Use Yourself As A Poison - Chap 105
　Chi Yan has never been so relaxed.
　　These days, his heart is too painful.
　　Every day in this world is a torment for him.
　　Those truths were torn apart bit by bit.
　　All are revealed in front of him.
　　So cruel, so terrible…
　　Until this time, he didn’t know what he had done?
　　It turned out that on the day of the Lantern Festival, Shen Yunnian knew that Bai Luo was locked in the carriage, and she stopped him on purpose.
　　And in the carriage, those two strong men tied Bai Luo up, bullied him, beat him, and even wanted to rape him.
　　If Bai Luo didn’t get sick and bled so much, scaring those two people away, Bai Luo would have already been captured by them.
　　Chi Yan couldn’t imagine how desperate Bai Luo was at that time…
　　He was so close to him.
　　It was only a few steps away, and he had even reached the door of the carriage.
　　As long as you lift the curtain and take a look, you can save Bai Luo from these people.
　　However, it was such a step, but he didn’t do anything.
　　Just let Bai Luo stay there alone, and spend it in endless despair…
　　these things are too many.
　　Every time he knew one thing, Chi Yan felt that his heart was sliced ​​open by a knife.
　　Irreparable mistakes…
　　and bloody pain in the heart.
　　Now even if he wanted to compensate Bai Luo and apologize to him, there was nothing he could do.
　　Bai Luo is dead…
　　Chi Yan will never see that person again.
　　There was no way to hear his voice.
　　There was no way to hold him in his arms.
　　All he has is the tablet in front of him.
　　So cold, so hard.
　　The one who would always be in front of him, smiling at him.
　　It has completely disappeared from this world.
　　Chi Yan’s heart is full of pain, and now he just wants to be relieved quickly.
　　Tears flowed down the corners of his eyes.
　　He really wanted to go to another world to find Bai Luo…
　　if only he could see him…
　　his Bai Luo.
　　He has liked him since he was a child when he first saw him.
　　I’ve been thinking about him so much for so many years.
　　So many people were sent to search, just to find him…
　　It’s a pity that I am deaf and blind.
　　The person who has been searching for many years is by my side, and even paid so much for me.
　　But I don’t know anything…
　　and even admitted to the wrong person, causing Bai Luo to suffer so much.
　　In the end, he let him die by his own hands.
　　It would be great if I could see Bai Luo in another world…
　　This time, he will definitely try his best to treat him well…
　　and never break his heart again.
　　It caused him so much pain…
　　In the haze, Chi Yan seemed to see Bai Luo appearing in front of him.
　　Smiling to himself.
　　Chi Yan also showed a smile.
　　He stretched out his hand in the direction of “Bai Luo”.
　　I want to leave this world with him…
　　—
　　But what Chi Yan didn’t expect was that when he opened his eyes again, it wasn’t Bai Luo’s figure that appeared in front of him.
　　It was the emperor who was extremely angry.
　　The emperor has always regarded Chi Yan as the crown prince of the country, and he himself has no children.
　　Among the two younger brothers, he valued Chi Yan the most.
　　He has always trained Chi Yan as his successor.
　　He also intends to hand over the entire country to Chi Yan after a hundred years.
　　But he didn’t expect Chi Yan to disappoint him so much.
　　Actually looking for life and death for a guard.
　　In the end, he even dared to put poisonous wine in his mouth!
　　That Bai Luo, the emperor already wanted to kill him.
　　Even he personally sent the hidden guards to kill him.
　　It’s a pity that Bai Luo was rescued by a mistake at that time…
　　Now, such an eyesore is finally dead, and the emperor is indescribably happy.
　　Those who achieve great things do not stick to small details.
　　Especially as an emperor, the most important thing is to be cold-blooded and ruthless.
　　Even if the person he loves the most dies, he can only remain indifferent.
　　Act like nothing happened.
　　But now, Chi Yan really wanted to die!
　　The Emperor was indescribably disappointed in him.
　　”Chi Yan, what the hell are you doing? You are looking for life and death for a guard. Do you know that if the eunuch who gave you the wine didn’t find out that something was wrong, he replaced the poisonous wine with sweat medicine. You are dead now!
　　”
　　Chi
　　Yan Yan listened blankly to what the emperor said.
　　There is no trace of happiness in my heart.
　　He wants to die, he doesn’t want to live at all.
　　”Why don’t you let me die? Why do you want me to live in this world?
　　Why?
　　Hurry up and let me die!”
　　Chi Yan felt an indescribable pain in his heart.
　　He yelled directly at the emperor.
　　Now that Bai Luo is gone, there is no meaning for him to live in this world.
　　He didn’t want to live like this.
　　He couldn’t imagine how he would survive in the days to come?
　　The emperor was almost pissed off by Chi Yan.
