Use Yourself As A Poison - Chap 101
“That’s good.”
　　A happy smile appeared on the corner of Chi Feng’s mouth.
　　He wanted Yang Qian to break up with Jian Heng, and from then on, Yang Qian completely hated Jian Heng.
　　In this way, Jian Heng will also stop his dirty thoughts about Yang Qian.
　　Chi Feng tore off the clothes on Jian Heng’s chest with his hands.
　　In the direction of Jian Heng’s heart, the word “Chifeng” is still engraved on his skin.
　　It was carved by Chi Feng himself.
　　”Don’t forget, you are here under my name.
　　Jian Heng, you are mine.”
　　Jian Heng lowered his head slowly, as if he had fallen into an ice cellar.
　　His whole body was indescribably cold.
　　When Yang Qian helped him apply the medicine before, it only hurt his back.
　　He didn’t even remember that Chifeng’s name was engraved on his chest!
　　Chi Feng’s proud masterpiece, in Jian Heng’s view, is a humiliation that makes him unable to hold his head up.
　　Chifeng…
　　”Chifeng” is actually engraved on his chest!
　　Chi Feng patted Jian Heng’s cheek with some pride, and then said to him:
　　”I’ll wait for you to steal his things and come to me. Be quick with your hands and feet, don’t make me wait.”
　　—
　　After Chi Feng left.
　　Jian Heng broke down and cried loudly in Yang Qian’s room.
　　He tightly pinched the clothes on his chest with his hands.
　　I used to think that I had got rid of the darkness.
　　He can finally enter the light…
　　but the reality is telling him.
　　He will never be able to get out of the darkness.
　　He even engraved a mark of darkness on his body.
　　This reminded him all the time that he and Yang Qian would never be together…
　　Jian Heng searched for sharp weapons in Yang Qian’s room everywhere.
　　He picked up a knife on the table and scratched off the name on his chest.
　　he does not want.
　　Do not have this person’s name on yourself.
　　He doesn’t want it!
　　There was an indescribable pain in the chest.
　　A large amount of red blood kept coming out of the wound.
　　But Jian Heng didn’t seem to feel it, and was still desperately trying to cross out this humiliating name.
　　I don’t want to have anything to do with this person at all.
　　Tears have already flowed all over the place.
　　Jian Heng had never collapsed like this before.
　　Even when he was about to be humiliated to death by the eunuch, he didn’t…
　　At that time, he thought he would die for sure.
　　There is no hope at all.
　　And just plainly accept death.
　　But now…he is so broken.
　　Why, when he finally got such a ray of light, a life-saving straw.
　　To push him into the darkness again!
　　At this moment, the closed door was suddenly opened.
　　Yang Qian rushed back in a hurry.
　　Earlier, the guard informed that it was Chi Yan who was looking for him.
　　But Yang Qian found Chi Yan, but Chi Yan didn’t look for him at all.
　　Yang Qian was afraid of being cheated, so he hurried back here.
　　He thought that someone had found out that he had taken Jian Heng away, so he used this method of diverting the tiger away from the mountain to distract himself.
　　Now it seems that he thought too much, but luckily Jian Heng is still there.
　　But before Yang Qian could catch his breath, he saw such a shocking scene.
　　In front of him, Jian Heng desperately cut the skin on his chest with a knife.
　　He was crying while rowing, and the ground on his body, including his hands, was full of blood.
　　The skin on his chest had been scratched, and there was a bloody patch.
　　Looking at such a shocking scene, Yang Qian felt his heart throbbing.
　　”Jian Heng, what are you doing?”
　　Yang Qian was going crazy with distress.
　　He hurried over to snatch the knife from Jian Heng’s hand, intending to throw it on the ground.
　　However, he had just grabbed the knife in his hand.
　　Jian Heng seemed to be crazy, desperately grabbing the handle of the knife.
　　”Give it to me! Give it to me!”
　　Jian Heng roared and said such words.
　　His whole person’s emotions have completely collapsed.
　　He didn’t even see clearly who the person in front of him was.
　　There is only one idea in mind.
　　He wanted to cross out the name of the man on his chest.
　　Even if all the meat there is gouged out.
　　I don’t want Yang Qian to see it.
　　Yang Qian didn’t listen to Jian Heng’s words, but threw the knife far, far away.
　　He desperately comforted the person in front of him.
　　”Jian Heng, Jian Heng, listen to me, I’m Yang Qian. Can you calm down?”
　　Yang Qian didn’t know what happened to Jian Heng?
　　Why was Jian Heng fine when he left, but now he is so out of control?
　　Yang Qian quickly hugged Jian Heng in his arms, and hugged his body desperately. Don’t let him mess around again.
　　The body temperature of Yang Qian surrounded Jian Heng completely.
　　He kept talking to Jian Heng, bandaging him forcibly while comforting him.
　　”Jian Heng…it’s okay…it’s okay…”
　　After a while, seeing Jian Heng calm down, Yang Qian asked Jian Heng:
　　”Jian Heng, What’s wrong with you?”
　　Jian Heng cried and raised his head, looking at the person in front of him.
　　Just the thought of leaving him soon.
　　I can’t express the sadness in my heart.
　　No one knew how much he liked Yang Qian.
　　From childhood to adulthood, except for his mother. No one has ever been nice to him.
　　Only Yang Qian…
　　Only Yang Qian gave him unprecedented warmth.
