine inch by inch. The ghostly red light overflowed, and the flame burned fiercely.
“Fire attribute?” The Emperor Ta sneered, “Although I have a dual attribute of wood and fire, I clearly remember that I’m better at using wood, not fire. Why did you change your temperament? ”
Mo Ran kept silent and did not answer. His expression was cold and solemn. He pursed his lips tightly, and there was a trace of sadness in his eyes.
Those were the eyes of a person standing on the edge of a cliff, teetering on the edge of a cliff.
“Clang!”
Two figures that were almost identical leaped into the air and clashed fiercely in midair, pouncing and tangling with each other.
Gui Gui and No Return roared noiselessly as a torrential spiritual current flowed out. It was as if a flood dragon had encountered a huge whale, or a flood had struck a ferocious beast. In a split second, the bricks of the Dragon Soul Palace were scattered in all directions. Stones and sand flew everywhere. Their surging frenzied current even raised the magma of the Dragon Blood Pool.
Everyone attached spiritual power to their feet to prevent the overflowing magma water from burning themselves.
The Emperor Ta and Grandmaster Mo were no exception. The two of them fought fiercely, and they were evenly matched. The blades clashed and the vines danced like the wind. The black shadow pounced on the black shadow, and the bloody eyes stared at the desperate one. Every move was the peak, and the flame and lightning surged wildly!
There was another sharp sound of weapons. The two of them tiptoed and soared into the air. The vine whip and the modao collided, and the splashing spiritual power reflected on the two pale faces.
One of them died and came back to life.
The other was better than death.
During the power struggle, the Emperor Ta’s eyes were filled with thousands of snowflakes. He shouted, “No Return, Quench the Spirit!”
Grandmaster Mo gritted his teeth and said slowly, “The ghostly, Quench the Spirit.”
In an instant, their own spiritual power rushed into the two Divine Weapons. The two Divine Weapons each emitted a bright light, and the red light and the blue light rushed to kill each other. In the end, there was only a “bang” sound, and No Return hit Mo Ran’s shoulder, and the ghostly pierced the Emperor Ta’s left arm.
Both of them groaned and fell to the ground, one on the left and one on the right. They panted and didn’t feel the pain of their wounds at all. All of their attention was on each other. They were like fierce beasts fighting in a cage. It was either you die, or I live.
The Emperor Ta’s eyes were gloomy, “The way you use the vine whip is too similar to his.”
“His” naturally referred to Chu Wanning.
Grandmaster Mo didn’t want to be entangled with the Emperor Ta. His eyes were murderous, “Why don’t you get out of here?!”
“You want me to get out?” The Emperor Ta sneered, “Mo Weiyu, what right do you have? You’ve been wearing the sheep’s skin for a long time. Don’t tell me you’ve forgotten that there’s still sheep’s blood on your lips. ”
Before they finished talking, they leaped up again and started to fight again. The Emperor Ta rushed forward. The lava under his feet was boiling, and sparks were flying everywhere. But how could Mo Ran not be aware of his moves? It was as if he was looking at his own reflection in the lake. Before the Emperor Ta’s blade fell, he had already retreated a few feet. Under his feet, the sun was blazing, and the fire was flowing.
The two of them advanced and retreated. Every move they made was within the opponent’s expectation. In the blink of an eye, they had fought for more than a hundred rounds. They were evenly matched, and no one had the upper hand over the other.
Mo Ran’s forehead was full of sweat, and the Emperor Ta was also breathing heavily. They were still circling, staring at each other, and circling each other.
Sweat seeped into the dark space between his eyebrows. It froze for a moment, and then suddenly dripped down.
Mo Ran gritted his teeth and said in a low voice, “What are you doing all of this for?”
“I’ve said it before. Suirenshi is no longer in my world. Don’t be delusional and think that you can monopolize this last fire.”
Mo Ran suddenly became angry, “That’s also your last fire!!”
“But I can’t have it.” The Emperor Ta said coldly, “Besides, is there a difference between you and me? My hands are full of blood, and you’re clean? Why is it that I can only live my life in a drunken stupor alone in the long night, while you can protect Shifu, Chu Wanning, and your ridiculous uncle and cousin? Why is it you? ”
Mo Ran heard him say this, and suddenly he was startled. After a while, he said, “You’ve gotten it before.”
