Use Yourself As A Poison - Chap 124
　　Nie Huaiyu pulled Bai Luo’s arm vigorously and led him away from this place.
　　Bai Luo was in a daze.
　　He didn’t want to cry, but the tears still fell out of his eyes uncontrollably…
　　Bai Luo felt that he was really useless.
　　At this point, do you still care what this man does?
　　But…
　　probably at the bottom of the genius doctor Gu Shandi, he really liked this person…
　　At that time, this bastard lied to himself, saying that he was his husband…
　　He also said that he would be with him forever…
　　That time was really the purest time in Bai Luo’s life.
　　He forgot all the grievances and grievances…
　　doesn’t remember all the hurts…
　　just regards Chi Yan as his husband and loves him sincerely.
　　The happiest thing every day is to be able to see him as soon as I open my eyes…
　　every day with him is full of happiness.
　　Bai Luo didn’t talk to anyone.
　　At that time, he made a small wish for himself in his heart every day.
　　It is to be able to be with Chi Yan forever.
　　For a lifetime…
　　for a lifetime…
　　a couple…
　　but who would have thought that everything changed after that.
　　He recalled too many terrible memories.
　　He thought that as long as he remembered these memories, he would be able to take revenge without changing his face.
　　He wanted to take all the harm that Chi Yan had done to him, and hurt him again.
　　However……
　　No one knew, when he was in the palace.
　　Bai Luo suffers every day.
　　He looked at Chi Yan who treated him affectionately.
　　The mind is full of divisions.
　　He hates him, but loves him…
　　likes him, but wants to kill him!
　　Bai Luo knew he was stupid.
　　I also know that Master’s advice is correct.
　　However, after his heart was mixed with this memory, it became more and more uncontrollable.
　　Seeing Chi Yan hugging Shen Qing just now made him no longer able to deceive himself.
　　His heart was clearly contracting unconsciously! twitch!
　　He thought that he could forget this person…
　　but…
　　he simply couldn’t!
　　Bai Luo touched his tears with his hands.
　　He wanted to pretend that nothing happened, but he still couldn’t hide the pain in his heart…
　　he told himself desperately.
　　In fact, this is also very good.
　　In the future, you can really forget about Chi Yan.
　　No matter what happened to him, he had nothing to do with him…
　　and Chi Yan and Shen Qing.
　　Bai Luo knew how good Shen Qing was.
　　When she was in the most pain and discomfort, it was Shen Qing who gave her a hand.
　　So, Bai Luo couldn’t even be jealous of Shen Qing…
　　It’s just…
　　that bastard is too cheap…
　　Bai Luo’s tears are still uncontrollable fall.
　　Although he has worked very hard.
　　He was also desperately wiping his eyes.
　　However, it still can’t be wiped clean.
　　Bai Luo really wanted to be alone and quiet for a while.
　　But at this moment, Nie Huaiyu suddenly stopped him.
　　Then there was an unusually warm hug that enveloped him…
　　Nie Huaiyu hugged the person in his arms hard.
　　I also have mixed feelings in my heart.
　　Nie Huaiyu felt that only by hugging Bai Luo tightly like this, could he get rid of Shen Qing’s shameless look just now from his mind!
　　His face was ugly.
　　His brows were also deeply wrinkled.
　　”Luo Luo, you saw it just now. Can you give up now?”
　　Bai Luo closed his eyes forcefully and did not speak, but his body was trembling.
　　”Luo Luo, will you marry me?”
　　Nie Huaiyu couldn’t wait to get rid of that bitch Shen Qing.
　　He could have killed them both now.
　　This bitch, he hasn’t really dissolved his marriage with him yet… He
　　just climbed into Chi Yan’s bed so impatiently.
　　Nie Huaiyu really felt disgusted no matter what he thought.
　　He had already planned to write a divorce letter as soon as he returned to the mansion, and divorce that bastard.
　　He really hated Shen Qing.
　　I can’t wait to have a new life and completely cut off all relations with him.
　　Seeing that Bai Luo didn’t respond to him, Nie Huaiyu continued,
　　”Luo Luo, I know what you’re hesitating for? I also know that you still like Chi Yan.
　　But…
　　can you look at me too?
　　At that time, when you passed away, Chi Yan was not the only one who was sad.
　　Do you know how sad and uncomfortable I am?
　　I can’t sleep all day long, and I spend my days on alcohol.
　　I don’t even know what motivates me to live?
　　Really…
　　At that time, I felt that the sky was dark.
　　Now, you are finally alive. Why can’t you take a look at me? ”
　　Nie Huaiyu kept saying such things, but he didn’t tell Bai Luo.
　　At that time, there was a man named Shen Qing who always silently stayed by his side and guarded him.
　　He was drunk, and Shen Qing I was afraid that he would vomit and suffocate when he fell asleep, and he didn’t even dare to sleep…
　　Shen Qing always looked at him stupidly, wiped his sweat, and even washed him…
　　But He didn’t even dare to sit on his bed.