　　Yang Qian is the light of his vitality.
　　Light up his utterly dark life.
　　However, Chi Feng insisted on dragging him into the darkness again…
　　”Yang Qian, there is something bad here, you give me the knife, you give me… I’ll get it Drop…”
　　There was no way to disobey Chi Feng’s order.
　　But at least get his name off. He didn’t want Yang Qian to see it!
　　Yang Qian was really distressed.
　　He thought that just like the prince carved flowers on Jian Heng’s back, he also carved something on Jian Heng’s chest, which made Jian Heng collapse like this.
　　”Jian Heng, listen to me… now there is nothing in your chest. Really, there is nothing. You don’t have to treat yourself like that with that knife anymore.”
　　Yang Qian said while He carried Jian Heng to the bed.
　　”Don’t move, I’ll give you medicine.”
　　Yang Qian’s hands were shaking.
　　He hated Eunuch Wang from the bottom of his heart, and Chi Feng who gave Jian Heng to Eunuch Wang.
　　If I had known earlier, he would have directly killed the prince.
　　”Jian Heng, it’s all right now…”
　　Yang Qian said softly to Jian Heng.
　　But Jian Heng still collapsed.
　　He tightly grasped Yang Qian’s sleeve.
　　It was like clutching at a straw.
　　I’m so stubborn, I don’t want to let go…
　　but Chifeng’s words are all in my mind.
　　”Do you know how easy it is for me to kill Yang Qian? As long as I give the order, he will die as easily as the bird on the tree. He doesn’t even know who killed him.” I know. He doesn’t know, he died because of you!”
　　No!
　　He can’t let this happen.
　　Jian Heng collapsed to the extreme, and the expression on his face was also full of something wrong.
　　But in the next moment, Yang Qian held his face in his hands, and then kissed Jian Heng’s lips forcefully.
　　It is different from the previous tastes.
　　It was a deep, deep kiss.
　　Even the lips and tongue began to blend.
　　Yang Qian deepened the kiss vigorously.
　　He wanted to tell Jian Heng that at this moment, the person beside him was himself.
　　It is now, and it will be in the future!
　　”Jian Heng, calm down, it’s me…not anyone else, it’s me!”
　　Transparent tears fell from Jian Heng’s eyes.
　　From being passive at the beginning, to later he hugged Yang Qian desperately and kissed him back forcefully.
　　He longed for this man too much.
　　So longing to be with him forever…
　　never had such a luxury.
　　Even if his life is shortened.
　　He just wanted to stay by Yang Qian’s side…
　　but Jian Heng knew it.
　　This is bound to be a delusion.
　　Jian Heng originally planned to tell Yang Qian why he did those shameless things at that time.
　　Although he did do it, he also had his own reasons.
　　But now.
　　There is no need to say these words anymore.
　　Because he will soon follow Chi Feng’s wish to steal Yang Qian’s most precious things.
　　Then he was spurned by Yang Qian and left him forever.
　　Since childhood, Jian Heng has never felt any warmth.
　　When I was a child in famine, my mother starved to death in front of him.
　　At that time, he could do anything for a bite to eat.
　　Later, in order to survive, he resigned himself to depravity and became Chifeng’s male favorite.
　　Chi Feng was too cruel, he escaped because of fear.
　　And in order not to be kicked out by Chi Yan, he seduced men everywhere in Chi Yan’s house…
　　he just wanted to stay there.
　　Originally, he didn’t care about his reputation at all.
　　Even if he is ridiculed by everyone and scolded by those people.
　　It doesn’t matter to him either.
　　He just wants to live.
　　But now, compared to letting myself live.
　　He wanted Yang Qian to live well.
　　Jian Heng didn’t want to leave like this…
　　he wanted to hand himself over to Yang Qian.
　　Even if only once.
　　At least, there was a moment when he belonged to Yang Qian…
　　This was enough for him.
　　Yang Qian was just trying to appease Jian Heng, but he didn’t expect Jian Heng to say to him:
　　”Yang Qian, can I give myself to you?”
　　Yang Qian was stunned.
　　He didn’t expect that Jian Heng would suddenly say such words to himself.
　　For a while, the heart beat fast.
　　Although Jian Heng often said such things to him in the past, saying that he wanted to consummate the house with him or something.
　　But those were all jokes.
　　Not like now.
　　The expression on Jian Heng’s face was so serious and serious.
　　And so full of anticipation…
　　”But…”
　　Before Yang Qian finished speaking, Jian Heng’s face turned pale.
　　He grabbed his clothes tightly.
　　Extremely ashamed and said:
　　”I know I’m not clean… I won’t say such things to you in the future…”
　　Jian Heng felt unspeakably uncomfortable.
　　What is he thinking?
　　How could he expect Yang Qian to touch his filthy body?
　　”No!”
　　Yang Qian knew at this time that Jian Heng thought he detested him.
　　”I don’t dislike you. Your injuries are too serious.”
　　Whether it’s his back or his chest.
　　They were all so badly injured.
　　Jian Heng raised his head again.
　　”If you don’t dislike me, you want me, okay?”
　　Jian Heng looked at the person in front of him eagerly.
　　Like a child waiting to be redeemed.
　　It seemed that Yang Qian could only be rescued if he agreed.
　　please.
　　help me.
　　Yang Qian…..
