Use Yourself As A Poison - Chap 89
　”Chi Yan, are you crazy? You actually asked me to treat Bai Luo with this method. Do you know how painful it is? Are you trying to make him die so anxiously?” Yang Qian was extremely
　　angry Looking at Chi Yan.
　　The reason why he was unwilling to treat Bai Luo before was because Yang Qian knew how terrible this method was.
　　Not only is the success rate poor.
　　But also to experience unspeakable pain.
　　Yang Qian knew that there were many people who wanted to become medicine Gu with Bai Luo at that time…
　　But why was Bai Luo the only one who endured it?
　　It is because the method of becoming a medicinal Gu is too cruel and inhumane!
　　That kind of pain is simply unbearable for ordinary people…
　　Bai Luo was able to persevere because he loved Chi Yan so much.
　　His desire to save this man was above all else.
　　Otherwise, Yang Qian really suspected that he would have been hurt to death at that time!
　　But now Bai Luo, what can he do to persevere?
　　He begged to die again and again, and he didn’t even have the courage to live.
　　His body has also become unbelievably weak…
　　The current him has long been exhausted, and he is completely incomparable to what he was then.
　　How could he endure such pain, and then survive such treatment?
　　”Chi Yan, if there is no treatment, he still has a month to live…
　　If the treatment is to start tomorrow, otherwise the longer it takes, the worse it will be for him.
　　If you are really good for him If so… You just fulfilled his wishes a lot during his last days, isn’t that good?
　　Don’t torment him anymore! I don’t want him to die so painfully!
　　Those poisonous insects and snakes are too terrifying. It’s not something the current Bai Luo can bear! ”
　　Yang Qian kept talking like this, but he couldn’t shake Chi Yan’s determination.
　　Chi Yan squeezed his fingers hard.
　　How could he not know how scary those bugs are?
　　He also wanted to satisfy Bai Luo He also
　　wants Bai Luo to be well and not to suffer any pain!
　　But, he really has no way to let Bai Luo die in front of his eyes like this.
　　One month is really too short. It is as short
　　as Chi Yan There is no way to accept it.
　　The current Bai Luo is exhausted. Yesterday in the carriage, he was still talking to himself for a moment, and passed out the next moment.
　　Bai Luo leaned on Chi Yan’s shoulder, his whole body He couldn’t move. It was as if he was dead.
　　Chi Yan’s tears fell out of his eyes.
　　At that time, Chi Yan felt that his heart was about to stop beating.
　　God knows he put his finger on Bai Luo’s nose Down below, when I checked whether he was still breathing, I felt so scared…
　　Although Bai Luo was still breathing at that time,
　　Chi Yan was really afraid. If one day, he put his hand on the Under Bai Luo’s nose, when he can’t feel the slightest breath…what is he going to do?
　　”No! I won’t let him die, and he can’t die either! ”
　　Chi Yan gritted his teeth and said this.
　　His face became hideous because of the pain.
　　”Don’t tell me these things anymore. Just tell me, can you cure it or not?
　　If you can’t cure it, I’ll go to Shen Yunnian’s doctor Jiang Miracle! ”
　　Yang Qian was powerless.
　　Chi Yan was forcing himself, and he was also forcing Bai Luo.
　　”Understood, I’ll treat him. It’s just…”
　　Yang Qian gritted his teeth and said, “I hope you can bear the worst outcome!”
　　—
　　There is no worst outcome!
　　There won’t be any!
　　Chi Yan has never been so paranoid.
　　He believed that Bai Luo would be able to survive.
　　Putting his fingers on the door of Bai Luo’s room, Chi Yan gently opened the door.
　　All he saw was that Bai Luo, who was supposed to be resting on the bed, was actually sewing clothes.
　　These clothes are all one size smaller, and there are even skirts for girls.
　　It looked like he was preparing for his younger brothers and sisters again.
　　While doing such things, Bai Luo was coughing, his face was already unbelievably pale, and his body was getting thinner and thinner.
　　Even the finger holding the needle was trembling…
　　but he looked so weak, yet he was still doing these things that were completely unnecessary in Chi Yan’s opinion.
　　”What are you doing?”
　　Chi Yan walked over at once, and directly snatched the things from Bai Luo’s hand.
　　Bai Luo is already like this, yet he is still doing these things.
　　”If you want these clothes, I’ll ask the most senior embroiderer to sew them for you. You can make as many as you want. There’s no need to do it yourself!” “No 　　!
　　”
Yan said:
　　”Give them back to me…I want to leave something for them with my own hands…”
　　Chi Yan didn’t let Bai Luo leave here, and didn’t let him go to the Valley of Divine Doctors to worship.
　　Before Bai Luo died, he even said that his parents had no way to visit him again.
　　There are too many regrets in his heart…
　　I just hope that before I die, I will leave some thoughts for my younger brothers and sisters.
　　In addition to these things, he also wrote a letter to each of these children.
　　When Chi Yan picked up his clothes, the letter had already shaken off.
　　Bai Luo’s hands simply couldn’t reach those letters.
　　He wanted to grab those letters, but he couldn’t do what he wanted.
　　He could only watch helplessly as Chi Yan picked up the letters in front of him.
　　Chi Yan held the letter and looked at every word written on it, feeling his heart ache beyond control.
　　These things are believed, rather than last words!
　　Bai Luo was actually writing this kind of thing.
　　He told his younger siblings not to be sad if he died.
　　They can grow into great adults.
　　Even Bai Luo explained to him the younger brother who was so excited that day that he vomited blood.
　　Tell him that if he dies, he will be guarded in the sky, and let him stop hating him…
　　Chi Yan tore all these so-called letters to pieces!