“… …”
Mo Ran looked at himself in his previous life. He had always said in his heart, but never said it out loud. Now he murmured, “You’ve gotten it before. You’ve stepped on it. You’ve extinguished it with your own hands. ”
The Celestial Treading Monarch’s expression suddenly became extremely dangerous. His nose wrinkled slightly, and there seemed to be waves of evil in his eyes. He was so gloomy that he even changed the way he addressed himself. “I destroyed him? Ridiculous. How can you be sure that it wasn’t him who destroyed me? ”
“You don’t know the truth of the Heavenly Fissure at all!”
“I don’t need to know.” The Emperor Ta said coldly, “Mo Weiyu, it’s all too late. I think it’s good this way. As long as he’s alive, he’s my man, and I can control him in the palm of my hand. It doesn’t matter if he’s happy or not. It doesn’t matter if he hates me or resents me. It doesn’t matter. ”
He paused, “I just want to see him.”
Mo Ran’s voice was filled with anger and pain. He was torn by shame and trembling. He trembled slightly, “You’ve already destroyed him once. You still want to destroy yourself, and destroy him in this world … the second time … ”
The Emperor Ta suddenly smiled. His dimples were deep, and he looked back and forth at Mo Ran’s face.
Then he said, “What’s there to destroy? Don’t you think so too? It doesn’t matter if this person is dead or alive. As long as you can control him, you can do whatever you want. ”
Mo Ran shook his head, closed his eyes, and said hoarsely, “You’re wrong. You shouldn’t treat him like this. He … he’s the person who treats you the best in this world. ”
“That’s ridiculous.” The Emperor Ta’s smile suddenly tightened, “He’s the person who treats me the best in this world? Then what about Shi Mei? Grandmaster Mo, don’t you think you’re ridiculous? The person you should be thinking about is clearly Shi Mingjing, who’s always been gentle to you and never looked down on you. You’re telling me that Chu Wanning is the best person in this world? Do you know what you’re saying? ”
“You’re the one who doesn’t know what you’re saying!”
They were close to each other, and their spiritual powers were colliding with each other.
Mo Ran’s eyes were red.
“He treats you with all his heart, but he’s very stupid. There are many things … many things that he does so stupidly, but he doesn’t tell you. Wake up, the person you like is not Shi Mei. All these years, when have you ever had any thoughts about Shi Mei? When you were lying on the empty bed in the Wu Mountain Palace, who was the person you were thinking about? ”
“… I don’t deny that he’s very pleasurable to fuck.” The Emperor Ta said indifferently, “But so what? He can never replace Shi Mei. ”
When Mo Ran heard him say that, he was obviously talking about himself in his previous life, but he was so angry that his blood rushed to his head. He gritted his teeth and said, “You’re not allowed to insult him.”
The Emperor Ta narrowed his eyes, “Why? You’re so protective of him now. Did you sleep with him again?”
“… …”
“In this life, you slept with him too?”
His narrowed eyes were like that of a snake.
The strength and spiritual power in their hands did not stop. The powerful technique even made the other chess pieces unable to withstand it. Some of them even curled up on the ground.
The Emperor Ta stared at Mo Ran for a while, then his eyes fell on Chu Wanning. He murmured, “Grandmaster Mo, I heard that in this world, Shi Mei is still alive, but you treat him like this.”
For a moment, Mo Ran did not know how to argue with this guy who came from the Door of Life and Death, and did not know how to resurrect.
In the end, he said, “What about you? Now that you’ve come to this world, Shi Mei is still alive. But when I came in, why did you not let go of my Master? ”
“Your Master?” The Emperor Ta rolled his eyes and said sarcastically, “Ha, you know very well what kind of relationship your Master is to me.”
“… …”
“Do you think I can hug him or not?”
Mo Ran wanted him to let go of Chu Wanning, so he said, “If you do this, are you treating Shi Mei like this?”
“Shi Mei is such a pure person. Of course, you can’t blaspheme him.” The Emperor Ta was not fooled and said lazily, “But Chu Wanning is different. He looks cold, insufferably arrogant, strong and conceited, but when he does it, he’s like a slut. Have you forgotten?”
Mo Ran did not expect him to be so lascivious and straightforward. He was stunned.