　　The bastard.
　　”Do you still remember your responsibilities? You are the one who wants to become the emperor of the country!
　　How can you take the personal relationship of your children so seriously?
　　Chi Yan, have you forgotten what I taught you?
　　As an emperor, the first One thing is to be cold-blooded and ruthless!”
　　”Cold-blooded and ruthless…”
　　Chi Yan looked at the person in front of him and smiled coldly.
　　Suddenly a young figure appeared in his mind.
　　That was a very handsome man.
　　At that time, Brother Huang liked him very much, but in the end, he actually bestowed him to death with his own hands.
　　The reason is because he is a man.
　　He is a man who cannot give birth to an heir for the royal family.
　　And he is a very jealous person.
　　The emperor’s brother was not allowed to accept a concubine, and he was not allowed to be with other women…
　　In the end, those old officials read one after another, and even fabricated charges against him out of thin air.
　　Brother Huang actually obeyed the words of those old ministers and ordered him to be killed!
　　At that time, Chi Yan was young, and he would never forget the tears that man shed in front of the emperor’s brother.
　　Before the emperor brother gave him the white silk, he took the poison himself first.
　　By the time those eunuchs sent Bai Ling over, he had already died for a long time.
　　Brother Huang just stared blankly at that person’s body for a long, long time…
　　He remained motionless, as if he had aged more than ten years overnight.
　　But, just like that, Brother Huang endured it all, without shedding a single tear.
　　In the end, I don’t know what happened.
　　After the man died, the emperor also took in many concubines, but he didn’t have any heirs.
　　It was like confirming the curse of that person before he died.
　　”I hope you will have no children and grandchildren forever! Then you will live alone with endless pain!”
　　Brother Huang did it.
　　He is cold-blooded and ruthless, even if his beloved dies, he can go to accept the concubine without shedding a tear or changing his face.
　　But, all these years, is he really happy?
　　Is it really happy to guard this country alone?
　　There was only despair in Chi Yan’s eyes.
　　Brother Huang can do it.
　　But he couldn’t do it…
　　he couldn’t live alone like this.
　　Bai Luo’s figure was everywhere in his mind.
　　They lived together for five years.
　　In the past five years, it can be said that they have followed each other like a shadow.
　　No matter where Chi Yan went, he could always see Bai Luo standing there.
　　He seemed to be smiling at himself…
　　as if he was talking to himself…
　　but when he walked over.
　　But he found that Bai Luo he could see was just an illusion.
　　He couldn’t touch him.
　　There was no way to talk to him either.
　　There is no way to convey the deepest regret in my heart to him.
　　Everything is nothing but icy cold air…
　　But at this moment, the emperor said to him:
　　”Chi Yan, don’t forget, how did you get your life? Before you were You’ve been poisoned by Gu and you’re about to die. Think about it, who rescued you?”
　　The emperor’s words hit Chi Yan’s heart hard like a blow to the head.
　　How did his life come about?
　　Chi Yan knows better than anyone else.
　　It was in exchange for Bai Luo’s life!
　　In order to save him, Bai Luo suffered so much and suffered so much.
　　He was even bitten by poisonous insects and snakes for three years!
　　The purpose is to be able to walk in front of oneself, and then pull oneself back from death.
　　”So, Chi Yan, do you really intend to let such a precious life be lost so easily?
　　Are you worthy of Bai Luo who tried so hard to save you?
　　I heard that he suffered so much to save you. Fortunately,
　　you, a glass of poisoned wine, destroyed all his efforts.
　　Do you think you are worthy of Bai Luo?
　　Even if you die, Bai Luo will never forgive you!”
　　The emperor said The words are getting heavier and heavier.
　　He didn’t want to use Bai Luo to give Chi Yan the will to survive.
　　But now there is no other way…
　　He said it as if Chi Yan died because he was sorry for Bai Luo.
　　Chi Yan was really stunned.
　　Big tears fell from his eyes.
　　He couldn’t think of anything that made him more desperate…
　　he couldn’t die…
　　his life was bought by Bai Luo’s!
　　However, he couldn’t imagine how he would live in the future?
　　His beloved is gone…
　　he has left this world forever…
　　but he can only live on his last breath…
　　his figure is invisible.
　　I can only hold that spirit card every day.
　　Then he missed him all the time…
　　——
　　Seeing that Chi Yan had calmed down, the emperor was finally relieved.
　　In his heart, he was already looking for a new princess candidate for him.
　　He thought that when his beloved died, he quickly took over his concubine.
　　Then Chi Yan can too. author_say The emperor’s lover mentioned a sentence earlier, and it will also appear in the follow-up.
　　Can you guess who he is?
　　Then, the reason why the emperor has no heirs for so many years is because he has never touched any of those concubines himself.
　　However, he is not a good thing.