　　How could Bai Luo die?
　　he won’t die.
　　He will be alive and well.
　　There is no need for these unlucky things!
　　Clothes can be prepared by your own embroiderer.
　　As much as Bai Luo needs, he will prepare as much.
　　His younger brothers and sisters also let him protect them himself.
　　There is nothing in the sky!
　　”Bai Luo, you don’t need to write such things, and you won’t die! You don’t need these things at all!”
　　Chi Yan forcefully threw all these things prepared by Bai Luo on the table beside him.
　　A pair of eyes are already very red.
　　Bai Luo watched his letter being torn up, his eyes were full of pain…
　　He closed his eyes, and transparent tears flowed slowly from his eyes…
　　”Chi Yan, How long are you going to torture me?”
　　He was almost dead.
　　He has so many regrets…
　　Chi Yan doesn’t even let him visit his parents’ tomb.
　　Now even the things he left to his younger brothers and sisters are taken away and torn up…
　　Bai Luo feels that his life is really a terrible failure.
　　He desperately loved someone, but in the end, he ended up like this…
　　”Bai Luo, this is not torture. I’m just telling you. You will live well.
　　I won’t Let you die. With Yang Qian helping you to heal, you will be fine…
　　We will get married again when you recover. I promise you, this time I will only marry you alone… …”
　　Bai Luo burst out laughing.
　　It’s ironic as hell.
　　This person tricked him into getting married, but he humiliated himself severely in the wedding hall.
　　Now he said that he still wants to marry himself!
　　”The success rate is less than 10%…Chi Yan, can you respect me, even just once…
　　I don’t want to be treated, I don’t want to die right away…I still There are so many wishes that I want to fulfill.
　　I also…
　　do not want to marry you…”
　　When he was a guard before, Chi Yan treated him like a dog.
　　The same is true now.
　　When will he be able to ask his own thoughts?
　　Why do you have to torture yourself like this in the end!
　　Bai Luo’s words stung Chi Yan’s heart.
　　Chi Yan didn’t want to hear about the success rate at all.
　　He wanted Bai Luo to live.
　　Bai Luo will definitely live too!
　　Chi Yan walked to Bai Luo’s side and picked him up from the bed.
　　”Yang Qian said that your treatment must start as soon as possible. The longer it takes, the worse it will be for you. So we decided to start tomorrow…”
　　Bai Luo slowly lowered his hands.
　　His whole body was full of powerlessness.
　　None of his things are ready.
　　The letter was also torn up by Chi Yan.
　　He didn’t seem to have existed in this world…
　　Why did he have to be treated so cruelly?
　　-
　　Early the next morning, Chi Yan carried Bai Luo to the room that Yang Qian had prepared for Bai Luo.
　　There was a large vat that Bai Luo was familiar with.
　　Inside the tank are extremely terrifying poisonous snakes and poisonous insects.
　　When Chi Yan looked at these things, his heart was trembling with fear.
　　His Bai Luo used to be like this, he stayed in this kind of thing for three full years…
　　but he didn’t know anything about it, and thought it was an extremely easy thing to do as a medicine Gu. He even laughed at him for his greed and vanity.
　　”Chi Yan, can you promise me one last thing…”
　　Bai Luo looked at the person in front of him, and asked him the last request in his life.
　　”If I die, take care of my…” siblings.
　　Before Bai Luo finished speaking, Chi Yan called out all of a sudden.
　　”No!”
　　Chi Yan was extremely irritable.
　　It’s death again! Brother and sister again!
　　Chi Yan can’t hear the word “death” at all now!
　　”You won’t die, no! No! Your younger brothers and sisters, you have to take care of yourself! You will live well. When you are cured, I will take them all over. You can take care of them as you want Take care!”
　　Bai Luo’s heart sank.
　　He won’t live.
　　He will definitely die…
　　”But, you promised me before…”
　　Bai Luo’s hand firmly grasped Chi Yan’s hand and he looked at him motionlessly.
　　It’s like Chi Yan doesn’t agree, he won’t let go.
　　”I beg you. This is my only wish…”
　　In the end Chi Yan was defeated: “I promise you… But, Bai Luo, you will not die. You will Live well.”
　　”You will definitely live!”
　　After Chi Yan finished speaking, he gave Bai Luo a firm hug.
　　Tears welled up in the eye sockets.
　　Chi Yan endured it stubbornly, not letting those tears flow down.
　　Bai Luo is still alive and well.
　　He has to smile.
　　Chi Yan personally placed Bai Luo in the vat full of poison.
　　As soon as Bai Luo entered, those poisonous insects immediately bit his body, and
　　Bai Luo was tightly surrounded by indescribable pain.
　　He was so painful that he almost suffocated…
　　The venom seeped into his body bit by bit.
　　Bai Luo’s spirit was a little fuzzy.
　　For the first time, he was willing to enter such a large vat full of poison for this man…
　　This time, it was this man himself who put himself in…
　　Yang Qian gestured to Chi Yan can leave.
　　Chi Yan was full of reluctance.
　　He stared fixedly at Bai Luo, seeing his pale face because of the pain, he almost wanted to jump in and replace him by himself.
　　Chi Yan left trembling.
　　Bai Luo slowly closed his eyes, thinking that he never wanted to see him again.
　　I don’t know why, but before Chi Yan left completely, I opened my eyes and took a look at him…
　　only to see that man’s figure disappearing in front of my eyes little by little…
　　the door After being locked up, he never disappeared again.
　　This time we will see each other forever. 　　Bai Luo
　　knows that he will never see him 　　again 　