Then, he couldn’t help but think of Chu Wanning’s muffled moans under him. Even though he didn’t want to, he thought of how Chu Wanning had finally succumbed to her desire under the most intense and largest dose of aphrodisiac in his previous life. She had tangled with him crazily, taking the initiative to cater to him. Their sex was as intense as a beast’s.
That pair of eyes that were full of shame and unwillingness slightly closed. Chu Wanning’s eyes lost focus, his mouth slightly opened, and he couldn’t stop gasping … …
He suddenly closed his eyes, and when he opened them again, they were full of anger, “I’m not like you! In this life, I’ll still … still … ”
“Still what?” This time, it was the Emperor Ta who didn’t understand.
He felt that he had never pitied Chu Wanning, so he couldn’t imagine Mo Ran’s love and restraint in bed.
After a while, he finally realized what was going on from the other party’s angry and embarrassed eyes. However, he was even more stunned after realizing what was going on.
“Are you kidding?”
“… …”
“Don’t tell me you and him haven’t … …”
Mo Ran gritted his teeth. Damn it, the red light almost materialized, tearing the whole Dragon Soul Palace apart.
The Emperor Ta suddenly laughed, “Grandmaster Mo, at this moment, I suddenly feel that you and I are not related. Are you still me? Hmm? ”
The two of them, one was like a mad dog, the other was like a loyal dog.
The mad one was baring his teeth and laughing at him.
The loyal one was silent and sorrowful, stubbornly and firmly confronting him.
It was just that when he faced the monstrous mistake he had made, the loyal dog’s helpless expression was really pitiful and helpless.
Under the confrontation, it was really hard to determine the winner.
The Emperor Ta was gradually getting tired of it.
He suddenly said, “Okay, I’ve played with you enough. Grandmaster Mo, let’s see the real thing. ”
As he said, he waved his hand, and those precious chess pieces that had listened to his orders and stood motionless at the side all rushed forward. Mo Ran was attacked from the front and back, and couldn’t escape.
“This is your real thing?”
The Treading Celestial Monarch retreated from the fierce battle and walked toward Chu Wanning. As he walked, he looked back and sneered, “I’m a chess piece, so I’m naturally a part of my battle strength. How is it not true?”
Mo Ran looked at him holding No Return, gently patting Chu Wanning’s cheek with the blood-stained blade, and then fiercely pinching Chu Wanning’s face, saying something sweet to him.
He couldn’t bear it anymore. In his anger, he forgot that Chu Wanning seemed to have some kind of connection with No Return. He shouted, “No Return!!”
The modao flashed and actually shook in the Emperor Ta’s hand. It seemed to be hesitating and struggling.
It didn’t know who it should listen to.
The Emperor Ta slightly raised his eyebrows and looked down at his own blade, “Oh? Do you want to listen to him? ”
However, it was with this voice that Chu Wanning suddenly felt a splitting pain in his skull.
The messy fragments of the dreams that he had before, like rolling sand, covered his mind.
Scarlet curtain, pungent beast skin.
Limbs intertwined.
Outside the hall, kneeling, and the arrogant mockery of the palace maids.
The Emperor Ta felt that something was wrong with him, so he lifted his hand to remove the Silence Spell and said, “What’s wrong with you?”
Chu Wanning didn’t answer. He was in unbearable pain, and his whole head felt like it was going to split open.
He saw the ashes of bones that covered the sky and the sun. The blue sky was filled with ashes. A man in black robes stood between heaven and earth. Corpses were everywhere, and the people were in a terrible situation.
“Master.” The man turned around, and it was Mo Ran’s face. He grinned and smiled evilly.
In his hand, there was a bright red thing.
Looking at it carefully, it was a heart that was still beating.
“You’re finally here. Are you here to stop me?”
With a slight tug of his hand, the heart exploded in his hand, revealing the sparkling and dazzling Spirit Core inside. Mo Ran sucked the Spirit Core into his palm.
He walked towards him, step by step.
“I can’t believe that you and I, master and disciple, can’t escape from this battle in the end.”
“！”
Chu Wanning suddenly closed his eyes, and the veins on his forehead were throbbing.
The Emperor Ta felt that there was something wrong with his expression, so he raised his fingertips, touched his cheek, and then lifted his chin, “What’s wrong? Does it hurt? ”
“…” Chu Wanning was slightly trembling under his fingertips.
