The Villain Loves Me Very Much - Chap 1144
“Shi An, what do you think we should do? Will Xiao Yu be unable to bear such a blow and commit suicide again?”
When Shi An heard what Bai’s mother said, his heart was about to burst.
He never knew that a person’s heart could be so painful.
It was much more painful than when he knew that Bai Yu had a boyfriend. It was as if it was torn into pieces, and flesh and blood mixed with blood flowed all over the floor.
“No, he will never commit suicide. I’ll rush back now, and you guys should also speed up the search. We will definitely find him!”
Shi An hung up the phone call from Bai’s mother and immediately called his subordinates, asking them to find Bai Yu quickly.
Shi An had been forcing himself to stay calm.
But when he spoke, even his voice was trembling.
At that moment, he simply hated himself.
He had seen Bai Yu at that time…
When Bai Yu went to find Xu Jiazhou, he was clearly by Bai Yu’s side.
If he had followed, he could have comforted the panicked Bai Yu in time…
But he left. Running to such a remote place alone! Even
if he rushed back now, it would take so long.
When Shi An was sitting in the car, he kept checking the news of the day on the Internet.
The news was very naked, and even the video recording of that time was leaked.
[Bai Yu excitedly took the cake to see Xu Jiazhou, but saw Xu Jiazhou and Bai Yuanheng rolling together.
After seeing Bai Yu, Bai Yuanheng was not afraid of being caught cheating, but ridiculed Bai Yu.
Bai Yu didn’t say anything, he just threw the cake he made on the ground and left directly.]
His leaving figure was so lonely…
Shi An was full of fear just looking at Bai Yu like this.
Bai Yu had committed suicide…
because he was deceived.
The person who had always encouraged him and never despised him…
tore his true face in front of him.
Because of this stimulation, he wanted to end his life in a decisive way.
At that time, Bai Yu called Shi An for help.
But Shi An rejected Bai Yu. This time he still had a chance to save Bai Yu.
But he still didn’t follow.
Shi An’s heart was indescribable pain.
Fingers crossed against his forehead.
Fear and uneasiness were attacking him severely.
He tightly grasped the pen that Bai Yu gave him in his hand.
He kept praying.
He hoped that Bai Yu was okay and that he would not be upset.
But at this moment, Shi An suddenly saw a line of small words engraved on the back of the pen: Shi An, I like you so much, I really hope to marry you soon…
This was something Bai Yu had specially asked Xiao Mihu to engrave on this gift.
From the beginning, Bai Yu wanted to tell Shi An that the person he liked had always been him.
It was just because Shi An didn’t like him that he was with someone else.
Shi An stared at the line of words blankly, and the whole person was stunned. When
he received this gift from Bai Yu, he didn’t open it to read.
Even if he thought about it yesterday, he just found it and didn’t study it seriously.
But he didn’t expect that there would be such a line of words engraved on it.
So…
the person that Bai Yu has always liked for a long, long time ago actually…
It was me…
Shi An’s pupils suddenly contracted.
He suddenly remembered that after being in the hospital, Bai Yu told him that he had always had someone he liked.
“I have always had someone I like silently.
I always watch him quietly. I have always liked him silently in my heart…”
“But that person doesn’t like me.
In addition, my face is disfigured, and I am not qualified to be with him. So I gave up.”
“At this time, the liar found me and comforted me with the warmest tone.
He told me that I was not unwanted. That
‘s why I was deceived by the liar.”
“I think, in the future, I will continue to like the person I liked before… He is the one I really like in my heart.”
But…
When Bai Yu finally mustered up the courage to say to Shi An, “Maybe I can be your fiancée.” Shi An rejected Bai Yu again.
He also told Bai Yu in person that he already had a girlfriend.
So, Bai Yu found a boyfriend.
That is Xu Jiazhou.
At this time, Shi An suddenly realized that if it weren’t for him.
Bai Yu would not be with Xu Jiazhou.
And he would not be hurt again!
Along the way, Shi An had been hating Xu Jiazhou and Bai Yuanheng. He swore that after finding Bai Yu, he would definitely deal with them severely.
However, at this time, he suddenly realized that he was the initiator of everything.
The person he should hate the most was himself…
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After returning, Shi An was in a state of fear and self-blame.
It took a day to find Bai Yu.
He drove around everywhere.
But he was not familiar with Bai Yu and didn’t know where Bai Yu would go. It
was not until the evening that Shi An’s people found out that Bai Yu had stayed in a hotel.
When Shi An got the news, he drove madly to the hotel where Bai Yu was.
Along the way, he kept forcing himself not to think about it.