　　Shen Qing has been doing things in such a silent way, never taking credit. He
　　was even afraid that Nie Huaiyu would dislike him as an eyesore, and would go back to the side hall where he lived to sleep after everything was done.
　　That’s why Nie Huaiyu is feeling so uncomfortable now.
　　He hates it so much, this person pretended to be very affectionate towards him.
　　At that time, he showed that he loved himself so deeply…
　　Now he can’t wait to climb to Chiyan
　　How ironic. The
　　departure of himself and Bai Luo just now allowed them to be as happy as they wanted…
　　Nie Huaiyu almost suffocated when he thought of this.
　　He desperately said to the person in front of him:
　　”Lolo, marry me. I will be very good to you. So much better than anyone in this world treats you.
　　Even if you don’t like me now. It doesn’t matter.
　　I think, one day you will fall in love with me…”
　　Bai Luo didn’t speak, but was crying.
　　But Nie Huaiyu knew that Bai Luo had already started to loosen.
　　Otherwise, he would definitely deny himself immediately… .It
　　seems that as long as he works harder, he will agree to himself.
　　—On
　　the other side.
　　Seeing Nie Huaiyu take Bai Luo away, Shen Qing got up from Chi Yan.
　　He lowered his eyes and went to close the door.
　　Then a little Helping Chi Yan wipe off the blood stains on his body a little bit.
　　Chi Yan looked at him with some guilt.
　　”I’m sorry, Shen Qing…”
　　Chi Yan was very guilty, and he used Shen Qing as an excuse to make himself and him Bai Luo completely severed the relationship.
　　This is really too selfish.
　　But Shen Qing pretended to be innocent and said:
　　”It doesn’t matter, anyway, Nie Huaiyu and I will be separated soon. ”
　　Actually, when Nie Huaiyu was asked to divorce herself,
　　Shen Qing already knew that the relationship between the two of them would end like this.
　　So even if I feel uncomfortable, it’s no big deal.
　　”It’s you! Do you know that I almost gave up acting just now?
　　Look at you…”
　　Shen Qing looked at Chi Yan with some sadness.
　　He looked at the blood on Chi Yan’s body, and he really felt unspeakable fear.
　　In fact, Shen Qing almost wanted it just now. He confessed in front of Bai Luo.
　　Although Nie Huaiyu’s words made him very sad,
　　this was not the reason why he wanted to confess.
　　Because he was with Chi Yan these days…
　　Chi Yan’s body was already like this, and he still went to take out the blood from his body time and time again.
　　Although Chi Yan never mentioned it, why did he do this?
　　But Shen Qing knew that he was doing it for Bai Luo.
　　”But, Chi Yan, have you ever thought that you like him so much, but he doesn’t know that you are going to die. Wouldn’t this be unfair?
　　For Bai Luo, if he knows later, everything we do now will be worthless.” You lied to him.
　　He was not able to be by your side at the last moment of your life…
　　He will definitely be in great pain, and even regret it for the rest of his life.”
　　Shen Qing lowered her head.
　　Although he has never experienced such a thing himself.
　　But bring it into Bai Luo’s perspective.
　　This is really suffocating…
　　Although Shen Qing just helped Chi Yan cover up the past.
　　But in fact, he did not agree with Chi Yan’s approach.
　　Even, he was still persuading Chi Yan.
　　But Chi Yan said: “He won’t know. When my health really fails, I will leave here so
　　that no one can find me.”
　　Shen Qing didn’t speak any more.
　　Because this is Chi Yan’s own choice…
　　He knows that this is not something he can interfere with…
　　During the period, Chi Yan went to draw blood twice more.
　　Every time he came back from bloodletting, his face became more and more ugly.
　　Originally, the body that was still able to walk, in the end, could not even walk steadily.
　　However, the eunuch of the palace came again and said that he needed his blood…
　　Shen Qing looked at Chi Yan’s bruised arm, even tears fell from his eyes.
　　Never had he been so close to death.
　　He was really afraid that if Chi Yan went again this time, he would die like this…
　　Shen Qing couldn’t bear to help Chi Yan up.
　　Unexpectedly, Chi Yan said to Shen Qing: “Shen Qing, you go. I don’t need you anymore…”
　　Because even Chi Yan himself felt that his body was already weak. It’s about to collapse.
　　I don’t know what kind of Gu Feng Yu played for him?
　　This Gu worm was attacking every day, as if it was eating his flesh and blood.
　　In fact, Chi Yan has not fallen asleep for a long time.
　　Especially after the bloodletting, his body was in extreme pain, and the severe pain made him unable to close his eyes at all.
　　I thought I could hold on for a while longer.
　　But Chi Yan clearly felt that his time limit was approaching…
　　he was about to die.