The Emperor Ta misunderstood and frowned, “I didn’t hurt you, how did you become so weak?”
Seeing that Chu Wanning still didn’t speak, he frowned and seemed to want to say something, but before he could open his mouth, he heard a heavy cracking sound outside.
The Emperor Ta’s expression changed slightly, “Someone broke the enchantment of Jiao Mountain by force?”
His eyes were like lightning, and he suddenly turned his head.
He saw an apricot yellow shadow flying over, and the momentum was amazing, and the way it moved was strange and gloomy, like a ghost.
In the blink of an eye, Chu Wanning was caught in the palm of that person’s hand.
Mo Ran said, “Master!”
The Emperor Ta said, “Wanning!”
“…”
The two men who shouted at the same time looked at each other, and there was disgust in each other’s eyes. But soon, Mo Ran and the Emperor Ta both turned their heads again, and stared at the uninvited guest floating in the air with the cassock fluttering in the wind.
Master Huaizui.
Huaizui’s face didn’t look so good. Compared to five years ago, his face was a lot more haggard, but the sharpness in his eyes didn’t decrease at all, and was still like the light of the river and the sea, rippling and surging.
Mo Ran’s heart relaxed. He didn’t know why Huaizui suddenly appeared here, but since this person was willing to use the Art of Rebirth to save Chu Wanning, he wouldn’t harm his Master.
But the Emperor Ta had never seen him before, and his expression was very dangerous, “What a little bald donkey, where did you come from? Why do you want to be my enemy? ”
Huaizui glanced at him, and then his eyes fell on Mo Ran.
He didn’t seem to be surprised by the appearance of two Mo Weiyu at the same time. On his face, there was more of a kind of expression, not surprise, but worry.
“Benefactor Mo.” Huaizui waved his sleeve. There were too many people here, and in order not to let the Emperor Ta hear, he used the Sound Transmission Spell to send this sentence to Mo Ran’s ears, “I can’t stay here for long, quickly come to Dragon Blood Mountain to see me.”
He paused, and added three words, “You have to be quick.”
Then, just like how he came, he left like a gust of wind, and disappeared in an instant. These precious chess pieces, and the enchantment of Dragon Mountain, seemed to be unable to stop him.
There was even a moment when Mo Ran saw that a cultivator had already grabbed his arm, but in the next moment, Huaizui’s figure was already far away from the hall door, and that cultivator’s hand had nothing in it, only a mass of cold air.
The Emperor Ta wanted to rush to catch up, but at this time, a sharp whistle suddenly came from the sky. His expression froze, and he cursed under his breath, “At this time?”
The whistle was sharp and ear-piercing, and his eyebrows furrowed. He glanced at Mo Ran, and although he was unwilling, he still pointed his finger in the air, “Count yourself lucky, next time you and I will have a chance to fight.”
Then, he led the rolling waves of chess pieces, and quickly retreated in the direction of the Soul-Summoning Altar.
This fierce battle started fiercely, and it also ended quickly.
In a moment, Huaizui disappeared, and so did the Emperor Ta. There was no one left in the Dragon Soul Palace. Mo Ran chased out of the Soul-Summoning Altar, but saw the Emperor Ta jump up, and rush towards the center of the dark matrix. Those precious chess pieces followed closely behind, and one by one, they were swallowed up by the boundless darkness in an instant.
And that matrix, after the last wave of cultivators entered, immediately shrank and distorted, and dissipated in the night sky, leaving only the Emei Moon in the sky, glowing scarlet.
The Gate of Life and Death closed.
Mo Ran stood on the Soul-Summoning Altar, where the north wind blew. He looked at the boundless night sky, looked at the mess on the ground, and only felt a burst of cold, unable to return to his senses for a long time. All of this was like a dream, but he knew it wasn’t. He knew clearly in his heart that everything that happened today was only the beginning.
He … was a ghost that escaped from the dead.
Some things were just a matter of time, and there was no way to escape.
The monstrous sins that he had committed, were like a sharp sword hanging over his head.
Finally, he was going to ask for his punishment, and take his life.