But all kinds of terrible pictures always appeared in his mind.
Now it has been a whole day since Bai Yu left the Bai family.
After such a long time, if Bai Yu wanted to commit suicide, it would be too late now
. Shi An didn’t dare to think about it
anymore. When he found Bai Yu’s room, he explained his intention to the front desk and rushed over with the room card.
His fingers were shaking all the time.
When he opened the door, he looked at the person lying on the bed, and even his legs began to go weak.
At that moment, he didn’t have the courage to move forward.
Shi An stared at the person on the bed. He didn’t know how he walked over.
It was such a flat road, but when he walked over, it was like walking on a mountain of knives.
With every step, he felt like his whole body was pierced by knives.
He placed his fingers on Bai Yu’s nose, and when he felt the gentle air exhaled from it, Shi An almost collapsed on the spot.
Tears rushed out of his eyes all of a sudden, and his eyes had turned red.
Great, Bai Yu is fine.
Bai Yu seemed to have noticed something in his sleep. He rubbed his eyes and opened them.
“Shi An, why are you here?”
As soon as Bai Yu finished speaking, Shi An hugged him in his arms.
The unprecedented impulse made Shi An forget everything. He
was only grateful for surviving the disaster.
If it were before, he would definitely not have such close physical contact with Bai Yu, especially knowing that Bai Yu had liked him before.
But now, Shi An doesn’t care so much?
As long as Bai Yu is okay.
As long as he is still alive in this world…
He hugged Bai Yu tightly, wishing to rub him into his flesh and blood…
“Bai Yu…”
Bai Yu looked at Shi An’s actions and was stunned.
He didn’t expect this person to hug him so actively.
The corners of his mouth curled up slightly, and a trace of warmth flowed through his heart.
In fact, Bai Yu did all this for this moment.
In order to force Shi An to take the initiative, he deliberately left the Bai family and then found a place to “calm down”.
Unexpectedly, the effect was better than he imagined.
At least this guy knew to hug himself actively, instead of pushing himself away.
But this is not enough…
Bai Yu wants more than just a hug…
He wants this person, all the feelings.
Bai Yu buried her head in Shi An’s neck.
She said in a tearful voice, “How could you find me? I thought no one would find me… I thought I was abandoned by the whole world.”
“How could it be?”
Shi An’s heart tightened again.
The relief that Bai Yu was fine just now turned into uneasiness again.
“You won’t be abandoned, Bai Yu.”
“But… you should have seen that many people on the Internet are scolding me for being ugly.
They say that for people like me, living is a mistake.
How can I expect that someone really likes me?”
“They are talking nonsense!”
“No.”
Bai Yu shook her head at Shi An and pushed him away.
“You don’t understand… People like me have been abandoned by the whole world.
From the moment my appearance was destroyed, all I got was the malice of this world.
Even if I try hard to live and want to fight for it, it’s useless.
You see, those who keep saying they love me are all lying to me. As long as they meet someone better, they will abandon me without hesitation.
In this world, no one really likes me anymore. Every one of them is disliking me. ”
When Bai Yu said this, there was indescribable loneliness in his eyes.
In fact, he was really upset.
It was not all acting…
because Bai Yu thought so.
In his opinion, the person in front of him was his whole world.
If he did not love himself, then no matter how beautiful his appearance was or how many people liked him, it would be useless.
He only wanted this person’s love…
If he still rejected himself.
Then what was the difference between being abandoned by the whole world?
Bai Yu lowered his eyes and wanted to smile.
But he couldn’t smile no matter what.
Tears flashed in his eyes, and he suddenly wanted to cry.
Because he had done so much, he was not sure what choice Shi An would make?
Would he abandon himself again?
Seeing that Shi An did not speak.
He had been forced to this point, and he still did not speak.
Bai Yu lowered his head, and suddenly regretted doing this.
Did he still not dare to say that he liked him?
Bai Yu knew that this person had his own difficulties, but he still forced him like this.
In fact, he was also very embarrassed. He
should not have done this earlier.
Why force him like this when he knew his choice?
“Forget it. You won’t understand even if I tell you, so go out, I won’t commit suicide, don’t worry. I just want to be alone.”
Bai Yu thought, I’ll tell him tomorrow that I can save him.
Today, he no longer has the strength to face him.
Without scaring Shi An again, Bai Yu directly told him that he would not commit suicide.
Bai Yu thought that after he said this, Shi An would breathe a sigh of relief and leave.
However, what he didn’t expect was that at this moment, Shi An once again hugged him tightly and said words that made Bai Yu feel redeemed:
“I like you, Bai Yu.”
“It’s not that no one likes you, I like you…”