He seemed to see the Emperor Ta’s pair of ferocious red eyes, and he laughed, “Atonement? How can I atone? You and I are the same. You, will never be able to wash away the blood on your body. ”
He saw the Xue Meng from his previous life screaming at him, “Mo Weiyu! I hate that I can’t cut you into pieces! I won’t forgive you even in reincarnation! ”
He heard the terrifying sound of Song Qiutong falling into boiling oil, and heard a moment of screaming. He heard Ye Wangxi say that out of the seventy cities of the brilliant Confucian Wind Sect, not a single one was a man. He saw Xu Shuanglin standing in front of Ye Wangxi, his face full of determination and anxiety.
“Yifu!!”
His voice was like a sharp awl piercing the ear.
Blood flowed like a stream.
Finally, in the swaying light and shadow, in the stench of the past, in the nightmare of yesterday, he saw the figure of a person.
It was pure white, and peaceful.
He stood under the begonia tree, and then turned his head. In the shadows of the sky, he smiled slightly.
“Mo Ran.”
“… …”
“I was mean to you, I won’t complain even in life or death.”
He suddenly knelt down. He, who had gone through an entire night of bloody battle, was now in a sorry state, and was covered in blood. Under the reflection of the bright moon in the sky, he was stunned for a moment, and then curled up like an ant. His entire body arched on the ground, and he began to sob and tremble.
“Shizun … Shizun …”
He howled in grief. He choked with sobs. “It’s not like this … that’s not me … I beg you … I beg you … that’s not me …”
“I want to turn back, I want to start over, I want to pay any price, I’m begging you …”
“I’m willing to take out my heart, as long as you don’t let me die in the name of the Emperor Ta.”
“I really … really don’t want to be that person anymore … I beg you …”
He thought of Xue Meng, thought of Shi Mei.
He thought of when he was young, Xue Meng gave him a stick of candied haws, and arrogantly told him that he didn’t want to eat it.
He thought of when he left, Xue Meng teared up and grabbed his collar, and said to him, “Brother, don’t lie to me.”
He thought of when he was young, Shi Mei came to him with a steaming hot soup, and said to him, “Mo Ran, I don’t have parents either, so we’re going to be a family in the future, okay?”
He thought of Shi Mei on the Spirit Summoning Platform, and blood and tears flowed down his eyes. He said, “Actually, you’ve never understood me.”
Then he thought of Xue Zhengyong, and thought of Madam Wang.
He thought of how they died in his previous life, and thought of Xue Meng’s face, which was immersed in a sea of blood.
He thought of Chu Wanning.
He suddenly choked with sobs.
His fingers dug into the ground so hard that his knuckles were scraped and his skin was torn.
“What do I do … what do I do …”
He was like a trapped beast that had been whipped until his skin was torn and his bones were blurred. He howled in despair and grief.
At this time, he suddenly understood. Before, he thought that the Emperor Ta was an extra in this world, but what about him? Wasn’t it the same? He suddenly didn’t know where was the most peaceful in this world. He suddenly didn’t know if his old friends were still around, and who could forgive him.
He was an extra.
He curled up, and he trembled.
He wailed, and he hugged himself tightly.
Just like many years ago in the mass grave, beside his mother’s rotting bones.
He cried, and he didn’t know where to stop, and he didn’t know where his home was.
At this moment, he was even more miserable than when he was young.
He suddenly wasn’t so sure. He, Mo Weiyu, who exactly was he?
The Emperor Ta, Grandmaster Mo.
The seventh generation of the Nangong family, the second young master who was picked up at the peak of life and death.
He was an unforgivable devil.
The kind and righteous grandmaster.
All of a sudden, he shattered into pieces. Each of the pieces was so sharp that it was enough to slice him a thousand times over and destroy him in one fell swoop.
Dead.
Alive.
He was always alone.
“I’m not the Emperor Ta …” he muttered. It was cold. The Soul Summoning Platform was too cold. Every inch of his muscles and bones were shivering. He closed his eyes, and tears fell. He sobbed, “I’m not the Emperor Ta … what do I do … I really don’t know what to do … forgive me … forgive me …”
But who should he beg for forgiveness? Chu Wanning? Himself in his previous life? The countless ghosts and vengeful souls that died at his hands? Or the fate of wandering around.
No one could give him forgiveness. No one could.
He buried his face in his palms. In this empty world, he finally choked with sobs.
“What the hell … What the hell can I do …”
